Уильям Моррис - The Pilgrims of Hope

And thou without hope or fear, thou fear and hope of my heart!

Lo here thy body beginning, O son, and thy soul and thy life;

But how will it be if thou livest, and enterest into the strife,

And in love we dwell together when the man is grown in thee,

When thy sweet speech I shall hearken, and yet 'twixt thee and me

Shall rise that wall of distance, that round each one doth grow,

And maketh it hard and bitter each other's thought to know?

Now, therefore, while yet thou art little and hast no thought of thine own,

I will tell thee a word of the world, of the hope whence thou hast grown,

Of the love that once begat thee, of the sorrow that hath made

Thy little heart of hunger, and thy hands on my bosom laid.

Then mayst thou remember hereafter, as whiles when people say

All this hath happened before in the life of another day;

So mayst thou dimly remember this tale of thy mother's voice,

As oft in the calm of dawning I have heard the birds rejoice,

As oft I have heard the storm-wind go moaning through the wood,

And I knew that earth was speaking, and the mother's voice was good.

Now, to thee alone will I tell it that thy mother's body is fair,

In the guise of the country maidens who play with the sun and the air,

Who have stood in the row of the reapers in the August afternoon,

Who have sat by the frozen water in the highday of the moon,

When the lights of the Christmas feasting were dead in the house on the hill,

And the wild geese gone to the salt marsh had left the winter still.

Yea, I am fair, my firstling; if thou couldst but remember me!

The hair that thy small hand clutcheth is a goodly sight to see;

I am true, but my face is a snare; soft and deep are my eyes,

And they seem for men's beguiling fulfilled with the dreams of the wise.

Kind are my lips, and they look as though my soul had learned

Deep things I have never heard of. My face and my hands are burned

By the lovely sun of the acres; three months of London-town

And thy birth-bed have bleached them indeed-"But lo, where the edge of the gown"

(So said thy father one day) "parteth the wrist white as curd

From the brown of the hands that I love, bright as the wing of a bird."

Such is thy mother, O firstling, yet strong as the maidens of old,

Whose spears and whose swords were the warders of homestead, of field and of fold.

Oft were my feet on the highway, often they wearied the grass;

From dusk unto dusk of the summer three times in a week would I pass

To the downs from the house on the river through the waves of the blossoming corn.

Fair then I lay down in the even, and fresh I arose on the morn,

And scarce in the noon was I weary. Ah, son, in the days of thy strife,

If thy soul could harbour a dream of the blossom of my life!

It would be as sunlit meadows beheld from a tossing sea,

And thy soul should look on a vision of the peace that is to be.

Yet, yet the tears on my cheek! And what is this doth move

My heart to thy heart, beloved, save the flood of yearning love?

For fair and fierce is thy father, and soft and strange are his eyes

That look on the days that shall be with the hope of the brave and the wise.

It was many a day that we laughed as over the meadows we walked,

And many a day I hearkened and the pictures came as he talked;

It was many a day that we longed, and we lingered late at eve

Ere speech from speech was sundered, and my hand his hand could leave.

Then I wept when I was alone, and I longed till the daylight came;

And down the stairs I stole, and there was our housekeeping dame

(No mother of me, the foundling) kindling the fire betimes

Ere the haymaking folk went forth to the meadows down by the limes;

All things I saw at a glance; the quickening fire-tongues leapt

Through the crackling heap of sticks, and the sweet smoke up from it crept,

And close to the very hearth the low sun flooded the floor,

And the cat and her kittens played in the sun by the open door.

The garden was fair in the morning, and there in the road he stood

Beyond the crimson daisies and the bush of southernwood.

Then side by side together through the grey-walled place we went,

And O the fear departed, and the rest and sweet content!

Son, sorrow and wisdom he taught me, and sore I grieved and learned

As we twain grew into one; and the heart within me burned

With the very hopes of his heart. Ah, son, it is piteous,

But never again in my life shall I dare to speak to thee thus;

So may these lonely words about thee creep and cling,

These words of the lonely night in the days of our wayfaring.

Many a child of woman to-night is born in the town,

The desert of folly and wrong; and of what and whence are they grown?

Many and many an one of wont and use is born;

For a husband is taken to bed as a hat or a ribbon is worn.

Prudence begets her thousands: "Good is a housekeeper's life,

So shall I sell my body that I may be matron and wife."

"And I shall endure foul wedlock and bear the children of need."

Some are there born of hate-many the children of greed.

"I, I too can be wedded, though thou my love hast got."

"I am fair and hard of heart, and riches shall be my lot."

And all these are the good and the happy, on whom the world dawns fair.

O son, when wilt thou learn of those that are born of despair,

As the fabled mud of the Nile that quickens under the sun

With a growth of creeping things, half dead when just begun?

E'en such is the care of Nature that man should never die,

Though she breed of the fools of the earth, and the dregs of the city sty.

But thou, O son, O son, of very love wert born,

When our hope fulfilled bred hope, and fear was a folly outworn;

On the eve of the toil and the battle all sorrow and grief we weighed,

We hoped and we were not ashamed, we knew and we were not afraid.

Now waneth the night and the moon-ah, son, it is piteous

That never again in my life shall I dare to speak to thee thus.

But sure from the wise and the simple shall the mighty come to birth;

And fair were my fate, beloved, if I be yet on the earth

When the world is awaken at last, and from mouth to mouth they tell

Of thy love and thy deeds and thy valour, and thy hope that nought can quell.

It was twenty-five years ago that I lay in my mother's lap

New born to life, nor knowing one whit of all that should hap:

That day was I won from nothing to the world of struggle and pain,

Twenty-five years ago-and to-night am I born again.

I look and behold the days of the years that are passed away,

And my soul is full of their wealth, for oft were they blithe and gay

As the hours of bird and of beast: they have made me calm and strong

To wade the stream of confusion, the river of grief and wrong.

A rich man was my father, but he skulked ere I was born,

And gave my mother money, but left her life to scorn;

And we dwelt alone in our village: I knew not my mother's "shame,"

But her love and her wisdom I knew till death and the parting came.

Then a lawyer paid me money, and I lived awhile at a school,

And learned the lore of the ancients, and how the knave and the fool

Have been mostly the masters of earth: yet the earth seemed fair and good

With the wealth of field and homestead, and garden and river and wood;

And I was glad amidst it, and little of evil I knew

As I did in sport and pastime such deeds as a youth might do,

Who deems he shall live for ever. Till at last it befel on a day