Terence O’Neill - Someone to Love Us - The shocking true story of two brothers fostered into brutality and neglect

The Shocking True Story of Two Brothers Fostered into Brutality and Neglect

Dedicated to the memory of my dear brother “DENNY” (3 March 1932 – 9 January 1945)

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Title Page Someone to Love Us Terence O’neill The Shocking True Story of Two Brothers Fostered into Brutality and Neglect

dedication Dedicated to the memory of my dear brother “DENNY” (3 March 1932 – 9 January 1945)

Foreword Foreword ‘Hello, boys,’ Miss Edwards said, giving us a bright smile. ‘I’m here from Newport Council to see how you’re getting on. Does life on a farm suit you?’ ‘It’s OK,’ I mumbled, but Dennis just stared at the ground. ‘Do you like your school?’ ‘It’s fine,’ I said. Mrs Gough, our foster mother, gave a big, false kind of a smile. ‘Go on, Terence. Tell Miss Edwards what you’ve been doing at school.’ She continued, without giving me a chance: ‘They’ve been making Christmas decorations and a nativity scene and he’s been learning all the old carols too. I keep hearing him singing them round the place.’ I didn’t think she’d ever once heard me singing in the six months I’d been at Bank Farm but I knew better than to contradict her. ‘Are you all right, Dennis?’ Miss Edwards asked him, and he nodded without looking at her. ‘You look awfully pale. Are you feeling all right?’ Mrs Gough answered for him: ‘He’s had a nasty cough but he’s on the mend now, thank goodness.’ ‘He’s got huge dark rings round his eyes. Are you sleeping all right, Dennis?’ Dennis kept fidgeting with his hands while she was talking and wouldn’t stand still, as if he was nervous about something. ‘Answer the nice lady,’ Mrs Gough rebuked, and he cleared his throat and whispered ‘Yes, ma’am.’ ‘What do you do with your spare time, Dennis?’ ‘I try to be a help,’ he said, his eyes to the floor, and Miss Edwards looked a bit surprised. ‘I think you should take him to a doctor,’ she told Mrs Gough. ‘The council will pay. Just let me know how much it costs.’ ‘That’s kind of you,’ said Mrs Gough. ‘It can be hard to manage with two growing boys to feed.’ The two women chatted for a while as Dennis and I stood to one side, then, when she finished her cup of tea, Miss Edwards looked at us again. ‘So are you happy here, boys? Do you want to stay?’ She smiled, encouragingly. I could see Mrs Gough staring hard at us with a nasty glint in her eye and nodding her head, letting us know the answer she expected us to give. ‘Yes, ma’am,’ I said, and I think Dennis nodded. Inside I was miserable, though. I watched Miss Edwards pull on her coat and hat and walk out the front door and I wanted to run after her and shout ‘No! Don’t go! Don’t leave us here!’ But I didn’t. I didn’t say anything. I was far too scared. No one could help us. We just had to get through it on our own somehow.

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Twelve

Chapter Thirteen

Chapter Fourteen

Chapter Fifteen

Chapter Sixteen

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Eighteen

Chapter Nineteen

Chapter Twenty

Chapter Twenty-One

Epilogue

Acknowledgements

Copyright

About the Publisher

‘Hello, boys,’ Miss Edwards said, giving us a bright smile. ‘I’m here from Newport Council to see how you’re getting on. Does life on a farm suit you?’

‘It’s OK,’ I mumbled, but Dennis just stared at the ground.

‘Do you like your school?’

‘It’s fine,’ I said.

Mrs Gough, our foster mother, gave a big, false kind of a smile. ‘Go on, Terence. Tell Miss Edwards what you’ve been doing at school.’ She continued, without giving me a chance: ‘They’ve been making Christmas decorations and a nativity scene and he’s been learning all the old carols too. I keep hearing him singing them round the place.’

I didn’t think she’d ever once heard me singing in the six months I’d been at Bank Farm but I knew better than to contradict her.

‘Are you all right, Dennis?’ Miss Edwards asked him, and he nodded without looking at her. ‘You look awfully pale. Are you feeling all right?’

Mrs Gough answered for him: ‘He’s had a nasty cough but he’s on the mend now, thank goodness.’

‘He’s got huge dark rings round his eyes. Are you sleeping all right, Dennis?’

Dennis kept fidgeting with his hands while she was talking and wouldn’t stand still, as if he was nervous about something.

‘Answer the nice lady,’ Mrs Gough rebuked, and he cleared his throat and whispered ‘Yes, ma’am.’

‘What do you do with your spare time, Dennis?’

‘I try to be a help,’ he said, his eyes to the floor, and Miss Edwards looked a bit surprised. ‘I think you should take him to a doctor,’ she told Mrs Gough. ‘The council will pay. Just let me know how much it costs.’

‘That’s kind of you,’ said Mrs Gough. ‘It can be hard to manage with two growing boys to feed.’

The two women chatted for a while as Dennis and I stood to one side, then, when she finished her cup of tea, Miss Edwards looked at us again. ‘So are you happy here, boys? Do you want to stay?’ She smiled, encouragingly.

I could see Mrs Gough staring hard at us with a nasty glint in her eye and nodding her head, letting us know the answer she expected us to give.

‘Yes, ma’am,’ I said, and I think Dennis nodded. Inside I was miserable, though. I watched Miss Edwards pull on her coat and hat and walk out the front door and I wanted to run after her and shout ‘No! Don’t go! Don’t leave us here!’

But I didn’t. I didn’t say anything. I was far too scared. No one could help us. We just had to get through it on our own somehow.

Once, when I was four years old, I climbed up onto the car deck of the big Transporter Bridge in Newport. It was fun up there because when all the cars had driven on, the deck started to move, carrying them over to the other side of the river. I had my feet dangling over the side, watching the boats down below, and I thought I was the bee’s knees.

Suddenly a man in a uniform rushed up and grabbed me by the arm. He pulled me to my feet, hurting my shoulder, and shouted ‘What do you think you’re doing?’

‘I was just looking,’ I told him.

He said that I could have fallen and been killed and he wanted to know where my mam and dad lived, so I told him they lived on Bolt Street. My big brother Dennis had made me remember the address in case I ever got lost.

The man said that my mam and dad would be going crazy with worrying about me, but I didn’t think they would. I usually went out for the whole day because Mam didn’t like me to get under her feet. She was always fussing over my little brother Freddie, who was only two, and she let me do whatever I wanted.

The man with the uniform made me stand right beside him until the deck crossed back over the river again, then he told me to run straight home as fast as I could. ‘Your mam will be making your tea soon,’ he said to encourage me.

I was pretty hungry but I knew there wouldn’t be any food back at the house. There hadn’t been any that morning, at any rate. I wandered up through the dock area and picked up some stones to throw in the water, but another man came running over and told me off.