This is all the conversation he will muster for another few moments. That’s what the newspaper is for now. It helps to smooth over the patches when he no longer has breath for speech.
“Thanks, Dad.” She closes her hand around the medal until she feels its four points dig into her palm — this is the way not to cry when your father gives you something he wants you to have after he dies.
When she can open her hand again, she looks down at it. Silver thunderbolts and wings, a cross composed of propeller blades topped by an imperial crown. For valour courage and devotion to duty whilst flying, though not in active operations against the enemy .
“You got this in Centralia in, what? Forty-two?”
“Forty-three.” He’s reaching over the side of his chair, fishing in his newspaper pile.
“Can I help you find something?”
He shakes his head, going pink, his old irritation. “Maman puts my papers into the recycling before I’ve read half of them.”
“Which one are you looking for?”
“Couple months ago.” He reaches toward the table for his glasses, and finds them on his nose.
She rifles through and finds a yellowed two-year-old copy of The Washington Post .
“That’s it.” He looks at it accusingly. “She must’ve hid it on me,” he says in his playful tone, leafing through it.
Madeleine says, “I was thinking of going back there. To Centralia.”
“How come?” he asks, and clears his throat.
“I want to see if there are any bones in that stormpipe,” she answers, blinking in surprise at her own words. He raises his eyebrows but continues skimming the Post . “Remember there was a dog trapped?”
He shakes his head, but she can see him taking a reading, getting a fix….
“The night of flying up.”
He locks on.
She takes a deep breath, but quietly, not wanting to worry him. She is already trembling, cold. “You told me the fire truck came and saved it.”
He smiles and nods.
“Is that true?”
He opens his mouth and forms a word, then another, but no sound comes out. Then his voice kicks in, as though he were transmitting through radio static, and he continues without going back to the beginning of his sentence. She pieces it together.
He has said, with a convivial grin, “Why would I lie to you?”
“To make me feel better.”
That sounded harsh — as though she were angry at him. She has no reason to be angry. Especially at him, especially now.
He shrugs as if to say, “Fair enough,” then folds the Post and hands it to her. It’s crumbling at the seam but the page is intact. A photograph of an old man walking down the steps of a building in Washington. He’s flanked by a middle-aged woman and three men in suits.
RUDOLPH RELINQUISHES US CITIZENSHIP . She skims the article: Nazi…. NASA…. War crimes come to light… .
“Dora,” says Jack.
Madeleine looks up. “The rocket factory.”
“Bang on,” says Jack, and she is glad to have pleased him. “Remember Apollo?”
Rudolph, Dora, Apollo . What kind of story is this?
She looks back at the article. Arthur Rudolph. Wernher von Braun’s right-hand man. He has left the U.S. rather than face charges of crimes against humanity dating back forty years, to his time as general manager of an underground factory called Mittelwerk.
“They don’t say anything about Dora here.”
“They never do,” says Jack, and she hears the old sarcastic note. “It was a code name.”
She looks back at the article. Yet another old Nazi. “Took them long enough.”
“Rudolph managed the space program, he and von Braun got us to the moon.”
Rudolph with your nose so bright… . Concentrate.
“The Americans pinned a medal on him, and now they’re finished with him they want to fling him in jail,” says Jack.
“Isn’t that where he belongs?”
Jack shrugs reasonably—“You’re probably right”—and sighs reaching for today’s paper: “Fella in Texas just got an artificial heart, how do you like that?”
She can feel her mind glazing, fights the pull of the news, the TV, the smell of baking. “Dora — that’s where Mr. Froelich was.”
“That’s right,” says her father. “He was a slave.”
Slave . The word is like a wound. She watches his profile. Finer, the skin drawn more closely than before over the bones, the involuntary sadness at the corner of the eye that comes with age — exacerbated in his left eye by his old scar. His mouth still set against all odds, lips moving slightly as he reads — he never used to do that.
She wonders how to bring up the subject. What she has come here to tell him.
“Tens of thousands of them died, and some were hanged right in front of that fella’s office.”
Madeleine looks back at her father. “What?” Then at the photo again. She reads the caption: Rudolph and daughter… .
“He’s trying to come to Canada now.”
“We won’t let him in, though.”
“Probably not. Not at this point.”
“Is that what—? Did he get into the States because of Project Paperweight?”
“Paperclip.”
She returns the disintegrating Post to the newspaper pile as it dawns on her — what her father is telling her. “Is this the guy Mr. Froelich saw?” Maybe his hearing is going a little, because he doesn’t answer. “Dad?”
“No,” says Jack.
“What?”
“That’s not the man Henry Froelich saw.” He continues reading his Ottawa Citizen . “They just performed laser surgery on a man in Detroit”—he pronounces it “lazzer”—“zapped a blood clot in his brain, pretty soon we won’t need surgery at all. They’ll map the human genome and get in there and engineer everything at birth.”
“Did Mr. Froelich ever tell you who he saw?”
Jack nods, and she waits as he lifts the clear plastic mask to his face and takes a drink of oxygen before she asks, “Who?”
“An engineer.” He exhales through his mouth. “Henry didn’t know his name.” He looks at her for a moment, and she waits for him to speak but he returns to his paper.
“Did you tell the police?”
“Tell them what?”
“About the engineer?”
“Hank told them.”
“How come they didn’t do anything?”
“I don’t think they believed him.”
Because his story was tied to Ricky’s alibi. The one she helped to undermine. She tightens her hand around the medal again.
Jack raises the mask toward his face, pauses—“It was a different time. We were after Communists then, not Nazis. Old war”—then inhales.
It takes her a moment to realize that he has said, “Cold War.” He draws in the oxygen slowly, his lids half closing as though in prayer. He will be asleep soon. Then it will be too late in the evening. And if she waits till morning, the sunshine will persuade her that she’s fine and ought not to burden him with her story. She knows now how to begin. Dad? I have to tell you about something sad that happened to me a long time ago, but don’t worry, the story has a happy ending. See? I’m happy .
She watches his face fall — like a slackened sail, it abandons expression, and it’s clear how much effort has gone into the rigging of an ordinary smile. Are we all making that effort all the time, unaware of what it costs?
He glances at the mask but doesn’t reach for it. He turns his clear blue gaze on her. “What is it, sweetie?”
It’s suddenly painful to hear him. Not because his speech is faint or laboured but because it is not. She is hearing her father’s voice for the first time in — how long? It has been eroding, crumbling like a shoreline. She feels tears standing in her eyes. Is it because of what she has to say, or because, at the sound of his voice, her father has returned? As though a younger version of him has been permitted to come up from the shades and sit here in the living room of the condo. If she closes her eyes she will see the back of his sandy crewcut, elbow out the car window, hairs on his forearm combed by the breeze. Who wants ice cream?
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