Elizabeth Massie - Naked, on the Edge

Jewel’s hands cup about the baby’s head.

“Now!” the mother barks into the rag. She bends at the waist, her face rising toward the midwife like a phantom in the shadowed room. Wet baby shoulders jump out. A rank, rich smell of blood and fluids hits Curry in the face. He gasps.

The mother twists herself back and forth, as if trying to shake the baby free. “Now!” she screams again, and the dishrag is spit into the air. She grunts hoarsely and slams her fists into the bulge of her belly.

The baby shoots out, red, gummy face squashed and silent. The midwife quickly folds it within a white scrap of flannel, then snips and ties the cord. The baby squeaks once, weakly. Jewel puts it onto the bed between the mother’s legs and leans over to press the mother’s stomach to help the afterbirth along. She begins to hum a Jesus song. Curry has heard his mother sing this song. She sings it when she is afraid. She sings it late at night when there is no wake and she knows Avery will come home to eat supper alone in the kitchen after everyone has gone to bed.

“Mama?” says Petrie. Her hands are clasped together as if she were trying to pray.

“It’s all done now, Petrie,” says the mother. She seems to sink into the mattress, her voice faint and small. She sighs and slowly licks her lips. It seems as if she is trying to lick away the spots of sunlight. “So what we got then?” she asks the midwife.

Jewel says, “Boy.”

There is a long silence. Curry tries to see the baby, but it is covered in the cloth. “A boy.” The mother’s words are soft now, the abating pain edged with wonder. “His name is Joel.”

“Joel,” says Petrie.

“Curry,” says the mother. “Is Avery outside?”

Curry’s mouth goes dry. He has to work his jaw in order to speak.

“I think he’s near the mailbox, Mama.” Curry’s father is the sineater; he knows when to be where he needs to be. About an hour ago, Curry had gone out to the porch with Petrie to bring in an armload of towels from the bench. Down in the deep shadows, something had moved. Something huge, thick, and dark.

The sineater.

“Call to him, then. Tell him it’s a boy.”

Curry’s heart tries to turn inside out. It scrapes against his ribs, and he digs his fingers against his chest through the thin cotton of his T-shirt. He doesn’t want to call out to the sineater. He didn’t know he was going to have to say something to the sineater. It is too dangerous.

“Curry, what’s matter with you? I say, go now.”

“Mama, I don’t want to,” Curry says. The family has little to do with the sineater. Curry, Petrie, and Lelia are to be asleep on nights when the sineater comes to eat his meal. The family is to be hiding in bedrooms, clinging to the blanket of night’s oblivion when Avery Barker has no wake to attend, and takes his midnight supper in the cabin’s small kitchen. Curry doesn’t want to call out to the sineater.

Petrie rubs her fist under her running nose.

The mother coughs. “Give me the baby,” she says to Jewel. “Give Joel to me.” And to Curry, “You hear me, boy?”

Curry watches as his mother puts the baby under her chin and strokes its ugly wrinkled face. The baby has dark hair like his mother. It is still for a moment then it flails its legs suddenly, loosening itself from the white flannel. It startles itself and begins to cry.

Petrie reaches out and touches the thin baby arm.

Curry’s teeth fight each other, making scraping noises in his ear.

Then he says, “Yes, Mama.”

Jewel draws herself up on the kerosene can and tucks her face down as if the sineater is going to come into the room with her. Curry grits his teeth, then goes out of the bedroom and down the short hall to the kitchen. Petrie’s baby kitten, found with its dead mother several weeks ago down by West Path when Curry went to look for may apples, lies in its wooden box near the stove.

Curry puts his hand on the door to pull it open. He does not want to call to the sineater. What if your voice carries your soul?

Mama would not ask him if it were dangerous. Mama knows what to do.

What if your soul comes out when you scream? What if it comes out and the sineater sucks it up?

Mama would not make him do something dangerous. He thinks for a second that Jewel Benshoff should have to call to Avery. Her soul didn’t matter as much as Curry’s, because he would have to be sineater when Avery died. Jewel is only a midwife.

Curry pulls the door open. He steps one step out onto the porch. He digs his fingers into his hurting chest, where his heart waits to see what he will do. He puts his other hand to his mouth. The fingers cup. He calls, “It’s a boy!”

The words fly down the stone walkway toward the trees and the mailbox and what hides in the seething summer shadows. He feels a hot wind whip back up the walkway, like a stinking, devil’s belch.

And before Curry can feel or hear more, he slams the door and throws himself against the safety of the sturdy wood, panting.

“You trust me, don’t you boy?”

Jesus , the boy thinks. She’s crazy. I knew it . He moves his head a little, and hears ringing in his skull. He thinks he is drugged, but his mind is too numb to decide.

“Don’t you, Burke?”

Faces shift behind the woman’s voice. A nameless Brother, a nameless Sister.

“Burke, if you don’t trust me, this will be in vain. I want to care for you. Your mama and daddy entrusted me to this. I promised I would do what was necessary. We’re of the same flesh…”

Burke tries to clear his throat. The sound burrs in his ears, a worthless distraction.

“…and the same spirit.”

Burke looks over the woman’s shoulders at the Sister and Brother.

Then he tries to focus again on his Aunt Missy. He does not understand her. He knows little of God except for what he has been told since he moved here. His own mama and daddy never spoke of God, so Burke does not know if they believed or not. Burke senses that there is indeed a peculiar love for him here. And yet, it bounces off him, reflected like a dull light from the mirror shard that is his heart. He had no love at his other home, and cannot fathom if what Aunt Missy offers now is good or bad.

“Listen to me, boy. Remember. Have you forgotten all I’ve told you?”

Burke shakes his head.

“What then? Tell me.”

Burke blinks and tries his mouth. His tongue is fat and dead. He cannot make words come out.

“It’s the evil come home to us here in Beacon Cove, Burke. Those what live here are trampling on our holy traditions. They chew them up and spit them into the mouth of Satan. Now Satan’s mouth is waiting to have us.”

Burke’s gaze moves from Aunt Missy to the wrapped bundle she holds to her like a dead newborn. He knows what is in the bundle. He tries to lick his lips, but whatever is in his veins will not let him.

“You got to see it, Burke. You got to know what is out there, and what you must be vigilant against so you’re safe.”

Burke nods faintly. There is rampant sin, Missy has told him. It is settling and growing thick like sludge on a boiling pot. Many will suffer the sin. Many will be crushed under its weight. But those of the light will be spared.

Those with the sign of the Light. The mark of God.

No, Burke has not forgotten what he’s been told. And now, Aunt Missy’s hand is outstretched, offering to hold him above the sin around him. She is crazy for what she is about to do, she has scared him, and she loves him. Burke cannot make his hand move to hers.

“Burke,” says Aunt Missy. Burke cannot answer. “Repeat me, boy.”