Percival Everett - Big Picture - Stories

He was silent for a few seconds. “I don’t know.” Then he smiled. “Drink beer and get lucky.”

“You know,” she said, “somewhere there’s a twit with half a brain and big tits who would think that’s funny. And between the two of you, you’d have half a brain.”

“Fuck you.”

“You wish.”

“Hey, you know, this stuff ain’t my fault.”

Laney shook her head. He was right; it wasn’t his fault. But that didn’t make him any less despicable and sad, it didn’t make him any less like the string of duds Laney had found herself with in recent years.

“This is your fucking brother’s fault,” Mitch said.

“Shut up.”

“If the little asshole hadn’t run off and gotten drunk, then …”

“And if your father hadn’t poked your mother,” Laney said and then was sorry she’d said it.

“That’s the mouth I’m talking about,” Mitch whined.

“Sorry,” Laney said.

They walked on another forty or fifty yards.

“It’s no big deal,” he said. “We just put that belt on and drive to town and tell the cops what we saw. That’s all there is to it.”

“Okay.” A chill ran through her.

Mitch reached for her hand.

“Don’t touch me.”

Laney heard the car coming up behind them, a loud engine in need of a muffler. It came from the direction of town and slowed as it approached. She was afraid to look back, but afraid not to look. If it was the police she didn’t want to appear guilty. She was confused by the fact that she felt guilty. She glanced back and saw a rusty yellow mid-seventies LeMans. A man with long blond hair was driving and a man with a shaved head was trying to lean out of the partially lowered rear window. She saw that Mitch was looking at them, too.

“Don’t look at them,” Laney muttered.

Mitch looked forward as they kept walking.

The car was now beside them, matching their walking speed. Laney looked again.

“Gotta problem?” the driver asked, leaning out of his window, his free arm hanging down loose, his hand seeming to be mere inches from the pavement.

“No, no problem,” Mitch said.

“Why you walking?” the driver asked.

“Yeah, why you walking?” the bald man in the back seat echoed.

Laney and Mitch kept walking. “Just walking,” Laney said. She tried to hide the pump belt against her side.

“Just walking,” said the man in the back seat, laughing. Laney didn’t look, but imagined him bouncing up and down. Bouncing up and down just like her brother did when he was with his rowdy friends. Thinking of her brother in connection with these thugs made her feel bad, then more frightened.

The car rolled a few yards ahead of them and Laney saw the man sitting beside the driver for the first time. His face was buried in a dirty red beard.

“You married?” the driver asked.

Laney stopped and looked right at them. “Just leave us the hell alone.” She remembered the belt and tried to conceal it.

The men hooted.

“Yeah, we’re married,” Mitch said.

“You’re a lucky man,” the driver said. “Where you walking to? Want a ride? We’ll give you a ride.”

“No, no, thanks,” Mitch said, “our truck is just down the road a ways.”

“Okay, then.” The LeMans drove on, and the bald man kept looking at them through the back window.

Laney watched the car disappear down the road and then hit Mitch with the pump belt as hard as she could across his back and shoulder. He ran away some steps.

“What?”

“If you had even a piece of a brain, you’d be dangerous,” Laney said.

“I got rid of them,” he said.

“Where do you think they’re going? They’re going to my truck.”

“You don’t know that.”

Laney walked away from the road out across the desert.

“What are you doing?” Mitch asked.

“You go on to the truck. Here, take the fucking belt.” She tossed it to him. “And here are the fucking keys.”

He stopped her with a raised hand before she tossed those, too. “Calm down. Where are you going?”

“I’m going to town. I’m going to get off this shit highway and walk out there where they can’t see me.” She turned and marched quickly through the sage and over the prickly pears. She was glad to be walking on ground instead of pavement.

Mitch caught up and walked beside her.

They walked east and down into a dry river bed, and followed that north. Laney was glad she had drunk so much water. The sun was intense and robbing her of energy. She wanted to keep all of her fluids, but the pressure in her bladder grew worse. She considered that being scared was exacerbating the problem. She walked away from the bed toward a stand of rocks.

“Where you going?” Mitch asked.

“I’m going to take a piss, okay?” Laney rounded the rocks and stepped onto a large downward-sloping stone flat, out of sight of Mitch. She pulled down her jeans and underwear and squatted over the rock. She closed her eyes and waited, taking a deep breath, trying to relax. She heard a sound beside her, opened her eyes, and found a stream striking the rock just ahead of her and to her left. Mitch was standing beside her, urinating. Laney shook her head.

“Jesus Christ,” she said. “I can’t even pee by myself.”

Mitch sighed.

Laney quickly pulled up her clothes before letting out a drop and walked away, fastening her pants. As she stepped from the rock to the ground something caught her eye. A sunning diamondback was only three feet from her. The dull sand color of the snake stung her senses. She hadn’t disturbed it, so there was no rattling, no acknowledgment of her presence, but still it took her breath away. She looked across the rock flat and saw that there were snakes everywhere. She looked back and realized that she had absently wandered into the middle of a nest of basking rattlers. The sight and the thought that she had been in the middle of them made her shiver for a second.

“What is it?” Mitch asked, noticing her distress. Then he looked to where she was looking. “God almighty,” he said softly. “Fuck,” he said louder. “Look at all these fuckers!”

Laney stepped back some more, leaving Mitch alone in the middle of all the rattlers.

“Look at this shit,” Mitch said.

Laney looked at Mitch and wanted to laugh. She turned and started to walk away.

“Where are you going?” he asked.

“Town.”

“Wait. How did you get over there? How’d you get past these snakes? How’d you do that?”

Laney answered him without looking back. “I’m used to it.”

Dusk came on and the pinacate bugs were out of their holes, and trudging along the sand wash. Lucien Bradley pushed his toe into the path of one of the large beetles and watched it stand on its head. He glanced up at the shriek of a chat-little and noticed the pink in the sky. Although it didn’t show promise of rain, he walked up to the high ground near his truck to settle in for the night. He remembered how quickly desert floods could occur, how his father would not drive across a dip in the road if there was water standing in its trough. The chill of evening was already upon him, pushing his shoulders tight into his body and his palms flat together. He built a fire, ate a sandwich that he had bought some miles back outside of Las Cruces, and then rolled out his sleeping bag. He warmed his hands before the flame one last time and arranged sticks by the fire before slipping into his sleeping bag. Lying under the moon he noticed a saguaro cactus standing beyond the glow of his fire. He tried to recall the last time he had been able to sleep in the desert. The desert he and his father had shared was not like this one. The high desert was not as severe, not as frightening, constant, relentless. It was harsh only for its lack of water. His father spoke to him, a dead voice in the wind. He told Lucien what a fool he was, a fool to love the low land, a fool to have left school and joined the army, a fool to have no answers, and a fool to expect answers to questions he was foolish enough to ask. “I’m dead now, you fool,” his father said, “and I’ve died to fucking spite you. Giving up life for what?” Lucien put a stick on the fire and said, “Fuck you, too.” And then he felt stupid for talking aloud to his father. The dead made for decent memories, but lousy conversation. Fire was the substance of stuff, he thought, heat and consumption, light and vacuum, the center of power and the edge of approach and all the kinds of philosophical shit his father used to say about it. He was tempted to shove his hand into the flames.