Knowledge house - Oscar Wilde - The Complete Works

·76· mrs. erlynne

Oh! You don’t think that—you can’t.

lady windermere

Go back to my husband, Mrs. Erlynne. He belongs to you and not to me. I suppose he is afraid of a scandal. Men are such cowards. They outrage every law of the world, and are afraid of the world’s tongue. But he had better prepare himself. He shall have a scandal. He shall have the worst scandal there has been in London for years. He shall see his name in every vile paper, mine on every hideous placard.

mrs. erlynne

No—no——

lady windermere

Yes! he shall. Had he come himself, I admit I would have gone back to the life of degradation you and he had prepared for me—I was going back—but to stay himself at home, and to send you as his messenger—oh! it was infamous—infamous.

mrs. erlynne

[ C .] Lady Windermere, you wrong me horribly—you wrong your husband horribly. He doesn’t know you are here—he thinks you are safe in your own house. He thinks you are asleep in your own room. He never read the mad letter you wrote to him!

·77· lady windermere

[ R .] Never read it!

mrs. erlynne

No—he knows nothing about it.

lady windermere

How simple you think me! [ Going to her .] You are lying to me!

mrs. erlynne

[ Restraining herself .] I am not. I am telling you the truth.

lady windermere

If my husband didn’t read my letter, how is it that you are here? Who told you I had left the house you were shameless enough to enter? Who told you where I had gone to? My husband told you, and sent you to decoy me back. [ Crosses L .]

mrs. erlynne

[ R.C .] Your husband has never seen the letter. I—saw it, I opened it. I—read it.

lady windermere

[ Turning to her .] You opened a letter of mine to my husband? You wouldn’t dare!

mrs. erlynne

Dare! Oh! to save you from the abyss into ·78· which you are falling, there is nothing in the world I would not dare, nothing in the whole world. Here is the letter. Your husband has never read it. He never shall read it. [ Going to fireplace .] It should never have been written. [ Tears it and throws it into the fire .]

lady windermere

[ With infinite contempt in her voice and look .] How do I know that that was my letter after all? You seem to think the commonest device can take me in!

mrs. erlynne

Oh! why do you disbelieve everything I tell you? What object do you think I have in coming here, except to save you from utter ruin, to save you from the consequence of a hideous mistake? That letter that is burnt now was your letter. I swear it to you!

lady windermere

[ Slowly .] You took good care to burn it before I had examined it. I cannot trust you. You, whose whole life is a lie, how could you speak the truth about anything? [ Sits down .]

mrs. erlynne

[ Hurriedly .] Think as you like about me—say what you choose against me, but go back, go back to the husband you love.

·79· lady windermere

[ Sullenly .] I do not love him!

mrs. erlynne

You do, and you know that he loves you.

lady windermere

He does not understand what love is. He understands it as little as you do—but I see what you want. It would be a great advantage for you to get me back. Dear Heaven! what a life I would have then! Living at the mercy of a woman who has neither mercy nor pity in her, a woman whom it is an infamy to meet, a degradation to know, a vile woman, a woman who comes between husband and wife!

mrs. erlynne

[ With a gesture of despair .] Lady Windermere, Lady Windermere, don’t say such terrible things. You don’t know how terrible they are, how terrible and how unjust. Listen, you must listen! Only go back to your husband, and I promise you never to communicate with him again on any pretext—never to see him—never to have anything to do with his life or yours. The money that he gave me, he gave me not through love, but through hatred, not in worship, but in contempt. The hold I have over him——

lady windermere

[ Rising .] Ah! you admit you have a hold!

·80· mrs. erlynne

Yes, and I will tell you what it is. It is his love for you, Lady Windermere.

lady windermere

You expect me to believe that?

mrs. erlynne

You must believe it! It is true. It is his love for you that has made him submit to—oh! call it what you like, tyranny, threats, anything you choose. But it is his love for you. His desire to spare you—shame, yes, shame and disgrace.

lady windermere

What do you mean? You are insolent! What have I to do with you?

mrs. erlynne

[ Humbly .] Nothing. I know it—but I tell you that your husband loves you—that you may never meet with such love again in your whole life—that such love you will never meet—and that if you throw it away, the day may come when you will starve for love and it will not be given to you, beg for love and it will be denied you—Oh! Arthur loves you!

lady windermere

Arthur? And you tell me there is nothing between you?

·81· mrs. erlynne

Lady Windermere, before Heaven your husband is guiltless of all offence towards you! And I—I tell you that had it ever occurred to me that such a monstrous suspicion would have entered your mind, I would have died rather than have crossed your life or his—oh! died, gladly died! [ Moves away to sofa R .]

lady windermere

You talk as if you had a heart. Women like you have no hearts. Heart is not in you. You are bought and sold. [ Sits L.C .]

mrs. erlynne

[ Starts, with a gesture of pain. Then restrains herself, and comes over to where Lady Windermere is sitting. As she speaks, she stretches out her hands towards her, but does not dare to touch her .] Believe what you choose about me. I am not worth a moment’s sorrow. But don’t spoil your beautiful young life on my account! You don’t know what may be in store for you, unless you leave this house at once. You don’t know what it is to fall into the pit, to be despised, mocked, abandoned, sneered at—to be an outcast! to find the door shut against one, to have to creep in by hideous byways, afraid every moment lest the mask should be stripped from one’s face, and all the while to hear the laughter, the horrible laughter of the world, a thing more tragic than all the tears the world has ever shed. You don’t know ·82· what it is. One pays for one’s sin, and then one pays again, and all one’s life one pays. You must never know that.—As for me, if suffering be an expiation, then at this moment I have expiated all my faults, whatever they have been; for to-night you have made a heart in one who had it not, made it and broken it.—But let that pass. I may have wrecked my own life, but I will not let you wreck yours. You—why, you are a mere girl, you would be lost. You haven’t got the kind of brains that enables a woman to get back. You have neither the wit nor the courage. You couldn’t stand dishonour. No! Go back, Lady Windermere, to the husband who loves you, whom you love. You have a child, Lady Windermere. Go back to that child who even now, in pain or in joy, may be calling to you. [ Lady Windermere rises .] God gave you that child. He will require from you that you make his life fine, that you watch over him. What answer will you make to God if his life is ruined through you? Back to your house, Lady Windermere—your husband loves you! He has never swerved for a moment from the love he bears you. But even if he had a thousand loves, you must stay with your child. If he was harsh to you, you must stay with your child. If he ill-treated you, you must stay with your child. If he abandoned you, your place is with your child.