Russell Banks - Outer Banks

46. He hated domestic fowl of all kinds. “I don’t even like to eat one of the bastards, unless it’s cut up so I can’t recognize what kind of animal it was when it was still alive.”

47. He liked pigs. “Now you take your typical pig. That’s an animal with a developed understanding of its life. No delusions. Not like cows. Cows are under the impression that people keep them around because they like them. Pigs never make that mistake.”

48. What he hated about sheep was the way most people regarded them: “Most people think sheep are sweet and gentle. The truth is, sheep sleep twenty-four hours a day. As far as being alive goes, they’re located only one step this side of lawn furniture. Three stomachs covered with a woolly mitten. Personally, if it wasn’t for the mutton, I’d rather see a flock of cotton bales.”

49. “I’d make a lousy farmer,” he confessed. “Plants are okay, though. I don’t mind being around plants, long as they don’t get too cute, if you know what I mean.”

50. He claimed not to know his birth date. “I was barely there, for Christ’s sake.” When asked how old he was, he would answer, “About thirty-seven,” or, “About forty-two,” or whatever, always, of course, giving his correct age. He claimed his sense of time was different from most people’s in that it was more precise. Doubtless he knew his birth date and, when required by law, provided it, for he possessed a driver’s license, union card, Social Security card, and so on, like the rest of us.

51. Whenever in conversation the word “Florida” came up, he would interject, “Coney Island with palm trees.”

52. He did not believe in God. He said that when God believed in him , then he’d believe in them both. He made his statement somberly, with care, apparently with full awareness of its theological, philosophical and psychological implications.

53. He had lifetime subscriptions to The Farmer’s Almanac, Reader’s Digest, and National Geographic. Frequently, however, he sneeringly referred to an individual as, “The type of man who has a lifetime subscription to The Farmer’s Almanac ,” or, “… to Reader’s Digest ,” or, “… to National Geographic. ” Once, when someone had the temerity to point out that he himself owned lifetime subscriptions to these very periodicals, he answered, “Of course. How else do you think I’d know the types?”

54. He woke at six o’clock every morning of his adult life, even when he did not have to go to work. He did not own an alarm clock and could when necessary wake himself earlier than six and at exactly the time he wished to waken. He seemed to require no more than five hours’ sleep a night. In providing this information, he explained that this was because when he went to bed he went to sleep immediately and when he slept he concentrated on it. “Like a machine,” he explained. “No, like a rock,” he added.

55. Exposés and public scandals seemed to make him sad, as if he were suddenly reminded of some great loss from his childhood.

56. “I hate a melee. If you want a fight, you ought to make it personal. Insult somebody. Insult his mother, his girl friend, his manhood, whatever it is he thinks needs protection.”

57. He never permitted any of his wives to make breakfast for him. Once Jenny, attempting to curry his favor, got up an hour earlier than he and prepared a breakfast of fried eggs, pancakes, sausages, fresh biscuits, coffee, and melon, and when he came downstairs and discovered this lovely meal, he was enraged and stormed out of the house. Later, when describing the event, he explained his rage by pointing out the control a woman can obtain over a man if he lets her imitate his mother. “Good intentions can’t dull a sharp knife,” he aphorized. In fairness, he also pointed out the control a man can have over a woman if she lets him imitate her father. “It’s how I kept all my women in line. While I kept them.”

58. He despised throw pillows, bric-a-brac, knickknacks, and souvenirs, scatter rugs, doilies, and imitation chandeliers, flower decals, pink appliances, the color off-white, and whitewall tires, decorated mailboxes, and lawn sculpture, and David Susskind, and game shows, and television weathermen. He believed that you are what you love, and therefore he despised people who loved any or all of these things. He also believed that you are not what you despise, and since you cannot very easily control what you love and thus cannot very easily control what you are, you therefore ought at least to make a concerted attempt to avoid being what would disgrace you. For him, then, the most interesting person was the one who hated more things than anyone else, and the least interesting was the one who loved more things than anyone else. Errol Flynn, he thought, was an example of an interesting man. Lee Harvey Oswald and Arthur Bremer were interesting. Gerald Ford, Marilyn Monroe and the Beatles were not.

59. He loved compression when, as a quality, it was joined to symmetry — as in algebra or symbolic logic, a portable tape recorder, a double-bitted ax, or a Maltese cross. In fact, his favorite design was a Maltese cross, and he frequently left it doodled behind him, on restaurant tablecloths, condensation on windows, sand, snow, and dust.

60. He wore no jewelry and carried no watch. “On principle,” he claimed. As with so much else.

61. He did not wear glasses.

62. The men were unloading a truckload of twenty-foot lengths of six-inch galvanized pipe. He was the foreman on the job site, and because it was only eight-fifteen in the morning and the four men unloading the truck were moving very slowly, two men to each length of pipe, he grew annoyed and left the shanty, where he had been laying out the day’s work on the blueprints, and told the crew they were unloading the pipe as if their intent were not to get the truck unloaded but were instead to avoid hurting themselves or tiring themselves out too early in the day, at which point he himself began unloading the pipe, yanking a length by himself from the pile, hefting it to his shoulder and carrying it to the stack twenty feet away, and there laying it gently, so as not to damage the threaded ends, down. The men looked at the sky and the ground. He came back to the truck and did it again. Then again. The men stood aside and watched him work, confused as to the point he was making. After he had unloaded ten lengths of pipe, he stopped before the men and calmly said to them, “You have to lift until everything turns black. Lift till you black out. You have to do it every day. The job will always be more than you can handle, anyhow, so the only point is to lift until everything turns black.” Then he walked back into the shanty and resumed laying out the day’s work. The men turned to each other for a second, grinned good-naturedly, and went to work unloading the pipe, as before, two men to each length, and moving slowly, with care, pacing themselves.

63. He suddenly remembered his father’s walk, his stride, efficient and regular, like a dog’s involving his body only from the hips down. He tried to imitate it and discovered that to do so he didn’t have to alter his own stride in the slightest. The discovery gave him a moment’s extreme pleasure, not because it meant that he resembled his father even more closely than he had thought (which would not have pleased him at all), but rather because he believed that his discovery of the similarity between his imitation and the remembered image had led him directly to a momentary awareness of the nature of all human beings. And who, indeed, would not experience such awareness, however momentary, with pleasure?

64. He visited his father’s grave only once after the funeral, the following summer, when the grass had returned. He walked about the plot for a few moments, admired the view of the river from the hilltop cemetery, and got back into his car and drove home. From the top of Blue Job Mountain behind his house, he could see the cemetery, three miles distant. His ancestors for two hundred years were buried there, and once, when this was pointed out to him, he seemed surprised and confessed that it had never occurred to him, even though he made it a habit to climb to the top of Blue Job once every week.