Alice Ross - Forty Things To Do Before You're Forty

A serious stitch pierced Annie’s left side. But she couldn’t stop running. She only had a mile to go. That should take her approximately ten minutes. Ten minutes before she could kick off her trainers and sink into a steaming hot bubble bath. She attempted to visualise that scenario but failed. The stitch was too bad. Instead, she turned up the volume on her iPod. Fleetwood Mac’s Tusk flooded her ears – the perfect tune to spur her on. Taking a deep inhalation, she gritted her teeth and continued running.

Jake eased off the accelerator as he approached the runner. It was a girl, with a ponytail of honey-blonde curls swinging from the back of a pink baseball cap. Courtesy of her black running shorts, though, it was her legs that really caught his attention – long, toned and tanned legs, moving at an impressive rate. Manoeuvring the jeep parallel to her, he pressed the button to lower the passenger-side window.

‘Excuse me,’ he ventured, one hand on the steering wheel as he leaned towards the open window.

The girl appeared not to notice him. Jake could see that she had earphones in. He rolled the car a little further ahead. As it hit her eye-line, she started slightly and turned to face him, still running. He could just make out the lower part of her face, the rest obscured by the rim of her cap.

‘Excuse me, but I’m looking for Buttersley. You couldn’t point me in the right direction could you?’

She pulled out her right earphone. Fleetwood Mac’s Tusk drifted out. ‘Sorry,’ she puffed, holding out the earphone to indicate she hadn’t heard him.

‘Buttersley?’ repeated Jake, raising his eyebrows optimistically.

‘Left at the junction and you’re there,’ she replied, tossing him a cursory smile.

‘Great. Thanks.’

She didn’t look at him again, but held up her hand in reply, before stuffing the earphone back in.

Well, thank goodness for that, mused Jake. He was on the right road – at long last. He glanced in his rear-view mirror as he drove away. The girl was still running – with those legs. He swiped a bead of sweat from his brow and suddenly felt quite peculiar.

An hour later, eventually arriving at his destination via the village pub where he’d tucked into a hearty portion of fish and chips followed by apple pie and custard, Jake almost had to pinch himself. Fate had definitely shone on him the day he bumped into Jasper Pinkington-Smythe at the London airport a few weeks ago. Jake was flying home to Scotland after a meeting with his literary agent. Jasper had been en route to his family’s villa in Majorca. He asked Jake what he was up to and Jake muttered something about having a stab at writing a book. The predictable ‘what about?’ followed. Never comfortable talking about his writing, Jake mumbled something vague about a murder-mystery set in a medieval castle.

‘If you’re looking for somewhere atmospheric to write it, you could always use Buttersley Manor - our family pile in Yorkshire,’ Jasper chuckled. ‘Not quite a castle, but it’s medieval and even has the obligatory ghost apparently.’

‘That’s very kind,’ Jake replied. ‘But I couldn’t.’ He hadn’t seen Jasper for years. It didn’t seem right. Jasper, on the other hand, didn’t seem remotely bothered by that fact.

‘Why not? The place will be empty for the next six weeks. Seriously. You’d be doing us a favour. Always better to have someone in it. Security and all that.’

‘It’s really good of you to offer, but I couldn’t,’ Jake insisted.

And the subject had been dropped. Or so Jake had thought. Emptying his rucksack at home later that evening, he’d discovered a large brass key wrapped in a brown paper bag. On the bag were a couple of blobs of strawberry jam and scribbled directions to Buttersley Manor. Jasper had obviously hidden it in the bag when Jake wasn’t looking.

Jake’s initial reaction was to return the key. But, bitten by curiosity, he couldn’t resist Googling the manor. The images had blown him away. Seeds of inspiration had sprouted just looking at them. But he couldn’t possibly take Jasper up on his offer. It didn’t seem right. Then again, hadn’t he said the place would be empty for the next six weeks? Hadn’t he insisted Jake would be doing them a favour? And, if the man had been resourceful enough to slip Jake the key, didn’t that provide some indication of how much he wanted him to go? Flicking through the pictures Jake decided he did want to go. Very much. Six glorious uninterrupted weeks in a majestic setting, where he could write to his heart’s content. What more could an author ask for?

Now, inside the manor, wandering from wonderful room to wonderful room, breathing in the heady mix of wood polish, dust, and centuries of Pinkington-Smythe family history, Jake couldn’t believe his luck. The place was a writer’s heaven, a creative paradise oozing atmosphere from every knot of wood, stone fireplace and panelled wall. Excitement bubbled in his stomach. He would stock up on provisions, find the perfect writing spot – a small drawing room on the ground floor overlooking a lawn looked promising – and he would absorb himself in the writing of his next book. Lose himself, once again, in another imaginary world – one infinitely preferable to the real world.

Of course, Jake had not always harboured such reclusive tendencies. A short time ago such an existence would have seemed complete anathema to him. A life without the buzz and banter of the office – without the adrenalin rush of split-second, multi-million pound decisions, and without the constant need to keep one step ahead, to keep one’s pulse on world affairs and second-guess the markets – would not have seemed like a life worth living. But that had been five years ago. Before Nina’s death. Before her beautiful young life had been abruptly ended on a country road by a cocky seventeen year old.

At first people blamed shock for Jake’s change in behaviour. Time is a great healer, they said. But it wasn’t. Jake could still remember opening the door to the chubby policeman as if it had been yesterday. The man’s hands had been covered in flecks of white paint. For some unfathomable reason it was those flecks of paint Jake had focused on as the devastating news had drifted from the constable’s mouth. The words had bounced off him like hailstones off a tin roof. He’d heard them but couldn’t take them in. It wasn’t until Nina’s funeral ten days later, as he stood in the graveyard watching the mahogany box which contained her beautiful body – the body he had known so intimately – being lowered into the hole in the ground, that the implications of what had happened struck him. Nina was dead. And so, too, was the child she’d been carrying, the child they’d created together, the daughter he would never now hold in his arms. That evening he cried until the tears ran dry. Then he sat up all night and made some life-changing decisions.

‘But you can’t sell the business,’ his second-in-command, Mark, protested the following day. ‘You’ve spent years building it up. Look at all the blood, sweat and tears you’ve put into it. You’re exactly where you wanted to be – the most successful fund manager in Europe.’

‘Well, maybe I don’t want to be there any more,’ Jake countered. ‘Maybe now I want something completely different.’

‘You’re rushing into things. Why don’t you take a few months off? Go travelling or something? Do … I don’t know … whatever you feel like doing.’

‘This is what I feel like doing.’

‘But you’re in shock. It’s only days since Nina … since Nina … ’

‘Died, Mark. Nina is dead,’ Jake cut in, amazed that such a tragic incident, which had ended two lives and touched so many others, could be summed up in three short words.