Glenn Taylor - A Hanging at Cinder Bottom

He said he’d take a pass on that last one, and she curtsied to him and was gone.

From the window, he watched her on the avenue. She bent her course to the bridge and the Bottom. To Cinder Alley. He wondered if she’d make it back in time for her stage show that evening.

He got on the floor and used his spike nail to extract four fifty-dollar notes from a baseboard gap. Emergency money. The only other possessions he kept in that place were a change of clothes, a toothbrush, a razor, and a beaten copy of Forty Years a Gambler on the Mississippi . He slid the book in his jacket pocket. He rolled the clothes and toiletries, stuck the roll under his arm, and left. He did not take with him the balm of Gilead, for she’d confessed about the knockout juice.

Goldie was not in her room or any other at Fat Ruth’s. In the lobby, he spoke with Rebecca Staples. She leaned her hip on the parlor sofa and told him, “I haven’t seen Goldie, honestly, in I don’t know when.”

Rebecca did not look good. Floyd Staples showed up once a month to force himself on her and tell her she was worthless and take her money before he went back to his other woman in Matewan, a woman of unsound mind who’d borne his child in December.

Abe suspected Rebecca Staples of lying to him, but he would not press her. He asked, “How’s that little boy of yours?”

“Not so little anymore.” She sprayed perfume on a vase of white ostrich feathers.

“How old is he now? Nine?”

She had missed his last two birthdays. “Yes,” she said. “Might be ten.”

He started toward the door.

“He plays cards all day,” she said. She sat down on the sofa, atomizer still aimed at the vase. She squeezed the puffer until the plume sagged.

“I think you’ve scented that arrangement sufficient,” Abe said.

She did not acknowledge, but sprayed once more and quit. She suspected herself newly pregnant, and her mind was awash in quiet panic.

He was almost out the door when a clear thought came to her. “He’s in the kitchen right now,” she said. Then she raised the volume of her high voice and called, “Little Donnie!” She coughed and cleared her throat. She told Abe, “It would sure please him to see your card play up close. Maybe just a riffle?”

He said he needed to find Goldie. “Another time,” he told her. He took George Devol’s book from his pocket and set it down on the upright parlor piano. “Tell the boy to read this,” he said. “I’ll come collect it after a while, show him a trick or two.” And then he was out the door.

Little Donnie Staples stepped from the kitchen. “What?” he said.

Rebecca thumped a fist at her ribs to break up the indigestion. She told him never mind.

Across the street, Jake was tending bar. Big Bill Toothman sat on a stool and rubbed his lower back. Neither had seen Goldie.

Jake told him to try Hood House. “She’s likely up there with mother, taking turns at bad-mouthing you.” There was plenty of that to go around. Al Baach in particular was angry with Abe. Al had traveled the day before to Welch in order that he might calm his preacher father-in-law, who had heard of the middle boy’s penchant for drinking and bucking those that mattered. Before he’d ridden off on his new bay colt, Al had spat on the ground and told Abe, “I would tell you take care of the women and children, but I know better.” Al was worried. He’d not paid a cent in consideration money for six years, and he wasn’t about to start up again on account of his son. Al had finally been able to put a little away, and Henry Trent had even tapped him to run for council the following year. There was real money to be had in that game.

Abe put his hand on the barstool and leaned. A long house centipede raced from under the kickplate. Saloon sharks they called them. Abe shot out his boot and stomped it dead.

Jake asked if he’d like a drink.

“Just a beer.”

He had three, plus the onion-stuffed heel of a breadloaf, before he hiked up the hill. He was halfway home when he stopped and put his hand against a tree trunk. He retched and his knees nearly gave at the thought of losing her. But a single word arose inside him. Climb . And so he did.

Goldie was not at Hood House, whose rooms were full-booked. Nor was she at the second house, which they’d taken to calling the orphanage on account of Sallie’s ongoing rearing there of the motherless children of whores.

Abe watched his mother through the open door of an upstairs room. She hummed Twinkle Twinkle and worked a highback rocker with her foot. The child she held was Agnes, who had come to her only a month before. Every other unwanted baby had gone the way of adoption, but Sallie was determined that wouldn’t happen with this one. Agnes would be a Baach. Agnes would be the girl child she’d never had.

Sallie pretended not to see her middle boy in the hallway. She shut her eyes and hummed until he was gone.

Only when he was out the door and down the hill did Goldie come out of the closet behind the rocker. “I’m going out to the barn for awhile,” she whispered.

Sallie only nodded and kept at her humming

In the nave of the crib barn, Goldie stood and rubbed at the muzzle of her favorite horse. Dot was the mare’s name, on account of the white between her eyes. She was a blood bay, one of four horses the Baaches kept. As a girl, any time the notion struck, Goldie would knot a hackamore bridle and throw a leg over and ride. She’d not done so in years, but now she was of a mind to clap spurs to the horse and go.

She looked in the darkwater eye of the horse and saw there a refracted light beam from the open barn mouth. It curled white along the black roll of the eye, narrow to wide, and it looked to Goldie like the front lamp of a far-off night train, and for a moment, she was inside the eye of the horse called Dot, and she forgot what Abe had done, and she was happy. She scratched at the horse’s chin. She said to her, “I bet you still like to get out on a straight stretch.”

Samuel Baach walked past the open aisle with a shovel in his hand. When he saw her, he backtracked and said hello.

“Hello Sam,” Goldie called. The sun lit his forearms pale. He was the age and size of the red-haired boy she’d seen at the Alhambra. Skinny. She still thought of Sam as a boy. She noted his shovel. “Diggin to China?”

“Shovelin shit,” he said.

“Used to make you give me a nickel anytime you cussed.”

“That’s why I’m flat broke.”

She laughed a little.

“Where’s Abe?” He set down the shovel and pushed up his sleeves.

She shook her head. “Don’t know. Don’t care to.”

Sam spit out his tobacco. He looked up at the coming clouds. “Goin to get the big rain this evening,” he said.

“Don’t go into town then.”

“It’s Friday. My night to pull ale.”

She picked at a mud nubbin stuck in Dot’s forelock.

Sam regarded her. Even inside a shadow, Goldie was bright.

“I believe I’ll ride her before the storm hits,” she said.

“You know that mare’s pregnant.”

She didn’t know. It had been awhile since she was up on the hill.

“You can still ride her,” Sam said. “She’s not too far along.”

Goldie patted Dot’s big shoulder. It seemed that every matronly thing but her could bear fruit. She’d never wanted to offer a child where so many went unclaimed, but there had once been in her mind the possibility. Then the years passed without so much as a bellyache, and she knew that no lemon wedge or calendar could ever account for that, and so she’d accepted her lot.

She spotted a dirty sugarcube at the foot of the stall door. She fetched it up and offered it to Dot. She said, “I don’t have the clothes to ride her anyway.”