David Vann - Caribou Island

A grand old tradition. And your mother?

She didn’t work.

You mean she did child care, home engineering, and billing?

How old are you? Jim asked.

Old enough to be your grandma.

Jim laughed. That’s good, he said.

Yeah, she said.

Carl, meanwhile, was back at the campsite huddled in his tent against the rain, writing postcards. Saying hi to his friends in D.C., telling them how he was and how Monique was, too, since Monique didn’t write postcards. Monique also didn’t sleep in tents, apparently. She had found higher ground somewhere. The note said only, I’ll see you tomorrow. This pissed him off. He would have run out into the rain and torn his clothes and raged like Lear, but no one was around to watch. Monique couldn’t have heard or cared. In the end, he would only have been wet, with torn clothing. The whole thing sucked.

It was the kind of thing that had been happening since the first day they arrived in Soldotna. Carl and Monique heard that first day about treble-hook snagging at the gravel spit in Homer and rushed down in a rental car. This was when Carl still had some money.

Monique thought Homer was beautiful. While Carl got his gear together, she walked around the harbor. The mountains on the far side of the bay rose straight out of the water in jagged rows and still held snow at their summits. Flocks of pelicans skimmed along the black-sanded beach, the water was jeweled in late evening sun, and looking out into the bay, shielding her eyes, Monique saw the spray of a humpbacked whale rise up golden and glittering then sweep along the surface in the wind. This is a place I could live, she thought. Then she walked on the docks, looking at the boats, and met a fisherman who had dark hair and blue eyes and spoke to her of king crab and halibut and the softness of the sea at night.

Carl knew all this because Monique had told him afterward, in detail. She was like that. It didn’t occur to her that she might be stepping on something.

Unaware of the dark handsome man with blue eyes and this shit about the softness of the sea, Carl had tromped down to the edge of a gravel pit partially filled with unclear water. A hundred feet across and three times as long, it looked like a stagnant pond. He could see small, iridescent rings on the water’s surface from gasoline. But the king salmon came here anyway, apparently, with the high tide.

The tide was dramatic along the Cook Inlet, a current like a river, and when it came in at about eight o’clock, it did come in fast. Carl was impressed. The salmon poured in, and a hundred fishermen, Carl among them, ripped huge, weighted, baitless treble hooks through the water from all directions trying to snag the salmon as they darted past. A hook often came free of the water and shot through a row of fishermen to bury itself in the gravel bank behind. It was stupid and dangerous. Getting snagged and ripped wasn’t all that uncommon, Carl heard with a chuckle from one of the regulars. There were ten-year-old kids out there whipping their lines around not looking behind them and old men tottering on alcohol and medications, their vests and hats already a jumble of hooks. It was ridiculous and demeaning. The salmon caught were tattered and frayed, ripped up from all the previous snags that had pulled free.

Carl wrote on a postcard to Monique’s mother, It’s gorgeous here. Monique and I are really enjoying Alaska, the scenery and the people, the fishing. We met a fisherman who told us about king crab and halibut, and this was after we saw pelicans, whole flocks of them. Carl ripped up the postcard. Monique’s mother didn’t think he was quick enough. Slow Carl, she called him behind his back. Monique had told him this. Carl curled up into the drier part of his sleeping bag and tried to sleep.

Monique and Jim were having their own problems with sleeping arrangements. They had just finished a lovely salmon dinner, with wild rice and white wine and a somewhat battered-looking but, in Jim’s opinion, delicious Baked Alaska he had read up on and prepared himself. Yo-Yo Ma was playing on the stereo, and Jim was imagining great sex. Then Monique asked where she would be sleeping.

What? Jim asked.

I’m a little worn out, she said. Stayed up too late last night, so I was thinking I might turn in early after such a wonderful dinner. It really was superb. You’re quite a chef. And she raised her glass to toast him.

Uh, he said. Hmm. I was kind of thinking I’d be taking you back at some point tonight. Jim was panicking. Rhoda sometimes stayed over with her parents when she had dinner there, but not always, not even frequently.

You can’t be thinking of taking me back to that campsite in the middle of the night.

No, no, of course not. I don’t know what I was thinking.

Is it Rhoda? Is she coming here tonight?

Yes.

You’re not the only one who lives here, are you?

No.

And Rhoda’s planning on marrying you, isn’t she?

Jim’s erection had died. He closed his eyes and massaged his temples.

Jim, Monique said. This is poor planning, don’t you think?

Jim moaned a little and tried to think without thinking.

Look, Monique said. A nice hotel would be fine. I don’t want to get you in trouble with Rhoda.

Really? Jim asked, perking up. You’re the best.

I don’t mind.

So Jim took her to the King Salmon Hotel, where he hoped he wouldn’t know whomever was on duty. But after they had waited at the desk and rung the bell, one of his patients came out and smiled and said, Hello, Dr. Fenn.

Jim had to look quick at her name tag.

Hi, Sarah, he said.

How can I help you? She smiled at Monique, too.

This is my niece, Monique, Jim said. She’s up visiting for a while, but we’re having some work done on the house, so we thought we’d put her up here temporarily until we can clear out the drop cloths and the paint smell and all that, you know. He crinkled his nose for the paint smell and Sarah crinkled hers back.

Monique laughed when they were inside the room. Thank you, Uncle.

Don’t call me Uncle, Jim said.

Then she gave him one long kiss and pushed him out the door.

While her mom tried to sleep, Rhoda looked around the kitchen for dinner ideas. Canned baked beans, canned corn, instant mashed potatoes from a packet. That would be easy enough. She put a kettle on for the potatoes, nuked the corn, opened the can of beans into a pot, and by the time the kettle went off, her father drove up in his battered old F-150. No one in the family drove anything worth looking at.

Her father walked partway to the house, then stopped and looked around. The trees, the mountain, antlers along the roof, the flower beds. He always did this. All her life, from her earliest memories. She didn’t know what it was about.

Hey Dad, she said when he finally stepped inside. Looking at the trees?

What?

You always stop and look around before you come in the house, or into any building, or even into a boat or truck. What is that?

What? he asked. I don’t know.

You’re in trouble with Mom.

What?

Leaving her alone all day. She’s ready to kill.

I asked if I could take her to a doctor, he said.

I know, Rhoda said.

You know?

She told me. I was sticking up for you. And I brought a doctor, Bishop. He said she has a sinus infection and needs to go in for X rays tomorrow morning.

Okay, her father said.

Okay? I’m worried about her, Dad. She seems really sick. The pain is making her crazy.

Huh, he said. Then he walked down the hallway and eased the door open into the bedroom. He could hear Irene’s ragged breathing, her throat clogged up. He eased the door shut and walked around the bed in the dark, lay down behind Irene, and put an arm around her.