Roy Scranton - War Porn

“I gotta get up,” Dahlia said. “I gotta move around.”

“What are they doing in there?” Rachel asked.

“Yeah, go get the boys.”

“Go get the cuckoo cocks,” Mel giggled.

Dahlia stepped off toward the house.

Matt clicked forward. More pictures of Connie, of Aaron’s fellow soldiers, of the gray concrete halls and brown outer walls of Camp Crawford, more pictures of hooded men, bleeding men, men in handcuffs. He clicked forward. A thin, mustached man stood handcuffed to a head-level cell-door crossbar.

“That’s the Professor. Puck named Qasim. He got picked up on a raid in Baqubah. He tried to tell us the first couple days how he worked as a terp for the Americans in Baghdad and he was in Baqubah because his wife was sick or some shit, and it was all a big mistake, he just got caught up in things, he didn’t even know the guys they picked him up with. The OGA fucks, on the other hand, said according to their information he’d been using his position as a translator to pass intel to al-Qaeda. We fucked that puck up.”

“You keep saying puck. What’s a puck?”

“PUC. Person under control. Click forward.”

The next picture showed Qasim hanging against the cell door, naked now, blood across his chest and thighs, his face cut, bruised, swollen, and bleeding.

“This was two days later, after some stressing and a couple beat-downs. I remember when I came on duty, I took this picture, right, and the flash woke him up and he started babbling, my friend this and that, mistake, mistake, Mista Mista, blah blah blah, my friend, my friend. Click forward.”

The next picture showed the man still hanging against the cell door but now his eyes were open and he gazed up at Aaron, who’d opened the door and was standing next to him. One blue-gloved hand rested on Qasim’s shoulder and the other made a peace sign.

“I got Sergeant Dickersen to hold the camera for me. Click forward.”

The next picture was the same, except Aaron was pulling Qasim’s head back by his hair and holding his other hand flat in a karate chop against Qasim’s neck.

“That’s Judo Chop. It’s a joke we had, ‘Judo Chop. Hiyah!’ Next.”

“What happened to all these people?”

“The pucks?”

“Yeah.”

“Well, either they died or got transferred or got let out. Mostly they just got transferred.”

“Just transferred? Like, just sent to another prison?”

“Yeah. Click forward.”

The next picture was of the same scene, only now Qasim’s face was pressed into the cell bars. Aaron grinned, standing behind him forcing his skull into the metal, one hand pulling the crossbar for leverage.

“Just this once, right, I let someone else take the pictures. I mean, it wasn’t a real interrogation. Just fucking around.”

“I thought…”

“It’s a weird thrill, having that much physical control over somebody, knowing what you’re doing. It’s…”

The screen door leading out back squawked. Both men looked up. Matt minimized the photos just as Dahlia came in.

“Dark in here—what are y’all doing, looking at porn?”

“War porn,” Aaron said. “Wanna see?”

“Hell yeah!”

“No,” Matt said, yanking out the thumb drive.

“Hey, I wanna see,” Dahlia said.

Matt rose to his feet and shoved past Dahlia toward the back door. “Let’s get some fresh air.”

“Show me the pictures.”

“Dahlia, sugar,” Aaron said, “I’ll give you a private show later.”

“Will you—can we just go outside?” Matt said.

“We cashed another bowl,” said Dahlia. “We’re gonna go up on the cliffs and watch the sunrise. You punks up for it, or y’all gonna pussy out?”

“It’s late,” Matt said. “I have to work tomorrow.”

“Oh for fuck’s sake, Matthew, give it a rest. You gonna party with us or not?”

“Fine. Sure. Whatever. Let’s just go outside.”

“Yes, let’s,” said Aaron, standing. “My thumb drive?” He held out his hand.

Matt looked at Aaron, then at Dahlia. Aaron snapped his fingers. Matt dropped the drive in his palm.

“Good work, citizen. Now let’s all take a hike.”

Stones and stars. The journey undertaken, in ten minutes they reached the mouth of the narrow canyon leading along the dry creek to the heights, the plateau above town. It’ll be twenty minutes or half an hour before they clear the ravine’s brush and make it into the open. They warned each other to watch out for coyotes, snakes, cougars, then plunged in, up.

The noise of drunken revelers pushing through brush dried all summer long. The clatter of rocks and shoes, the murmur, the occasional shout.

Why doesn’t he do something? Say something? But no, there they are, whispering together, sharing some secret. He came up behind them.

“Hey, hero,” Aaron said. “What’s up? I was just telling Dahlia about Iraq.”

“What?”

“It’s terrible,” Dahlia said.

“Yeah, well.” Aaron frowned. “It’s always the children that suffer the most. I mean, we did what we could, you know?”

“The children?” Matt said.

“I was telling Dahlia how one time we had this VBIED attack on the ECP, and there was this bus full of kids coming in that got caught in the blast. It was bad.”

“It must have been so hard,” said Dahlia.

“It’s just—these kids, their lives are basically fucked. They’re never gonna get out of Iraq. Their schools are shit. Their hospitals are shit. And they were coming in for medical stuff, right, like basic vaccines, and when the truck blew… it just… We lost seven. I spent the whole day in the aid station, helping the medics with triage. The boots I wore that day—I had to get rid of ’em. The blood wouldn’t ever come out… Seven. We saved the rest, but we lost seven. And one of our own, Private Ballard. That was a tough day.”

“You have pictures of that, too?” Matt asked.

“Jesus, Matt, what wrong with you?” Dahlia said. She turned back to Aaron. “Sorry about him. You must find it hard now being out of the army—I mean after Iraq—the way people react sometimes.”

“It’s been difficult, no doubt. But you deal with it. You drive on.”

“I can’t even imagine. It must be so strange, such a strange and different world.”

“There or here?”

She laughed. “Either one.”

“Honestly, it was weirder coming back than it was going over, because… I mean, you go, and you’re thinking one thing, you’re thinking about the military and Iraq and America, and what you learn when you get there… You learn that nothing’s quite what you thought it was. It’s a cliché, but you really learn what you’re made of.”

“Ha, I bet,” Matt said.

Aaron and Dahlia looked back, then Dahlia tripped on a stone and flung forward. Before she hit the ground, Aaron had her, one hand on her arm, the other sweeping under and picking her up, setting her on her feet. She could smell him, close, the tobacco and fresh sweat and something else, something warm and hungry. “Thanks,” she said, flushing.

“Hey,” he said, stepping back.

“You should watch where you’re going, honey,” Matt said.

“Big help you are, riding my heels. I nearly took a face plant ’cause you’re hovering. You want me on crutches again? Is that how you like it?”

“I just…”

“Why don’t you go chill out somewhere?”

“Matthew,” Aaron said. “How ’bout you go check up on Wendy.”

“I do what I want,” Matt snarled.

“Jesus, Matt,” Dahlia said. “Go! Buzz off! Go chill out somewhere!”

“Yeah, fine! Fine. I’ll chill out. Totally chill out. Like ice. And you can talk with Rambo fucking Himmler here all you want.”