И вот пришла пора святая, которая спасла меня
Отцы и деды, поколенья восстали мигом
Рядом в ряд
И мы, как воины России, должны спасти её опять
Благая вера, где ты в людях?
Восстань, воспрянь и воскреси
В Россию веру вековую в народе нашем укрепи
Заветы предков поминая
Нельзя России изменять
О Русь!
Воскресни, созидая
Чтоб, созидая, побеждать
Oleg Filatov
October 1995
Thoughts near the Ipatiev House
A long road has long been dark
But one day the Holy Dawn has saved me. Fathers, grandfather, generations
Have risen, row upon row
We, the Warriors of Russia
Must save our land once more
Oh, good Faith, where are you?
Help the Russian people rise, liven up, resurrect
Remembering the behests of ancestors
One cannot betray one’s motherland
Oh, Russia! Resurrect and create
Through creation you will win the whole world
Когда приходит час судьбы
Когда приходит час судьбы
Мы поминаем всех усопших
И на останках тишины
Мы мысkи наши поверяем
Мы помним всё, всё, кроме снов, – История, судьба, Россия
Когда приходит час судьбы
Мы поминаем всех героев
И день и ночь, и тьма и свет
Борьба, смятение души
И горе, счастье и любовь
Нас посещают в час единый
Приходят новые огни – Огни, которых ожидали
Мы все, конечно, сплетены
И нашем горем, и печалью
Судьба и Бог, и мы – России верные сыны
Сегодня путь мы выбираем
Oleg Filatov
September 1994
When the fatal hour strikes
When the fatal hour strikes
We commemorate our dead
And in the silence the thoughts
Are crowding into our minds
We remember everything but dreams – The history, the fate, Russia
When the fatal hour strikes
We recall all our heroes
And in day light and at night
The fight, confusion, grief, happiness
And love visit us at this hour
New lights we were waiting for
Have come
Of course, we are all interlaced
With our grief and sorrow
Today the Fate and God, and we – The faithful sons of Russia – Are choosing our way
I often thought about how I coucld tell the truth about my father. After having talked with my friends, colleagues, and acquaintances I came to the conclusion that it should be written in the way he himself had told about it. He was not a historical character of a distant epoch but our contemporary born early in the XX thcentury and during 84 years, together with his people, endured hunger, suffering, and repressions. It is almost impossible to imagine, how he felt, realising who he was and keeping silent for so many years. He had seen and endured a lot to save himself and his family, his children. Maybe we shall never know the whole truth but we should try. “Non progredi – estra gredi’ (“Not to go forward means to go backwards’)
Father had lived a long life. He had compensated for his physical defects by his constant desire for harmonious development and knowledge. This had given him a stimulus to live. We, his children, were born when he was far from being young, we cheered up, he sensed a new meaning in life. And when his granddaughters were born, the truth finally came out and he told their mother, my wife Anzhelika Petrovna, about his tragic fate. It was in 1983, five years before his death. Only then did we understand that Father and the boy whom he spoke of as executed on the night of 16—17 July, 1918, but not killed, in the basement of the Ipatiev house in Ekaterinburg, – was the same man, that is, he was Alexei Nikolaevich Romanov. Before, he had told us about it allegorically, piece by piece to each of us. Now we are collecting all his stories and our reminiscences of him to better understand what had happened. Part of the reminiscences of the members of our family – his children and his wife Lidiya Kuzminichna (due to her, strictly speaking, he had lived for so many years) – has been published in newspaper articles and served the basis for special investigations carried out by experts and continued until now. Unfortunately, there are many gaps in these reminiscences: he was restrained in his stories and we were children then and did not ask him any questions, we simply believed that what he had said was true. How could we not believe in our father, when we saw how he suffered and understood that his life could have been quite different! One might notice repetitions in this book, but this is not so awful. The most important thing is – to be honest (this is the basic principle) and to tell the truth as it could have been/. Of course, much could have been taken from the archives, both open and closed. But we cannot get there due to some circumstances, partly for lack of money, partly because of the fear which still lives in people. But without reading these pages, which will cause us to not allow anything like that to happen again, we will not know how the history of our country could have formed, without the revolution. If we speak about repentance, we should understand who killed Emperor Nikolas II. Why have none of the leaders of the country, specialists in forensic medicine, or laywers suggested a true version of those events in July 1918? How has the life of the participants of this tragedy in Ekaterinburg developed?
In 1988, on his death-bed, Father said: “I’ve told you the truth, and that’s what the Bolsheviks have brought Russia to.” We, his children, know that he has not deceived us. Unfortunately, he had told us little, and we still have questions. But as if his soul is still with us, we ask him questions, as if he was alive, trying to go back in time and associating with him
When one’s parents are alive, one takes them for granted, without thinking that they are not going to be with us forever. Therefore we have now to collect the crumbs of what he had said, supplementing his story with our own considerations and new facts revealed during recent times. Therefore Father’s story is sometimes interrupted by my reasoning’s. The investigation is not finished yet. Our friends, relatives, colleagues, and scientists interested in this story are helping us to carry this heavy cross that has fallen to our lot. I hope that, after all, all of us will know the truth. And this will be the real compensation
Yes, this is a fantastic and still not cleared up story. The first reaction to it of most of people is: “It can’t be so!” When children are confronted with something unknown, they cry, but grown-ups try to turn their back on it and ignore it. Apparently this is the reason, why, despite some serious examinations carried out on our initiative and voluminous, actual material now accumulated by various scientists, the official structures have not seriously investigated this story, which has a lot of blanks. There is no other explanation to the contrary. But nobody has been interested in checking up on whether it is so. And maybe the point is that such a story does not appeal to everyone… This is a form of unconsciousness, one way to forget. I am a christian and it is my opinion that only atheists have to be convinced. Of course, we, his wife and his children, simply believe in our father, but still not everything in his life is clear to us, because he had to keep out of sight in order not to expose us and the people who had helped him to danger. Therefore we are trying to find more facts to unravel the whole truth about this martyr who lived a long life, and saw and experienced so much that it would have been enough for several lives. As far as the improbability of this story is concerned, – the rescue of innocentchildren from terrible death is a miracle. God saves!
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