Madelynne Ellis - Come Undone

A mournful groan escaped her throat.

Xane stirred. Half-opened an eye.

Dani’s cheeks flamed and she tried to step backwards, but Xane’s hand slid into her hair and drew her closer again. ‘Hey,’ he drawled sleepily. ‘That’s not a proper goodbye kiss. Not that I know why you’d be giving such a thing.’ His lips parted beneath hers and sucked her with a firm but gentle pressure. The barest hint of his tongue tickled her senses. This is bad, she thought, even as she continued to fall deeper into his embrace. Her insides were molten. Dani longed to sink down on top of him so their bodies met, to feel his skin against hers. She wanted him to roll them both over so that he laid on top and his dark hair fell around them like a shroud. She wanted him. All of him. Wanted to know what bliss felt like, and not to be ashamed that she’d sought it out. Most of all, she wanted him to desire her as much as she desired him.

Xane took control. Sucking. Teasing her with tender nibbles.

Somehow, even though she knew this wasn’t sensible and though she tried – well, a little – she couldn’t pull away from his embrace. They might only have met for the first time tonight, but Dani couldn’t escape the belief that this man knew her. He understood. And the way he was kissing her, that wasn’t meaningless. It wasn’t only lust. He felt something, didn’t he? He kissed as if he was desperate, as if he was determined to cling on.

‘Stay,’ he urged. ‘Please.’

Dani took a deep steadying breath. She needed to get her brain switched on again.

‘I don’t know.’ Did he even properly remember who he was with? He was acting as if the love of his life were trying to leave him.

‘I do.’ His lips tipped upwards into a smile that showed just the tips of his eye teeth. ‘Just lie down beside me. If it’s what it takes, I’ll even promise to behave.’ He rolled, pulling her with him, so that she landed on her side in the middle of the bed. They faced one another, nose to nose. His hot breath puffed against her cheek.

‘Do you even know how to behave?’

‘Do I need to? Can you swear, hand on heart –’ he clasped her hand and pressed it to her chest ‘– that you want me to be … good?’

No. No way.

She guessed her lack of answer, or the sheen in her eyes, gave her away, for Xane pulled her tight against his body.

‘Wait,’ she gasped, before he devoured her. ‘Earlier you were adamant you didn’t want this.’

‘I never said that. I said, I didn’t want to be groped by someone who didn’t know crap about me.’

‘I don’t know you.’ She didn’t. Not really.

An irritable scowl briefly contorted his expression. ‘Don’t you? You seem to know me more than most.’ He coaxed her under the covers, where he sucked on her lips again, this time stealing both her breath and her senses. ‘Stay.’ He rolled onto his back, pulling her with him so that her head rested upon his chest. His hand remained in her hair, combing through the silken strands in a reassuring manner. ‘Please.’

Dani lifted her chin in order to look at him and caught another glimpse of his inner sadness. She knew then that she couldn’t leave. She’d always wanted to know the real him. The man behind the stage mask; the person responsible for all those impassioned lyrics she related to on so many levels. How could she not take the opportunity to know him better, even if she wasn’t entirely sure he was completely himself?

‘What are you so afraid of?’ he asked.

That their entire relationship would be played out in one paltry night, or even an hour. That he’d hurt her without ever meaning to. And that she’d be found out and punished for it.

‘I’m not actually a prince of darkness. That is, unless you want me to be.’

‘I’d rather you were just you.’

‘Would you?’ he whispered into her hair, so low she strained to hear him. ‘Then you’re the only one.’ He swept a hand down her arm, until he found her hand and clasped it tight. ‘Hold me, Dani.’

‘I’m not sure I …’ Daringly, she spread her fingers wide across his chest. Xane smiled encouragingly. He squeezed her arm. ‘Kiss me.’

She dropped a kiss upon his nose; rained soft kisses upon his face. Xane caught her, supped upon her lips. Boy, did this man know how to kiss. He turned her insides to jelly with only the curl of his tongue.

Dani shrugged aside her normal reserve. The skin across Xane’s chest was smooth and firm, warm too, animated by the persistent thump of his heartbeat. He seemed to like the way her caresses skittered over his body. Leastways, he did nothing to stop her exploration, until her attention wandered below his navel, stroking that slender line of golden fuzz. Then his stomach muscles abruptly twitched.

‘Careful,’ he warned.

Dani snatched her hand away.

‘I didn’t say don’t. Put your hand back. Just be aware of where you’re headed, that’s all.’

‘I am aware.’

‘Sure about that? Then you’d better know that I’m wide-awake.’

Dani rose up on her elbows so that she could look down at his face. ‘You don’t seem very awake.’ Actually, while his eyes still possessed a slightly glazed sheen, he did seem significantly more conscious than he’d been a few minutes ago.

‘Some bits are more alert than others.’

‘Then maybe I shouldn’t touch you there.’

‘I think you definitely should.’

He stroked a hand through her long hair until his palm rested over her lower back. The pressure set Dani’s tensed nerves ablaze.

What was she doing, pretending she could flirt with this man and in any way hope to win? He had the potential to burn her so badly there’d be nothing left but a melted gooey blob.

‘You’re trembling,’ he observed.

‘Am not.’ She cuffed him lightly, although it was true.

‘I dare you.’

‘You dare me to what?’

‘Act on the naughty thoughts you’re thinking.’

Dani put her hand back where it had been on his stomach, which caused Xane to suck in air between his teeth. His eyelids closed, as she began tracing concentric circles around his belly button. She knew this wasn’t what he’d meant, but she’d never really done this before. She’d hardly dared to move with the other guys she’d been with.

‘What do you want me to do?’

‘Whatever you’re comfortable with. It’s nice being with somebody who actually wants me.’

Dani rubbed her cheek against his chest. Even after his shower, the scent of his body proved enough to intoxicate. OK. She was going to take him at his word and seize this opportunity. She leaned over him and tongued the silver hoop through his nipple.

The ring turned beneath her mouth.

‘Yeah,’ he groaned. ‘Again.’

‘You like that?’

‘I like you.’

‘How much?’

His hands skimmed over her lower back, coming to rest across the top of her ass. ‘Keep doing that and maybe I’ll demonstrate.’

‘Only maybe.’ She sucked harder, tugging at the cool metal. Xane’s hips bucked right off the bed, lifting her too.

‘All right, definitely. Now come up here.’ He bucked again, trying to nudge her up towards his head.

‘I like it here.’

‘You’re torment, lady. I’ve another bit that needs your attention a whole lot more than my nipples.’

‘Let me guess, it’s long and thick and …’ And somehow she was saying things that normally she only ever thought, and never actually voiced.

Xane traced a heart-shape over the pulse point in his throat. ‘Come and kiss me here.’

Dani shimmied upwards a fraction to reach.

‘Mmm.’ His appreciation rolled through his body. Shivers of ecstasy chased through his limbs, and he tightened his arms, holding her against him. ‘Harder. Go on, mark me.’