Colleen McCullough - Morgan’s Run

“Not really. Just clothes and jumping about. We used to shut our eyes when we realized it was going to happen near us.”

“ ’Tis one way to keep the world at a distance. What about Lady Juliana? Were ye not pecked at by the brazen madams?”

“Mr. Nicol was very good, so were some of the older women. They would not let the mean ones peck at us for spite. And I was always seasick.”

“ ’Tis a wonder ye lived. But ye came through it all to land here, and land none other than Richard Morgan. That, Mistress Kitty, is the most remarkable thing of all. I doubt there is a woman or a Miss Molly has not-well, perhaps tried is too strong a word, but at least wondered if it would be possible.” He turned his head to laugh at her.

How strange. His eyes were much bluer than Richard’s, so blue that they reflected the sky as if making a barrier of it. Not water to be engulfed by but a wall to come up against.

“I have fallen out of love with you,” she said in tones of wonder.

“And into love with Richard.”

“No, I do not think so. There is something, but it is not love. All I know is that it is different.”

“Oh, very different!”

“Tell me about him, please.”

“Nay, I’ll not do that. Ye’ll just have to stay with him and find things out for yourself. Not an easy task with our close-mouthed Richard, but ye’re a woman, and ye’re curious. I am sure,” he said, pulling her up, “that ye’ll give it your best try.” Leaning down, he put his cheek against her hair and whispered, “Whenever ye find something out, tell me.”

Tears sprang to her eyes, she was not sure why, except that a spasm of grief clutched at her heart. Grief for him rather than because of him, and not because she had taken anything away from him. I wish, she thought, that the world was better ordered. I am not in love with this man, but I love him dearly.

“Tobias and I,” he said, taking her hand and swinging it as they walked, “will make excellent uncles.”

At the head of Arthur’s Vale he released her hand and stopped. “This is as far as I go,” he said.

“Please come with me!”

“Oh, no. Ye must go alone.”

The housewas empty; Richard had gone out, but the fireplace had been cleaned and fresh kindling stacked in it, her water buckets were full, four of the six chairs Richard had accumulated were tucked neatly beneath the table. Disappointed and bewildered-why had he not waited to see what Stephen had said to her?-she wandered about aimlessly, then went into the garden and began to dig, hoping that one day sufficient plenty arrived to allow her to waste ground outside the house upon flowers. Time passed; John Lawrell arrived with six Mt. Pitt birds he had cleaned and plucked, which solved dinner, served in the middle of the day now that winter approached.

By the time that Richard returned the birds had been browned in a pan and were braising, stuffed with herbed bread, in a covered pot with onions and potatoes.

“What,” she asked for something to say, “are the tiny green trees growing in a sunny spot below the privy?”

“Ah, you found them.”

“Ages ago, but I never remember to ask.”

“Oranges and lemons grown from seed I saved in Rio de Janeiro. In two or three years’ time we will see fruit during winter. A lot of my seeds came up, so I gave some of the plants to Nat Lucas, some to Major Ross, some to Stephen and some to a few others. The climate here should be perfect for citrus, there is no frost.” One brow lifted quizzically. “Did ye find Stephen?”

“Yes,” she said, pricking a potato with a knife to see if it was cooked.

“And he answered all your questions?”

Blinking in surprise, she paused. “Do you know, I do not believe I had time to ask any? He was too busy asking me questions.”

“What about?”

“Gaol and transports, mostly.” She began to transfer pieces of bird, onions and potatoes onto two plates, spooning juice over them. “There is a salad of lettuce, chives and parsley.”

“Ye’re a very good cook, Kitty,” he said, tucking in.

“I am improving. We almost support ourselves, Richard, do we not? Everything on our plates we either grew or found.”

“Aye. This is good soil and there is mostly enough rain to keep things going. My first year here was very wet, then it became dry. But the stream never ceases to flow, which means that it must originate in a spring. I would like to find the source.”

“Why?”

“That would be the best place to put a house.”

“But you already have a house.”

“Too close to Sydney Town,” he said, carefully scooping juice onto his spoon with the last of his potato.

“More?” she asked, getting up.

“If there is any, please.”

“It is close to Sydney Town in one way,” she said, sitting down again, “but we are quite isolated.”

“I suspect that when the next lot of convicts arrive, we will not be so isolated. Major Ross believes that His Excellency intends to push the number of people here up beyond a thousand.”

“A thousand? How many is that?”

“I forgot, ye cannot do sums. Remember last Sunday at divine service, Kitty?”

“Of course.”

“There were seven hundred present. Cut that crowd in half, then add your half to all who were there. That is over a thousand.”

“So many!” she breathed, awed. “Where will they go?”

“Some to Queensborough, some to Phillipsburgh, some to the place where the Sirius sailors were, though I believe that the Major might end in putting the New South Wales Corps soldiers there.”

“They do not get on with his marines,” she said, nodding.

“Exactly. But the vale will blossom with houses at this end, where the land is not in Government cultivation. So I would rather pick up and move farther away.” He leaned back in his chair and patted his belly, smiling. “At the rate ye feed me, I will have to work harder or grow fat.”

“You will not grow fat because you do not drink,” she said.

“None of us drinks.”

“Gammon, Richard! I am not as green as all that! The marines drink, so do the soldiers-and so do many convicts. If they have to, they make their own rum and beer.”

His brows flew up, he grinned. “I should lend ye to the Major as an adviser. How did ye pick that up?”

“At the Stores.” She took their empty plates and carried them to the counter beside the fireplace. “I had heard that you do not care for company,” she said, getting out her dish and soap whisk, “and in a way I understand. But moving from here would mean that you would have to start all over again. A terrible burden.”

“No amount of work is a burden if it means my children are protected,” he said in a steely voice. “I would have them grow up untainted, and they will not do that in close proximity to Sydney Town. There are many good people here, but there are also many bad people. Why d’ye think the Major racks his brains to devise punishments that might deter violence, drunkenness, robbery and all the other vices which spring up where people are too close together? D’ye think that Ross takes pleasure in sending men like Willy Dring to Nepean Island for six weeks with two weeks’ rations? Did he, I would not respect him, and I do respect him.”

The first part of this (for Richard) long speech sent her mind whirling, but she chose to answer the second. “Perhaps, did we understand better how folk think, we might find a way. So much trouble happens in drink. Look at me.”

“Aye, look at you. Growing in leaps and bounds.”

“I could grow more if I could read and write and do sums.”

“I will school you if you want.”

“Oh, would you? Richard, how wonderful!” She stood with the soap whisk in her hand, motionless, the same look in her eyes William Henry had borne after his first day at Colston’s School. “God the Father! I know now what Stephen meant. You need people to depend upon you as children do upon their father. You are very strong and very wise. So is Stephen, but he is not a father in his mind. I will always be your child.”