Aldivan Teixeira Torres - The Dark Night Of The Soul

— I knew, but I don’t know the reason. To what honour do I owe the dreamer’s visit, son of God, whom I haven’t seen for so long?

Even before I tried to answer, we immediate embrace, and this leaves me more relaxed and confident. At that moment I was absolutely certain that I could count on her help to unravel the mysteries and answer my most profound anxieties. After the moment of euphoria, we separate from each other, we sat facing each other and we restarted the conversation.

—I came searching for answers about the dark night of the soul, a moment that I already lived about two years ago, but that still leaves me with many doubts and anxieties. Then I had reflect for a while and got to the conclusion that the mountain brought me so much happiness in the past it might be the resumption of a new journey, fiery and dangerous.

— I understand. But could you give me an idea to what you call the dark night of the soul?

—Well, despite of the fact that I have not evolved sufficiently, I can give you a basic idea. Dark night is exactly that moment when we disconnect ourselves from the sacred, from God, and only think about our own vanities. It is a moment where the darkness is intense and this may condemn or even save a person.

—An appropriate definition, but incomplete. Learn young one, the dark night is much more profound that what we imagine and only the more evolved spirits are really able to control it and understand it. Are you ready to risk once more? If you are, I think I can help you in your journey. However, I must warn you that you are not going to find exactly here all the answers that you need. It is going to be necessary a lot of courage and determination from your side to face new and unforeseen challenges.

—I will do everything the mistress orders me. You can believe that I am prepared to go right to the bottom of the issue, even if I have to make difficult and complicated sacrifices. Well, what will it be the first step this time?

—Firstly, you will have to know deeply the seven cardinal sins, because normally they open the curtains of darkness. With me you will have three challenges, and if you pass them you will go to the second phase. In total there are three phases before somebody is finally able to understand the meaning of the dark night. Be prepared, because it is not going to be easy. Besides, I must let you know that those who walk this way face so many risks that many have already lost their lives in it. Do you still want to carry on? If you say yes, be aware that your first challenge is scheduled for tonight.

—Yes. I am prepared to pay the price for the arduous knowledge. I am ready.

—Spend the day well. I will be back tonight.

With those words, the guardian lady said fondly farewell. I begin to get ready for the night. What will it be awaiting me? Let’s continue together, reader.

I continue to get ready, without noticing time passes and it is midday. From then on, I concentrate on the lunch, because I was already feeling hungry. I take the food that I brought from the bush and start to get it ready. In the beginning, for a short while, a slight worry disturbs my feelings, and I ask myself: What did the guardian lady meant with the expression “Many have already lost their lives searching for the answers”? Could it be that its meaning is totally literal? Well, in any way I was perfectly prepared to run the necessary risks to reach such arduous knowledge and the respective success in the adventure. Thinking about that, I conclude that since the first time that I arrived at the mountain I had demonstrated sufficient courage, strength and faith to accomplish the challenges and face the obstacles until finally get permission to enter into the sacred cave of despair that was, at that moment, my last hope of success. Analysing better this part of my objective, I end up concluding that I really had a chance of achieving success. In the end, I have had become the seer, a super-gifted being, capable of transcending time and distance in search for the objectives.

After the short analysis, I decide to focus only on the lunch and getting fed. Straight after, I decide to lie on the improvised bed that I made, because I needed some time to recover and gather energy for the night challenge. After a while, I get sleepy and a refreshing slumber takes over me completely. During my rest, I had revealing, but undecipherable dreams. After the turmoil of one of them, I wake up, and looking at my pocket watch I realize that is almost night time. Hurriedly I get up with the objective of observing the night and wait to be contacted by the guardian lady.

Going out, the night fall makes me more anxious and nervous. What would I be facing? What would the first challenge consist of? Those were some of the questions floating in my worried mind. A while later, I try to control myself and reaffirm my decision to myself, that I would face all the obstacles, whatever they may be. The strategy seems right, and I feel more confident and with great determination, with that adventurous scouting instinct from the previous mission. I am happy and I promise myself that I would be discovering all the fascinating facets of the dark night of the soul, so dangerous and gloomy. So, I decide to enter the kitchen of the cabin intent in preparing a dinner fit for the guardian lady, despite all the difficulties. I remember her tastes and I decide to make a soup like the last time that we met. It is necessary not to take risks.

After a few minutes, finally the soup is ready, and tasting it, I am happy, because it was delicious, as far as it was possible. Despite being hungry I don’t eat, go out again looking for clues in that starry sky, fascinated by the look of the stars, and for a moment they twinkle even brighter, as if wanting to tell me something. What could it be? I imagine several situations, until I feel a gentle touch on my shoulders. Looking behind, I come across the guardian lady more radiant and vivid than ever. In anticipation she start the conversation.

—Dreamer, are you ready? Today you will have the opportunity of knowing the beginning of everything, the creation of the dark night of the soul. Be aware than this is a special moment and reserved only to a few.

— I believe I am prepared, but before that I would like to invite you to have some soup with me.

—Yes, of course. I will take the opportunity to give you the instructions needed so that you can face the challenge with the possibility of success.

After the guardian lady said yes, we straight away enter the humble abode, and on the way, a perturbing silence remained, seeming to foresee the dangers that I would be facing. What would happen to me this time? I asked myself that, because I was starting to tread a total unknown and unforeseeable path. Thinking about my case, I try to reignite my confidence, since it was important to achieve success. I recall that I am a seer, that I have nothing to fear about, despite everything, and carry on walking by the side of the guardian lady. Our regular and sure steps take us to our objective, the small and improvised kitchen of the wooden hut. Upon arrival, I offer the guardian lady the only stool available and begin to serve her. We sit in front of each other and I reopen the conversation interrupted a while ago. I decide to go straight to the point.

—Well, guardian lady, how exactly is this challenge going to be?

— In a short while you will have to leave the cabin and roam over cave’s top searching for a clue. When the moment arrives, you will have four options: The pure light, the passivity, the repentance and the dark night of the soul. If you chose the most appropriate path, you will then obtain the necessary answers to the complete understanding of the appearance of the dark night of the soul. That knowledge is very important for your development as a seer and as a person. However, you should stay alert, as if by chance you choose the wrong path, you will find madness, suffering or even death. Be wise as you have always been and choose to uncover the veil of the most profound mysteries of the Universe. Know that few have had access to this knowledge.