Филиппа Карр - The changeling

“Uncle Peter ...” said my mother. She looked at Alfred. “What is wrong? Do you know?”

“Yes, Madam. Mr. Peter Lansdon suffered a stroke during the night. His condition is said to be ... not good. It is for this reason ...”

She said: “We will leave as soon as possible. Alfred, have you had something to eat?

Go to Mrs. Emery. She will see to you while we prepare ourselves to leave.”

I took her arm and we went indoors. I could see that she was shaken.

“Uncle Peter,” she murmured. “I do hope he won’t... I do hope he’ll be all right.

I always thought of him as ... indestructible.”

We caught the three-thirty train to London and went straight to Uncle Peter’s house.

Benedict was there. He embraced my mother tenderly and hardly seemed to notice me. ‘I was afraid after I’d sent Alfred that it might have been a shock, darling,” he said. “I guessed you’d want to be here … but ... actually he was asking for you.”

“How is he?” Benedict shook his head.

Aunt Amaryllis came out, looking lost and bewildered. I had never seen her like that before. She seemed unaware that we were there.

“Aunt Amaryllis,” said my mother. “Oh ... my dear ...” He was all right just before,” said Aunt Amaryllis. “I didn’t have a notion ... and then suddenly ... he just collapsed.”

We stood round his bed. He looked different ... handsome distinguished but different.

He was very pale and seemed old ... much older than when I had last seen him. I looked at those round the bed ... his family ... the people who had been closest to him. I was struck by the incredulity in those faces. He was dying and they all knew it, and death was something one had never thought of in connection with Uncle Peter. But it had overtaken him at last and there he lay ... the buccaneer who had adventured on the high seas of life .. winning most of the time and often not too scrupulously, I had heard it whispered in the family. Only once had he come near to disaster. That was in connection with the rather notorious and disreputable clubs which he ran at great profit and on which his fortune had been founded. Then he had become a philanthropist, and a great deal of that money which had come through questionable sources had gone back into good works like the Mission run by his son Peterkin and his wife Frances.

I think we had all loved him. He was a rogue, yes, but a very wise one. I knew my mother had loved him as my grandmother had. He had always been kind and helpful. Amaryllis had adored him; she had refused to see any fault in him. The others realized his rogueries ... and loved him none the less because of them. And now he was dying.

There were pieces in the papers about him - the millionaire philanthropist, they called him. They were all saying flattering things about him and there was no hint of the manner in which his fortune had been acquired. To be dead is to be sanctified. I supposed it was because people ceased to be envious. Everybody wants to be a millionaire but nobody wants to be dead. So envy evaporates. Moreover, people often feel uneasy about defaming the dead ... especially the newly dead. Perhaps there is a fear of haunting. “Never speak ill of the dead,” they say. So Uncle Peter was remembered for his good deeds rather than his evil ones. There were many people at the funeral.

Aunt Amaryllis was dazed with grief; and even Frances, whose brilliant work at the Mission had been so outstanding and who had pretended to have a good opinion of her father-in-law, was sad. As for the rest of us, we were quite desolate. wa, was Only just beginning to be aware of change and now I found it everywhere.

In due course the will was read. I was not present at that ceremony, but I heard about it later.

The servants were pleased. They had all received their legacies. Everything had been taken care of, I was told, which one would expect of Uncle Peter. Aunt Amaryllis was well provided for; Helena, and Martin, Peterkin and Frances all had their portions. He had a great fortune to leave but the larger part of it was in his business which meant the notorious clubs; and these he had left to his grandson, Benedict Lansdon. They were whispering about it and I wondered what differences this would mean. I was soon to discover. The relationship between my mother and her husband had undergone a slight change. She was no longer idyllically happy. In fact there was a certain uneasiness about her.

I had seen them in the garden together. Instead of laughing and now and then touching hands, they walked with a slight distance between each other, yet in earnest conversation ... frowning ... emphatic ... in fact one might say arguing. It dawned on me that it had something to do with this new inheritance from Uncle Peter.

I wished my mother would talk to me about it. But of course she did not. It was one thing to be considered mature enough to read Jane Eyre, but to be involved in discussion of this delicate affair was quite different.

My mother was very worried.

I did overhear her discussing it with Frances. Frances was one of those rather uncomfortable people who are kind and considerate when dealing with the masses and less so with individuals. ^he was of sterling character; she had devoted her life to good works;

she had said she accepted money from Uncle Peter with gratitude for she did not care how that money had been come by as long as it came her way and she could use it to the good of her Mission. But she had always been more critical of Uncle Peter than any other member of the family. She had accepted him for what he was and was like Elizabeth of England, gratefully receiving plunder which her pirate-heroes brought her and pouring it into the treasury for the good of her country.

This was logical reasoning of course and one would never expect anything else from Frances.

She said: “Benedict should sell off the clubs. They’d bring him a fortune. Surely he doesn’t mean to continue with them?”

“He feels it is what Uncle Peter wanted him to do,” said my mother. “It was for that reason he left them to him.”

“Nonsense. Peter would expect him to do what was best for himself ... as be always did.”

“Nevertheless ...”

“He fancies himself in the role, I daresay. Well, my father-in-law sailed very near the wind sometimes ... and that’s no way for a politician to go.”

“It’s what I tell Benedict.”

“And he thinks he can go on reaping rewards from the underworld and increasing his riches. There is no doubt that money is a great asset in a political career.”

“It frightens me, Frances.”

“Well, like grandfather like grandson. There is no doubting Benedict is a chip off the old block.”

“Benedict is wonderful.”

A brief silence while Frances was no doubt implying her disagreement with that statement.

“Well,” she said at length, “those clubs nearly finished my father-in-law, remember.”

“I know. That’s why ...”

“Some men are like that. Offer them a challenge and they’ve got to take it. It’s something to do with their masculine arrogance. They think nothing on Earth can beat them and they have to prove it.”

“But it could ruin him ...”

“Well, his grandfather came sailing through, honored and sung to his grave. Men like that don’t think they are living if there is not a bit of danger around them for them to overcome. Don’t worry, Angel. It’s bad for you in your condition. Take of yourself and let Benedict fend for himself. His kind o? avs come through ...and I daresay he knows what he’s doing - ...

So that was it. He was going to continue in Uncle Peter s business. It was dangerous, but then, as Frances had said, that men like Benedict and Uncle Peter lived. Aunt Amaryllis had aged considerably. She was listless and had lost those youthful looks which had been characteristic of her. She caught a chill and could not shake it off. It seemed that now Uncle Peter was dead she could find no purpose in living. My grandparents came to London. They were concerned about my mother.