Should he tell her that once you were in, you couldn’t get out? That it was your basic deal with the devil? He should. But he wouldn’t.
They swung into the circular drive of a beachfront condo. Two ladies—undoubtedly Mary Worth’s chums—were waiting there.
“Would you give me your phone number?” Dixon asked.
“What? So you can call me? Or so you can pass it on to your boss? Your facilitator?”
“That,” Dixon said. “Nice as it’s been, Mary, you and I will probably never see each other again.”
She paused, thinking. The chums-in-waiting were almost dancing with excitement. Then Mary opened her purse and took out a card. She handed it to Dixon. “This is my cell number. You can also reach me at the Boston Public Library.”
Dixon laughed. “I knew you were a librarian.”
“Everyone does,” she said. “It’s a bit boring, but it pays the rent, as they say.” She opened the door. The chums squealed like rock show groupies when they saw her.
“There are more exciting occupations,” Dixon said.
She looked at him gravely. “There’s a big difference between temporary excitement and mortal fear, Craig. As I think we both know.”
He couldn’t argue with her on that score, but got out and helped the driver with her bags while Mary Worth hugged two of the widows she had met in an Internet chat room.
7
Mary was back in Boston, and had almost forgotten Craig Dixon, when her phone rang one night. Her caller was a man with a very slight lisp. They talked for quite awhile.
The following day, Mary Worth was on Jetway Flight 694, nonstop from Boston to Dallas, sitting in coach, just aft of the starboard wing. Middle seat. She refused anything to eat or drink.
The turbulence struck over Oklahoma.
Before you groan, shake your head, and say “I don’t read poetry,” you should remember that James Dickey wasn’t just a poet; he also wrote the classic novel of survival, Deliverance , and the less-read To the White Sea , about a B-29 gunner forced to parachute into enemy territory. Dickey wrote from experience; he was a combat flier in both World War II and Korea. “Falling” has the same narrative drive and gorgeously controlled language as Deliverance . Once read, it is impossible to forget. An interesting footnote: Dickey admitted in a self-interview that the poem’s central conceit was unlikely (a woman falling from that height would be flash-frozen, he said), but in fact it did happen: in 1972, stewardess Vesna Vulovic fell 33,000 feet in a DC-9 that was probably blown apart by a bomb… and she survived. The text quoted at the beginning of the poem comes from an October 29, 1962, NYT article about an incident involving an Allegheny Airlines twin-engine Convair 440 approaching Bradley Field in Windsor Locks, Connecticut. Two other stewardesses had been killed in similar incidents the previous month.
A 29-year-old stewardess fell … to her death tonight when she was swept through an emergency door that suddenly sprang open … The body … was found … three hours after the accident.
—New York Times
The states when they black out and lie there rollingwhen they turn
To something transcontinentalmove bydrawing moonlight out of the great
One-sided stone hung off the starboard wingtipsome sleeper next to
An engine is groaning for coffeeand there is faintly coming in
Somewhere the vast beast-whistle of space. In the galley with its racks
Of traysshe rummages for a blanketand moves in her slim tailored
Uniform to pin it over the cry at the top of the door. As though she blew
The door down with a silent blast from her lungsfrozenshe is black
Out finding herselfwith the plane nowhere and her body taken by the throat
The undying cry of the voidfallinglivingbeginning to be something
That no one has ever been and lived throughscreaming without enough air
Still neatlipstickedstockingedgirdled by regulationher hat
Still onher arms and legs in no worldand yet spaced also strangely
With utter placid rightness on thin airtaking her timeshe holds it
In many placesand now, still thousands of feet from her death she seems
To slowshe develops interestshe turns in her maneuverable body
To watch it. She is hung high up in the overwhelming middle of things in her
Selfin low body-whistling wrapped intenselyin all her dark dance-weight
Coming down from a marvellous leapwith the delaying, dumfounding ease
Of a dream of being drawnlike endless moonlight to the harvest soil
Of a central state of one’s countrywith a great gradual warmth coming
Over herfloatingfinding more and more breath in what she has been using
For breathas the levels become more humanseeing clouds placed honestly
Below her left and rightriding slowly toward themshe clasps it all
To her and can hang her hands and feet in it in peculiar waysand
Her eyes opened wide by wind, can open her mouth as widewider and suck
All the heat from the cornfieldscan go down on her back with a feeling
Of stupendous pillows stacked under herand can turnturn as to someone
In bedsmile, understood in darknesscan go awayslantslide
Off tumblinginto the emblem of a bird with its wings half-spread
Or whirl madly on herselfin endless gymnastics in the growing warmth
Of wheatfields rising toward the harvest moon.There is time to live
In superhuman healthseeing mortal unreachable lights far down seeing
An ultimate highway with one late priceless car probing itarriving
In a square townand off her starboard arm the glitter of water catches
The moon by its one shaken sidescaled, roaming silverMy God it is good
And evillying in one after another of all the positions for love
Makingdancingsleepingand now cloud wisps at her no
Raincoatno matterall small towns brokenly brighter from inside
Cloudshe walks over them like rainbursts out to behold a Greyhound
Bus shooting light through its sidesit is the signal to go straight
Down like a glorious diverthen feet firsther skirt stripped beautifully
Upher face in fear-scented clothsher legs deliriously barethen
Arms outshe slow-rolls oversteadies outwaits for something great
To take control of hertrembles near feathersplanes head-down
The quick movements of bird-necks turning her headgold eyes the insight-
eyesight of owls blazing into the hencoopsa taste for chicken overwhelming
Herthe long-range vision of hawks enlarging all human lights of cars
Freight trainslooped bridgesenlarging the moon racing slowly
Through all the curves of a riverall the darks of the midwest blazing
From above. A rabbit in a bush turns whitethe smothering chickens
Huddlefor over them there is still time for something to live
With the streaming half-idea of a long stoopa hurtlinga fall
That is controlledthat plummets as it willsturns gravity
Into a new condition, showing its other side like a moonshining
New Powersthere is still time to live on a breath made of nothing
But the whole nighttime for her to remember to arrange her skirt
Like a diagram of a battightly it guides hershe has this flying-skin
Made of garmentsand there are also those sky-divers on tvsailing
In sunlightsmiling under their gogglesswapping batons back and forth
And He who jumped without a chute and was handed one by a diving
Buddy. She looks for her grinning companionwhite teethnowhere
She is screamingsinging hymnsher thin human wings spread out
From her neat shouldersthe air beast-crooning to herwarbling
And she can no longer behold the huge partial form of the worldnow
She is watching her country lose its evoked master shapewatching it lose
And gainget back its houses and peopleswatching it bring up
Its local lightssingle homeslamps on barn roofsif she fell
Into water she might livelike a divercleavingperfectplunge
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