Грэм Грин - The Comedians

'What earthly use will he be? Out there?'

'A great deal if all he says is true. It only needed one man in Cuba …'

'How often I've heard that. It's a parrot-phrase. I'm sick of it. This is not Cuba.'

'It will be easier for you and me when he's gone.'

'Is that all you think about?'

'Yes. I suppose it is.'

She had a small bruise just below the shoulder-bone. Trying to make the question sound like a joke, I said, 'What have you been doing to yourself?'

'What do you mean?'

'That bruise.' I touched it with my finger.

'Oh that? I don't know. I bruise easily.'

'At gin-rummy?'

She put the glass down and turned her back. She said, 'Give yourself a drink. You will need it too.'

I said, as I poured myself a whisky, 'I'll be back on Wednesday by one if I leave Aux Cayes at dawn. Will you come up to the hotel? Angel will be at school.'

'Perhaps. Let's wait and see.'

'We haven't been together for several days.' I added, 'There'll be no gin-rummy to take you home early.' She turned back to me, and I saw she was crying. 'What's the matter?' I asked.

'I told you. I bruise easily.'

'What have I said?' Fear has strange effects: it releases adrenalin into the blood: it makes a man wet his trousers: in me it injected a desire to hurt. I said, 'You seem upset at losing Jones?'

'Why shouldn't I be?' she said. 'You think you're lonely up there at the Trianon. Well, I'm lonely here. I'm lonely with Luis, silent in a twin bed. I'm lonely with Angel, doing his interminable sums for him when he comes back from school. Yes, I've been happy having Jones here — hearing people laugh at his bad jokes, playing gin-rummy with him. Yes, I'll miss him. I'll miss him till it hurts. How I'll miss him.'

'More than you missed me when I went to New York?'

'You were coming back. At least you said you were. I'm not sure now whether you ever did.'

I took the two glasses of whisky and went upstairs. On the landing I realized I didn't know which was Jones's room. I called softly, so that the servants shouldn't hear me, 'Jones. Jones.'

'I'm here.'

I pushed a door open and went in. He sat on his bed fully dressed: he had even put on his gumboots. 'I heard your voice,' he said, 'down below. Tonight's the night, old man?'

'Yes. You'd better drink this.'

'I can do with it.' He gave a sour grimace.

'I've got a bottle in the car.'

He said, 'I've done my packing. Luis has lent me a kitbag.' He ran over the items on his fingers to check them: 'Change of shoes, change of pants. Two pairs of socks. Change of shirt. Oh, and the cocktail-shaker. That's for luck. You see it was given me …' He stopped abruptly. Perhaps he remembered he had told me the truth of that story.

'You don't seem to anticipate a long campaign,' I said to help him out.

'I mustn't carry more than my men. Give me time, and I'll have our supplies organized.' For the first time he sounded professional, and I wondered whether perhaps I had maligned him. 'You can help us there, old man. When I've got a courier system working properly.'

'Let's think of the next few hours. We have to get through them.'

'I've a lot to thank you for.' Again his words surprised me. 'It's a big chance for me, isn't it? Of course I'm scared to hell. There's no denying that.'

We sat in silence side by side, drinking our whiskies, listening to the thunder which shook the roof. I had been so certain Jones would resist when the moment came that I felt a little at a loss what to do next, and it was Jones who took command. 'We'd better get cracking if we're to be out of here before the storm's over. I'll say good-bye, if you'll excuse me, to my lovely hostess.'

When he came back he had a trace of lipstick at the corner of his mouth: an awkward embrace on the mouth or an awkward embrace on the cheek — it was hard to tell which. He said, 'The police are safe in the kitchen drinking rum. We'd better be off.'

Martha unbolted the front door for us. 'You go first,' I said to Jones, trying to re-establish command. 'Stoop down below the windscreen if you can.'

We were both wet through the moment after we emerged. I turned to say good-bye to Martha, but even then I couldn't resist the question, 'Are you still crying?'

'No,' she said, 'it's the rain,' and I could see she spoke the truth. The rain ran down her face as it ran down the wall behind her. 'What are you waiting for?'

'Don't I rate a kiss as much as Jones?' I said, and she put her mouth against my cheek: I could feel the listless indifference of the embrace. I said accusingly, 'I'm running a bit of danger too.'

'But I don't like your motive,' she said.

It was as though somebody I hated spoke from my mouth before I could silence him. 'Have you slept with Jones?' I regretted the question even before the last word was said. If the heavy peal of thunder which followed had drowned it I would have been content, I would never have repeated it. She stood flat against the door as though she were facing a firing squad, and I thought for some reason of her father before his execution. Had he flung a defiance at his judges from the scaffold? Had he worn an expression of anger and disdain?

'You've been asking me that for weeks,' she said, 'every time I've seen you. All right then. The answer's yes, yes. That's what you want me to say, isn't it? Yes. I've slept with Jones.' The worst thing was I only half believed her.

3

There were no lights in Mиre Catherine's as we passed the turning to her brothel and took the Southern Highway, or else we couldn't see them through the rain. I drove at about twenty miles an hour; I felt like a man blindfolded, and this was the easy part of the road. It had been constructed with the help of American engineers in the much advertised five-year plan, but the Americans had gone home and the metalled road ceased about seven miles out of Port-au-Prince. This was where I expected a road-block, but I was startled when my headlamps picked up an empty jeep outside a militiaman's hut, which meant the Tontons Macoute were there as well. I had little time to accelerate, but no one came from the hut — if the Tontons were inside, they were keeping dry too. I listened for the sound of pursuit, but all I could hear was the drumming of the rain. The great highway had become no more than a country track: our speed went down to eight miles an hour as we bumped from rock to rock and splashed through standing pools. For more than an hour we drove in silence, too shaken about to speak.

A rock crashed under the car and I thought for a moment an axle was broken. Jones said, 'Can I find your whisky?'

When he had found it he took a swill and handed the bottle to me. The car because of my momentary inattention skidded sideways and the rear-wheels stuck in wet laterite. It took us twenty minutes' hard labour before we moved again.

'Shall we make your rendezvous on time?' Jones asked.

'I doubt it. You may have to keep under cover till tomorrow night. I brought you some sandwiches in case.'

He chuckled. 'It's the life,' he said. 'I've often dreamt of something like this.'

'I thought it was the life you'd always led.'

He fell silent again as though aware of an indiscretion.

Suddenly for no reason at all the road improved. The rain was easing rapidly; I hoped it wouldn't stop altogether before we passed the next police-post. Afterwards there was no problem before the cemetery this side of Aquin. I said, 'And Martha? How did you get on with Martha?'

'She's a wonderful girl,' he said with caution.

'I got the impressions she was fond of you.'

It was a bad sign of the weather clearing that sometimes I could detect a streak of sea between the palms like the flash of a match. Jones said, 'We got on like a house on fire.'