Alice Adams - To See You Again - Stories

They all stare at her; as a group they are not self-critical, but usually supportive, all the way. However, they are also dedicated to going along with each other’s whims, all whims, and so Luther says, “Well, Nat, of course, I’ll put it right out. Why didn’t you tell me before, if they bothered you?” Everyone stares reproachfully at formerly good old Nat, who was so brave when Herbert died.

Turning away from them all, for a moment, Natalie finds the dark girl with the very handsome husband (or lover?), who is smiling and saying, or, rather, whispering: “Terrific. That smell has been driving me crazy.”

Natalie whispers back, “I didn’t sound too mean?”

“Heavens no.”

Richard joins in, smiling charmingly. “Amanda has a thing about cigars.”

Still whispering, Natalie admits, “Actually, so do I.”

“Well: we were just going to have another drink. May I get you one?”

Natalie argues, and then accepts, and they introduce each other: Natalie, Amanda and Richard. The darkness and the loose, informal arrangement of the chairs at that bar make such regroupings easy. As Natalie glances back for a moment at her former companions, she even sees smiles of approval on several of their faces: good old Nat is out there making new friends; all right.

At some distance from everyone else, as usual, the Farquhars are seated, she in something long and pale and supple, dimly shining, he in an open white shirt, a dark ascot knotted at his throat. Their postures, as always, are perfectly erect. Her head moves slowly on her long and slender neck as she turns toward her husband.

“Do you think she could have been a dancer?” whispers Natalie to Amanda.

Richard answers, “That’s a really good guess. I’ll bet you’re right.”

Amanda suggests, “Or maybe an actress?”

“But what was he?” asks Natalie. She is thinking of Herbert, who was in business, but not on the scale that he originally intended.

“He could have been an actor,” offers Richard, who has often heard that remark made of himself. On the whole, though, he is glad not to be an actor; he likes the challenge of investments, at which he is very good. And most actors burn out young, their looks gone.

“Somehow I don’t think he was an actor,” Amanda muses. “He looks more like an elder statesman. Or some Nobel Prize-winning scientist.”

Just at that moment, though, Mrs. Farquhar is seen and heard, by those three observing her so closely, to cry out, in evident pain. With both hands she grasps her side, at her waist, and she says something short and urgent to her husband. They both stand up, she with what is obviously great difficulty; they leave the bar, presumably going toward their room.

Amanda feels cold waves of panic in her veins, in the warm tropical night—and so irrationally: she doesn’t even know those people. “What can we do?” she asks of Richard and Natalie, and she hears a quaver in her own voice.

Richard, who thrives on emergencies (it is daily life that bores him), stands up. “I’ll go down and ask,” he says, and he is gone before the wisdom of his course can be questioned.

“Do you think it could be an appendix?” Amanda asks Natalie; she has somehow assumed that Natalie, being older than herself, would have more medical information.

Natalie does not, actually, but she makes a guess. “It looked a little high for an appendix, where she was clutching. But I don’t know.”

Richard, apparently, has done the right thing: within minutes he is back at the bar, with an errand. “I’m going up to the desk to get Lisa and phone for a doctor.”

Amanda cries out, “But Lisa’s in Mexico City.”

“She’s back.” And, over his shoulder as he hurries off, “Their name is Farquhar.” And he is gone.

In a helpless way Natalie and Amanda turn to each other.

And just then, behind Natalie, the other Chicago people begin to get up, making sounds of departure. Luther, without his cigar, is the one who says, “Well, good night, Nat,” with only the slightest querulousness in his voice. “See you in the morning,” says someone else.

She turns to say, “Yes, see you then.”

And they are gone.

“At their age, almost any pain must be frightening” is the first thing that Amanda finds to say. It is understood that she refers to the Farquhars.

“Or maybe not? They must have had a lot of pains by now.” As she says this, Natalie is rather surprised by what sounds like wisdom.

In a fairly short time Richard reappears, with Lisa—Lisa once again in her old pants and shirt; comfortable, competent Lisa, who says to Amanda, “The doctor comes. You could wait here? She knows where is the bar but not the room of the Farquhars. You could show her the way?”

“Oh, of course.”

Lisa sighs vastly, and to all three of them she says, “Oh, how bad that she should be sick now. I come back from Mexico City with some good news,” and she sighs again. “She come soon. The doctor. She is a friend to me.”

And then she and Richard are gone, in the direction of the Farquhars’ room, as well as of Richard’s and Amanda’s.

“A woman doctor?” Natalie asks Amanda.

“I guess. But how will we know her, or she us?” Amanda says.

She, the doctor, is immediately recognizable: a brisk young woman with a classic black doctor’s satchel, who hurries down the steps toward Amanda and Natalie. She smiles,in a shy, quick way. “It is you who will direct me to the lady not feeling well?”

“Yes, it’s this way.” And the three women, Amanda leading the doctor and Natalie, make their way down from the bar, down the series of dimly lit steps, past all the soft shapes of flowers, the colors now blotted out in the general dark. They reach the row of rooms, and go on to the room at the end, where Richard stands just outside the opened door.

As they arrive, through the door in one bright instant Amanda sees: two single beds, on one of which Mrs. Farquhar is stretched, immobile, her head back, chin raised, as on a bier. And beside her, bent toward her, is her husband. Lisa stands beside him.

Richard gestures the doctor inside, at which Lisa comes out, and the door is closed.

The four of them stand there, in the flowery darkness, Amanda and Richard, Lisa, Natalie.

“It is perhaps not something terrible,” Lisa tells them all. “She kept saying she only wanted a shot. She said she could sleep off the pain.”

Richard: “She looked awfully white.”

“She’s always white,” Natalie tells him. And in a subdued way she laughs. “I only wish I knew her brand of sun block.”

“I can tell you. I just bring it from Mexico,” Lisa tells her, and she names the French cream.

“Well, thank you,” Natalie murmurs, in surprise. And then, a few minutes later, she says, “Well, I think I’ll go on up. After all, I don’t really know them,” and she says good night, and she leaves.

As though it would insure her safety, they all watch her as she walks slowly up the barely lit stairs.

Turning to Lisa, Amanda repeats what she had earlier said to Natalie, but as a question: “At their age almost any pain is frightening, isn’t it?”

Clearly thinking of something else, or possibly a little frightened herself, Lisa is slightly brusque. “At any age—no pain is good.” And then, “You two should go in. There is no need for you also to wait. I know them a long time.”

Dismissed, Amanda and Richard go into their room next door, from which they can hear nothing. Nevertheless they continue to address each other in whispers.

“Another drink? Some brandy?”

“Oh, thanks. I could use some.”

“Here. It’s a little full.”

Later they hear the subdued sounds of the doctor coming out of the room adjacent, some murmurs of conversation, the door softly closed. Nothing more.