James Burke - Half of Paradise

He saw Suzanne going up the steps to her apartment as he entered the courtyard. She had several boxes in her arms. She wore high heels and a dark suit and a small white hat with a white veil.

“Hello,” she cried. “Come up and see what I bought.”

He followed her up the steps and into the living room. She left the doors open to the balcony. She looked out of breath. She threw the boxes on the couch and tore them open and pulled out the new dresses amid the rustling of the tissue paper.

“Do you like them?” she said. “God, what bedlam. I’ll never go shopping at five again. I’m sorry I’m late. Where have you been?”

“The parole board and the pool hall.”

“Oh? Did anything happen?”

“No.”

“Did you have to talk with that same little man you told me about?”

“He’s been assigned to me as my counselor on readjustment.”

“Poor darling. You must be tired. Do you want a drink?”

“Do you have a beer?”

She went into the kitchen and got one out of the icebox and opened it. The foam came over the lip of the bottle.

“Did you meet any literary people at the pool hall?” she said.

“A Portuguese sailor.”

“Has he written anything?”

“Only on bathroom walls.”

“I’ve always wanted to go to a pool hall. What’s it like?” she said.

“Most of the upper-class people from the Quarter are there.”

“They’re lovely company.”

“Is Denise in?” he said.

“I don’t know. Denise!”

She looked in the bedroom.

“She must have gone out with that Tulane boy.”

“Let’s go to bed.”

“That’s a subtle way of putting it,” she said.

“I’ve been thinking about you all day.”

“I’ve wanted you all day, too. It must be true that once you get in the habit of it you can’t do without it.”

“Do you feel that way?” he said.

“I don’t think I could go a week without you.”

“We won’t ever have to go without each other.”

“We’ll always be together and nothing else will matter,” she said.

He drank down the foam in the bottom of the bottle.

“Do you want another one?” she asked. “Let’s go to bed. We’ll go out and drink beer afterwards.”

“I know a German place we can go to. They have beer in those big mugs with the copper lids.”

They went into her bedroom and she slid the bolt on the door. She drew the French curtains on the big window overlooking the courtyard. He watched her undress.

“We have such good times, don’t we?” she said.

“We always will.”

“We won’t get tired of each other like married people do, will we?”

“No.”

“We’ll have each day like this. Always and always and always,” she said.

“Are you very happy?”

“You make me happy in a nice way.”

“You’re getting to be a bad girl.”

They lay on the bed. She put herself close and tongue-kissed him.

“How do you like me best?” she said.

“We’ll take turns. Am I too heavy for you?”

“Ummmm. This is fine.”

“Could we get an apartment together?”

“I’ve thought about it, but it would get back to Daddy and I don’t want to hurt him.”

“It’s hard with Denise around.”

“She said she might find another place. Poor thing, I guess we’ve almost driven her out. But wouldn’t it be nice? I’d have the apartment to myself, and you could come over and we could do it anytime we wanted. Again and again and again with no one to bother us.”

“When is she leaving?”

“She isn’t sure yet.”

“Could we let her find us in bed?” he said. “That should hurry things up.”

“Stop being mean.”

“She’s nice, but it will be better when she’s gone.”

“You can come here after work, and we’ll undress and lie in bed and you won’t have to go home. Won’t it be wonderful?”

“Yes, it will.”

The last rays of the summer evening fell through the crack in the French curtains and the room became dark.

Virdo Hunnicut was furious. His tie was pulled loose from his shirt collar, and he paced up and down the room talking loudly and jabbing his finger at J.P. to emphasize a point.

J.P. sat in the chair with only his trousers and undershirt on. His bare feet looked yellow on the rug. The razor nicks on his face were thinly flecked with blood, and his eyes were sunken. His hair was uncombed and it hung down over his forehead and ears. There was a throbbing pain in the back of his head; when he moved he felt something shoot through his neck and shoulders hot like ice. He heard Hunnicut speaking from afar. He tried to remember what had happened last night. He remembered going on the stage, and then somebody had booed and the curtain had been drawn and Seth was trying to pull him into the stage wing by his coat sleeve. Or was it April? It was like that bitch to do something like that. What was Hunnicut saying now? He didn’t give a goddamn, really. He wished Hunnicut would take a bath before he came into the room. He’d have to leave the window open all morning to get the stink out.

“—you’ll be finished, out on your ass in the street. I fired that goddamn stage manager for even letting you go on—”

Why didn’t he shut up, the fat unwashed bastard?

“Do you hear me? Open your eyes and look at me. We’re going to make an announcement over the air that you were sick last night. You had pneumonia but you wanted to go on anyway because you love the hicks so much. I’m going to wait a month and put you on the show again, but if you make another hophead performance like that you’re canned for good. Are you listening?”

Go fuck yourself .

“I don’t know how I picked you up to begin with,” Virdo Hunnicut said.

“Stop your goddamn shouting. I had my fill of it this morning,” J.P. said.

“I put you on top and you blow it.”

“I made a bundle for you.”

“You wasn’t nothing but a poor white trash farmer when you went on my show.”

“Listen, I ain’t — get the hell out of here. You’re stinking up the room.”

“What? What did you say?”

“You’re stinking up the room.”

Hunnicut’s face reddened. The sweat rolled off his neck onto his shirt. Everything about him was sweaty. His slacks stuck to his legs, and even his tie was damp. His face was strained with anger.

“You’re finished,” he said. “You take yourself and your cocaine and your slut wife with her douche bag and get out of town because I’m through with you. I’ve had enough. You ain’t worth the spit on a sidewalk. I don’t know how I put up with you this long. Go up to Little Rock and Nashville and see if they’ll give you a job when they find out you’re a junkie. I’m glad to get shut of you.”

Hunnicut walked out of the room, leaving an odor of sweat in the air behind him.

J.P. sat in the chair and felt the throbbing pain in his head increase. He couldn’t see clearly to the opposite side of the room. He wanted to get up from the chair and walk to the bed to lie down, but when he moved the pain dropped down in his neck and shoulders and he remained still. He wondered if he had said too much to Hunnicut. Pack your cocaine and your douche bag wife and get out of town. The stinking bastard. Don’t want junkies in Nashville and Little Rock to sell glow-in-the-dark tablecloths painted with the Last Supper. What about big-print Bibles miracle water actual photographs of Jesus books on faith healing flower seed egg formula vitamin tonic cut-out pictures of your favorite country singers? Snowbirds ain’t wanted. The pain in my head swells and lessens and swells again. My fingers twitch and the cigarette in my hand burns down to my knuckles. Got high Wednesday or Thursday night. Can’t remember after. My watch. Where the hell is my watch? Bitch of a wife probably sold it for a shot. If she ain’t spreading her legs for Doc Elgin. Back home we’d go after him with a gelding knife. Hopping a man’s wife for drugs. Couldn’t get in a whorehouse with a fist full of green. Eyes aching, feel full of sand like I looked at a welder’s torch too long. I need a drink or powder to get flat again and lie in bed with a soft-belly woman on top of me. That blond-headed whore up home with the rain falling outside. Tried to get her hot. You can’t get a whore hot. You hear stories about a fellow getting one hot and she keeps asking for more and then he gets it free whenever he wants. They ain’t got no interest in it. Even though they give you better loving than them tight-leg bitches that think they’re giving you something if they let you have a couple of inches. Take some snow now and a little whiskey and then go over to Jerry’s and get fixed up for the afternoon. Wonder if Hunnicut meant it. Who gives a goddamn? The unwashed bastard.