Louisa Young: Baby Love

The Borough Press

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Published by The Borough Press 2015

First published by Flamingo, an imprint of HarperCollinsPublishers 1997

Copyright © Louisa Young 1997

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Source ISBN: 9780007577989

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Version: 2015-09-07

‘Funny, sexy and tender’ ESTHER FREUD

‘A stylishly literate thriller’ Marie Claire

‘You will keep coming back to this book when you should be doing something else’ LOUIS DE BERNIÈRES

‘Exciting, compelling and tense’ Time Out

‘Funny and scary. In writing honestly and unsentimentally, Young celebrates the unequivocal nature of parental love with verve and style’ Mail on Sunday

‘Wry, perky, entertaining’ Observer

‘Engaging, wise-cracking, likeable, brilliantly sustained … funny, humane and utterly readable’ Good Housekeeping

For Yaw Adomakoh, the good father

Contents

Cover

Title Page BABY LOVE The Angeline Gower Trilogy Louisa Young

Copyright

Praise

Dedication

Introduction

Chapter One: An Argument

Chapter Two: In the Pub with Ben

Chapter Three: Us Then

Chapter Four: Tea with Jim

Chapter Five: In the Park with Harry

Chapter Six: Harry in His Showroom

Chapter Seven: Eddie’s House

Chapter Eight: Dinner with Eddie

Chapter Nine: Lunch with Harry

Chapter Ten: Looking after Lily

Chapter Eleven: Learning

Chapter Twelve: Flowers from Eddie

Chapter Thirteen: Janie’s Tea-chest

Chapter Fourteen: Unsettling

Chapter Fifteen: Eddie Again

Chapter Sixteen: Out

Chapter Seventeen: Showtime

Acknowledgements

About the Author

Also by Louisa Young

About the Publisher

I wrote these novels a long time ago. I spent my days correcting the grammar at the Sunday Times, and my nights writing. I could no longer travel the world doing features about born-again Christian bike gangs in New Jersey, or women salt-miners in Gujarat, or the Mr and Mrs Perfect Couple of America Pageant in Galveston, Texas, which was the sort of thing I had been doing up until then. I had to stay still. I had a baby. Babies focus the mind admirably: any speck of time free has to be made the most of.

I had £300 saved up, so I put the baby and the manuscript in the back of a small car and drove to Italy, where we lived in some rooms attached to a tiny church in a village which was largely abandoned, other than for some horses and some aristocrats. A nice girl groom took the baby to the sea each day in my car while I stared at the pages thinking: ‘If I don’t demonstrate some belief in this whole notion of novels, and me as a novelist, then why should anyone else?’

Re-reading these books now, I think, ‘Christ! Such energy!’ I was so young – so full of beans. I described the plot to my father, who wrote novels and was briefly, in his day, the new Virginia Woolf. After about five minutes he said, ‘Yes, that all sounds good’ – and I said, ‘Dad, that’s just chapter one’.

It was only about twenty years ago, and a different world. Answerphones not mobiles, no internet. Tickets and conductors on the bus. And it was before 9/11, and the mass collapse of international innocence which 9/11 and George Bush’s reaction to it dragged in their miserable, brutalising wake. Could I write a story now, where an English girl and her Egyptian lover meet at the surface of the water? Yes, of course – but it could not be this story.

Anyway, I have grown up too thoughtful to write like this now. I exhaust myself even reading it.

I see too that these, my first novels, were the first pressing of thoughts and obsessions which have cropped up again and again in things I’ve written since. It seems I only really care about love and death and surgery and history and motorbikes and music and damage and babies, and the man I was in love with most of my life, who has appeared in various guises in every book I have ever written. I realise I continue to plagiarise myself all the time, emotionally and subject-wise. And I see the roots of other patterns – Baby Love, my first novel, turned into a trilogy all of its own accord. Since then, I’ve written another two novels that accidentally turned into trilogies – and one of those trilogies is showing signs of becoming a quartet.