Bestselling author Karma Brown is back with a morally infused and emotionally riveting exploration of one woman’s guilt over an unexpected—yet avoidable—tragedy
Meg Pepper has a fulfilling career and a happy family. Most days she’s able to keep it all together and glide through life. But then, in one unalterable moment, everything changes.
After school pickup one day, she stops her car to wave a teenage boy across the street...just as another car comes hurtling down the road and slams into him.
Meg can’t help but blame herself for her role in this horrific disaster. Full of remorse, she throws herself into helping the boy’s family as he rehabs from his injuries. But the more Meg tries to absolve herself, the more she alienates her own family—and the more she finds herself being drawn to the boy’s father.
Soon Meg’s picture-perfect life is unravelling before her eyes. As the painful secrets she’s been burying bubble dangerously close to the surface, she will have to decide: Can she forgive herself, or will she risk losing everything she holds dear to her heart?
KARMA BROWN is an award-winning journalist and author of the bestsellers Come Away with Me and The Choices We Make. In addition to her novels, Karma’s writing has appeared in publications such as Redbook, SELF and Chatelaine. Karma lives just outside Toronto with her husband, daughter and their labradoodle, Fred. In This Moment is her most recent novel.
www.KarmaKBrown.com
Also By Karma Brown
Come Away with Me
The Choices We Make
In This Moment
Karma Brown
Copyright
An imprint of HarperCollins Publishers Ltd.
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First published in Great Britain by HQ in 2018
Copyright © Karma Brown 2017
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Ebook Edition © January 2018 ISBN: 9781474083591
Praise for the novels of Karma Brown
“We adored Come Away with Me and are ready for more of Brown’s powerful, heartfelt prose. She’s the female Nicholas Sparks.”
—Redbook
“Brown delivers an emotional punch in The Choices We Make. This is a good, old-fashioned tear-jerker of a book.”
—The Toronto Star
“The Choices We Make presents gut-wrenching questions about friendship and loyalty... Should appeal to readers who relish Nicholas Sparks’ sentimental stories combined with the kind of weighty issues often raised by Jodi Picoult.”
—New York Journal of Books
“A warmly compelling love story [and] deeply moving debut.”
—Booklist
“A compelling premise with a plot that intensifies satisfyingly in the second half, this book is a good bet for readers who don’t shy away from difficult moral questions.”
—Kirkus Reviews
“[A] beautifully written story of love and loss... Come Away with Me had me smiling through my tears.”
—Tracey Garvis Graves, New York Times bestselling author of On the Island
“[A] heartbreaking yet hopeful tale... Karma Brown is a talented new voice in women’s fiction.”
—Lori Nelson Spielman, #1 international bestselling author of The Life List
“Laughing one minute, then fiercely blinking back tears the next, we tore through this novel—so gripping that we were both excited and scared out of our minds to turn the page. Multilayered and completely consuming...[a] stunning page turner.”
—Liz Fenton and Lisa Steinke, authors of The Status of All Things
“One woman’s journey through grief becomes the journey of a lifetime.”
—Colleen Oakley, author of Before I Go
For Mom & Dad—you told me I could do whatever I put my mind to.
You were right. xo
Contents
Cover
Back Cover Text
About the Author
Booklist
Title Page
Copyright
Praise
Dedication
Quote
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Acknowledgments
Questions for Discussion
A Conversation with Karma Brown
Extract
Remember upon the conduct of each depends the fate of all.
—Alexander the Great
1
I wake with a start thanks to a loud bang against the window on my side of the bed. Without looking I know what’s happened—another bird, tricked by the clear glass of our balcony windows, has soared to its death and snapped me out of my slumber.
Using my fingertips I pull my phone off the nightstand and squint at the clock icon. When I see the time I sit straight up, pulling the covers off Ryan, who groans with annoyance. “Ryan. We have to get up.”
“Five more minutes,” Ryan mumbles, his back to me as he tries to pull the duvet back up over his shoulders.
I nudge him again, tug at the duvet. “Get up. We’re late.”
He rolls toward me, and I hold my phone in front of him. He lets out a quiet string of curse words. “Didn’t you set your alarm?”
“Didn’t you?” I grumble, throwing the duvet off my legs but still not getting out of bed. I feel leaden, like in the night someone replaced my blood with molasses, and my head hurts. Ryan is out of bed and has already started the shower, and my mind drifts again to the bird. Maybe it was only stunned and has already flown away.
I place my feet gingerly on the floor, wiggling some warmth into my toes. Flicking on the balcony light I glance down. Damn. The bird’s neck is torqued at a distressing angle, its feathers ruffling with the breeze, but otherwise there’s no movement in its tiny body.
I contemplate the best way to get rid of it without upsetting Audrey. After the last one broke its neck, a vibrant yellow finch that Audrey buried under our hydrangeas, Ryan refused to let her soap all the windows in the house. So she made glass gel clings, thanks to the internet and twenty dollars of gelatin from the bulk store and a determination to save every last neighborhood bird. I think of the gel clings inside my nightstand drawer, likely sticking to whatever else I’d forgotten about in there, and whisper an apology to the bird.
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