Heather London - The Hardest Part

"Reed, I—I'm not sure. I mean, are you sure this is what you want?"

He turned me around and pulled me close to his chest, forcing me to look at him. "I want you here. I want you here because I care about you. I want you here because I love you. I want you with me. You're reading way too much into it, just like you were doing at the hospital. I don't want you here out of guilt or so I can control you. I want you so I can help keep you safe. But I only want you here if you want to be here. If you're not ready for this, I can have your things back in your apartment this afternoon."

I glanced around his place again. I did feel safe here. I felt safe with Reed. I liked being with him. I couldn't deny the fact that Jake still being out there was in the back of my mind. Even though it had been weeks since anyone had seen him, he hadn't been found, so I could only assume he was just waiting for the right time to come for me again. I knew that now, more than ever, he wanted his revenge. He wanted me to pay, and it was only a matter of time before he came for me again.

Reed planted a soft kiss on my forehead, bringing my attention back to him. "Hey, I don't want to pressure you into anything. If it's too much, then we'll bring your stuff back and I'll just hire more security for your place, maybe an entire army." He smiled. "I'm really just trying to do the best for you and the baby."

"I know you are." I sighed and bit my lip. "Okay, we'll see how it goes."

EMILY

ONE MONTH passed and then two; still there was no sign of Jake. We all tried to go back to our normal lives as much as possible, but we were all still on edge, waiting. It wasn’t that I wanted Jake to finally come out of the shadows; I just didn't like knowing that he was still in them. I knew Jake was waiting for everything to calm down. He was waiting for the cops and FBI to stop trailing him and then he would reappear when I least expected it. There was no doubt in my mind that he had it all planned out.

Robbins had been spending a lot of time traveling back and forth from New York to Las Vegas, looking for Jake or anyone that had seen him in the last couple of months. With his absence, Reed hired a few more security guards. Peters and Warren were assigned for my personal protection. They were with me to and from work and any other time I went outside of the condo. Two more men were hired for the outside of the building and another two for inside the condo.

Lexi got an entire new team assigned to her and her building as well. With the threats from Jake and knowing that he would hurt the people I cared about just to hurt me, we were all being extra careful. I wished I could've said it was a bit much, but I never underestimated Jake and now, neither did Reed. If Jake wanted me, then he would do whatever it took to get to me. Another ten security guards might not have been enough.

This week was going to be a little more miserable than usual. Reed was leaving for London and, as much as I didn't want him to go, I knew it was important for him to continue living his life. He was already hesitant to leave me, but to make matters worse, Peters had spotted a suspicious vehicle following us home yesterday after work. It put everyone on edge, even more than we had been in the last few weeks.

When Reed found out about the mysterious car, he told me he was canceling his trip. I begged him not to. He shouldn't have to change his life. Doing so just made me feel even guiltier about the monster I had brought into their lives.

"I don't like this, Emily," he had said as he hugged me good-bye this morning. "I really don't think I should go."

"It will be fine," I assured him. I really didn't have any plans to leave the condo anyway. I was going to work from home today and tomorrow. The business meeting in London was an important one; I didn't want him missing it.

He sighed and ran his hand down his tired face, frustrated. No one had slept well the past few weeks either. "I'm going to regret this. I'm going to get on the plane and be a nervous wreck until I get back here and see that you're okay."

I had shook my head. "No, you won't. You'll be fine. Now go before you miss your flight."

The moment the elevator doors closed and he was gone, I stood there, questioning why I begged him to go at all. I already wanted him back.

Over the next couple of days, I kept my word, working from home, mostly following up with potential new clients and booking a few venues for the months ahead.

Last night, I overheard Peters and Warren talking about the mysterious car. I tried not to listen, but when they mentioned they’d seen it again that afternoon, lurking out in front of the building, I couldn't not listen. This time they had managed to get the license plate number and found out that the car had been rented about a week ago. The mystery just grew from there.

The car rental company said they couldn't release who the car had been rented to or when it was due back. From the sound of it, there was a good chance it was Jake, or that he had something to do with it. There was also a good chance that there was no connection at all. New York City was a big place. I'm sure there are a lot of people who want to rent a car and remain anonymous, right?

Even though I knew Peters and Warren were going to be extra cautious and probably wouldn't like it, I was in desperate need to get out of the condo. Lexi even came over and helped me talk them into it. At first, even she was reluctant to take me out of the condo, but after a lot of coaxing and maybe even a little begging on my end, she agreed as long as Peters, Warren, and a couple of the new security guys came with us. I didn't care if we took the entire New York Police Department with us. I just wanted to take a short walk in Central Park… I would've even settled for a walk around the block.

"Hey, do you need to sit down? You don’t look so good," Lexi said, giving me a wide-eyed glance. "Or maybe you just need some water. I'll go get you some water." She turned and started toward a street vendor on the corner. I grabbed her arm before she could take two steps away. I was only four months pregnant and barely showing, but I still got winded from walking just a few feet. I think most of my exhaustion came from being in a hospital bed for weeks and not moving. Now that my body was finally starting to heal, I needed to get it back in shape.

"No, I'm fine. I just need a few minutes." I sat down on the park bench to take a rest and let my head fall back, soaking up the early spring sun’s rays on my face.

"Reed is going to be so angry with me. I shouldn't have taken you out."

I looked over at her and saw the worry on her face. My eyes then moved to Peters and Warren, who were just a few feet away from us on our left, and then the two other security guards a few feet away on the right.

"I'm fine, Lexi. I just got a little tired. And Reed won't kill you. He should thank you. I don't think I would have survived staying indoors one more day. I needed to get out and smell some fresh air. I needed to feel the sun." I forced a smile, hoping to convince her that everything was going to be okay.

Lexi had changed so much in the past couple months. She was no longer a shy, damaged victim. She was stronger now, more confident. A lot of that came from her relationship with Brandon. Things between them were going well and they were even talking about moving in together.

"How are you feeling now?" Lexi asked me after only thirty seconds passed.

"Much better." I couldn't help but laugh. "See, I just needed to take a little rest."

She looked at me with the same nervousness as before. "You still don't have much color. Maybe you need to eat something."

"Yeah, I am pretty hungry," I agreed, standing back up. Some lunch actually sounded really good. I'd been craving a pizza from a place down the street.