Weston Ochse: Blaze of Glory

Buckley jumped down from the bed of the pick-up and tried to yank open the door. Locked. The passenger door was locked too. Cursing, he climbed back into the cab and tried the sliding rear window. It moved easily. Sticking his head partially inside Buckley began, "Is everything-" but stopped when he saw what filled the front windshield.

Up ahead grazed one of the largest Caddies they'd ever seen, chewing through a Home Depot. The creature seemed to expand with every crunch. A tantalizing fifty feet behind it lay the ocean along with the sand of Wrightsville Beach, empty and inviting, the promise of life instead of mere tans.

He'd thought MacHenry dead, but that was far from the truth. The man's sobs filled the cab, his shoulder's shaking, tears falling onto the upturned face of Gert, laying in his lap. Her eyes stared sightlessly heavenward. Where she'd been ugly when mad, she was most beautiful in death, the stresses of life, the fear of living and the self-loathing of a lifetime, swept away on angel's wings leaving her as innocent and pure as the day she was born. Maggies surged from her ear and trailed down across her shoulders and onto MacHenry's leg, where even as Buckley watched, they burrowed in the man's naked flesh.

Keeping an eye on the caddie, Buckley put a hand on MacHenry's shoulder. "MacHenry, you need to get out of the cab, man."

MacHenry raised his head from the steering wheel and gazed upon the face of his girl. He gently brushed maggies from her gossamer cheek. He sobbed once more as he stroked her skin.

"She’s dead, my friend."

Instead of replying, MacHenry began to bang his head against the wheel. With each impact the horn sounded its ugly BLAT.

"MacHenry, come on," Buckley said, staring worriedly at the caddie. If they drew its attention, no telling how fast it could be upon them. For a creature that size, they were no more than a cocktail weenie. "MacHenry. You're gonna get us killed if you don't stop."

MacHenry sat up straight. He wiped the tears away from his eyes and met Buckley’s gaze in the rearview mirror. "Get out."

"MacHenry?"

"Untie Grandma Riggs, take the kids, and you and Sissy get out of the fucking truck."

"MacHenry, I-"

"Dammit, Adamski! Don’t you ever listen? I said get out of the fucking truck. I probably don’t have long to live and don’t have time to fuck around. Look at that big motherfucker. Do you really want to have this conversation now?"

Reluctantly, Buckley began to untie Grandma Riggs as Sissy ushered the children out the back. MacHenry kept his eyes locked on Buckley in the mirror.

"And just so you know, Adamski. I’m mad as hell that you’re alive and my Gert isn’t."

Buckley bit his lip, knowing that the man was speaking from a chasm of pain. If he wanted to be mad, then let him. Frankly, Buckley couldn't explain why he still lived.

"You need to make sure they make it," MacHenry said.

Buckley nodded as he unwound the last rope. Sissy climbed into the back of the truck and helped the old woman down.

"I’m serious. They have to make it, don't you see? Otherwise, this trip was for nothing. Me and Old Gert could have fucked ourselves to oblivion instead of that forced march you put us on. We would have been happy to die in each other's arms. Love instead of fear surrounding us as we breathed our last breath."

Several seconds ticked past. A Maggie slid from Buckley’s forehead, but he ignored it. Instead, he turned to gaze back into MacHenry's eyes, who nodded slowly in return. The man smiled once, but there was no love in the gesture, more the recognition of an enemy right before battle.

"But it was you who roused us, Adamski. It was you who made us care about the others. And I thank you and hate you for that."

The man had something to say, some great weight to unload from his soul. He'd lost the love of his life. Buckley couldn't help but empathize. Slowly, he extended his hand through the back window if nothing more than to touch the man's shoulder in a friendly gesture.

"Get the fuck away! I’m not touching you!"

"What?" Buckley was stunned by the man's rage.

"Oh, I'm not afraid of dying, if that's what you think. It ain’t the dying I care about, it’s the selfishness. You would have hidden it from us if you could."

Buckley dropped his hands to his sides and lowered his head. So that was it.

"You tried to hide the truth from us. You did to us what you wouldn't let any of us get away with. Lashawna, Bennie, Sally, all of them deserved a chance, but you never gave it to them. Instead, you played judge, jury and executioner. And when it came time to do the same to yourself, what did you do?"

I acted like a coward , Buckley thought to himself.

"You acted like a coward," MacHenry said, as if he could read Buckley's mind. "Remember what you said back at the BBQ joint? You said that maybe this was a phased invasion of some sort, that maybe the maggies weren't around anymore because they were unnecessary. How long did you think about that?" MacHenry held up his hand. "Don't tell me. Because if you say that you'd thought of that back in the hotel, then I'm going to climb out of this truck and kill your cowardly ass. Had you given yourself the same fate as Lashawna and left us alone, then maybe my Gert would have lived."

"I…" What could he say? MacHenry was right. Buckley hung his head and took it.

"Look at you. Just like your comic book hero, The Thing. You’re willing to take everything and anything. You are the foundation." MacHenry shook his head violently. "And somehow…some-fucking-how you managed to hold us together and condemn us at the same time."

"MacHenry, I’m sorry."

"Stuff it. I don’t care about your feelings. I’m not going to give you the benefit of forgiveness. So, get out of the fucking truck. I’m gonna do what you should have done in the first place. It’s called sacrifice and it's the ultimate demonstration of love."

MacHenry turned the ignition and revved the engine.

Buckley climbed off the back of the truck and stood with the others. The truck lurched forward then stopped. MacHenry rolled down the driver's side window and stuck out his head. "You know, this has always been about love, not survival, Buckley Adamski. I think it’s kind of funny you never understood that."

Buckley stared back as MacHenry put the truck back in gear and shot forward. They all knew his goal. Shouting at the top of his lungs and honking the horn like a mad-man, MacHenry drove towards the Caddie.

Buckley turned to Little Rashad. "Come on, Kid. Let’s make MacHenry’s Charge of the Light Brigade worthwhile.

They angled off to the right. It would take them longer to get to the ocean, but their path would keep them safely away from the immense creature.

About halfway to the caddie, Travis MacHenry halted the truck in the middle of a field. He got out, holding his and Gert's backpacks. One-by-one he pulled out the remaining Carolina Cocktails, seven in all. Then without ceremony, he emptied the contents atop his head and tossed the empty containers into the open cab. Seeing this, the others couldn't help but stop and stare. As horrible as it might become, he'd been their friend and ally and deserved their attention.

Buckley stood with his hands in his pockets, head down, remembering back in that hotel room when Travis had first talked about his desire to flame on.

"I, Travis James MacHenry, am gonna go out with a bang. In fact, as soon as I finish the better part of this cigar and this rather lazy cognac, I'm gonna get dressed, comb my hair, walk in the kitchen, pour fucking turpentine over my head, open the door and use the last of my Robusto to Flame On.”

So many thoughts were going through Buckley's mind. He'd only wanted to help everyone, but was unable to shake the truth of his own cowardice. In the end, it seemed as if Travis had been the bravest of them all.