Caitlin Kittredge - Bone Gods

Jack would have known exactly what type of spell Carver’s murderer had woven around him. He could see the fabric of spells, as clearly as Pete could see the dead man himself. Jack could have told Ollie what breed of sorcerer had cast the abominable thing, and likely what sort of biscuits he fancied and what pub you could find the bastard in. Jack had a sight that most people never opened their eyes to, least of all those with a talent as prodigious as his. Being magically and psychically inclined left you with roughly the same brain chemistry as a schizophrenic enjoying the world’s most realistic acid trip. Jack kept himself together better than most, but seeing everything was far more than anyone could accept. There had been the drugs, the year-long blackouts, the suicide attempts, and the associated symptoms any normal person would tell Pete she was well rid of.

She couldn’t argue, and she couldn’t force herself to see things her mind simply wouldn’t wrap around the same way Jack’s did. She could only observe, and record, and try to solve her side of the mystery the old-fashioned way, with skills she’d learned at the Yard rather than from her talent.

Her talent didn’t lend itself to exposing black magic, to fighting monsters and seeing ghosts. She was only a vessel for talent far greater than her own, like a transformer on a wire.

She backed away as the medical examiner’s team, fortified against the markings on Carver now that Pete had gotten close and not burst into flame, laid down a body bag next to the dead man and prepared to roll him into it. Pete was done with Carver, and done with the knocking of his mutilated corpse against her psychic senses. She needed to be outside, away from the site of Carver’s murder and the older, darker magic of the artifacts at rest around her. It was warm and amber, scented like honey, seductive as a warm pool of water that invited her to slip under and forget.…

Pete nearly knocked into a uniformed plod before she managed to exit the museum by the service entrance, where her red Mini Cooper was parked behind a phalanx of Met vehicles, Ollie’s nondescript Vauxhall, and Nasiri’s van.

She got in and turned the arthritic engine over—the car was older than she by an order of a decade. Her mum had left it behind when she’d done a runner, and Pete had been driving it since she’d convinced her da, DI Caldecott the elder, she was to be trusted with the keys. Mistakenly, of course—she’d used it to go tooling around country roads during weekends at university, and still had a sheaf of speeding tickets from local police she’d never told him about.

Too late now. Connor Caldecott was in the ground, just like Gerard Carver shortly would be. Just like …

Pete shut the engine off again and closed her eyes. She couldn’t cry here. Not where the uniforms, Ollie, even that bloody scrubbed-faced McCorkle could see.

Her tears didn’t care, and they still squeezed down her face. Pete had never believed that crying did a bit of good other than to waste time and give her bags under her eyes, but lately the tears had simply come, like blood comes when you slice skin with a blade.

Being on a consulting job, with magic flowing close to the surface in a way that it hadn’t in months, not since Jack had disappeared, was too hard. She should have been smart enough to realize she wasn’t ready for the feeling. Should have waited, until his disappearance was less raw.…

Except he didn’t disappear, did he? Didn’t pop out for fags and not come back. You know exactly where he went. Jack was gone, but it wasn’t as if he’d slipped away in the middle of the night.

And she had to stop expecting him to appear and solve every problem, furnish every solution she didn’t have herself, work over every job that she couldn’t finish on her own. She’d thrown herself into this shadow-life, where magic was real and you saw waking nightmares every day. She’d made the choice. With or without Jack, it was done.

She had to stop looking for him, and she had to stop seeing him. Had to get a grip on herself and make the empty spots inside stop stinging whenever she saw a familiar silhouette or heard the broad tone of a Manchester accent.

Had to face the truth.

She couldn’t go to him when things got too hard.

Because Jack was in Hell, and he wasn’t coming back.

People who didn’t feel and taste the ley lines of power running through it didn’t realize London was a city of tides. The Thames Estuary swept seawater in and out, back and forth along the embankments and bridge pilings and bricked-over, secret places beneath the city. Underground rivers trickled through ancient waterways, and Joseph Bazalgette’s Victorian marvel of modern sewage still crawled underfoot, sharing space with everything from medieval crypts to secret Cabinet rooms and bomb shelters from the Great War.

Beneath everything, the Black rose and fell the same way, ebbed and flowed against Pete’s mind while she drove east, the current of life force as old as the first bricks the Romans had laid down in the city walls. Older. Older than brick, older than blood spilled upon this patch of ground just inland where the Thames finally turned calm. Old as earth.

But not of it.

At the places of low tide, the Black and the waking world sometimes intersected, creating spots where if you turned your head just right you’d swear you saw a thin alley, an iron gate, or a shadowed doorway out of the corner of your eye, a thing that vanished when you looked straight on.

Jack had showed Pete that such places existed, but he hadn’t been particularly strict as to how one found them. She’d spent a memorable three hours wandering up and down Covent Garden in the rain, trying to find the break she knew was there. Magic vibrated on a frequency just like sight or heat or sound; it just wasn’t a station most human receivers could tune in. Pete had heard all of the theories: magic was just another notch on the spectrum, beyond infrared and under ultraviolet. Ghosts were just electrons. Demons were just quantum disturbances that molded themselves into flesh.

That was where it fell down for her. Demons were real. She’d met a demon in its borrowed flesh and stood close enough to feel his hot, sour breath on her face.

She’d looked the demon in the eye before he’d taken Jack’s soul, ripped it free of his body, and crawled with it in his teeth, straight back to Hell.

She found parking in Limehouse, and reluctantly left the Mini. Nobody drove in the city if they could help it, but Pete enjoyed it, being encapsulated in her own small world, with only shifting gears and red lights to mind, at least until she got where she was going.

The thin space called, even if she would have rather kept driving, straight out of London, onto the M-25, east until she got to the edge of the country at Dover. The Black couldn’t be left behind, though. It simply was, and once you’d seen it, you couldn’t look away.

Pete stepped into a gap between a newsagent’s and a pizza shop, and emerged into a Victorian street. In London, mid-morning approached, but here there was soft, fog-draped night. Gaslamps lit the way to the red door of a pub, through which drifted music and the occasional bout of laughter that dopplered from the brick row houses across the cobbles and back to her.

A black carriage thundered past, four horses with steam for breath and glowing red coals for eyes towing it on clockwork legs. The citizens of the carriage hid behind a red curtain, but Pete tasted black smoke on the back of her tongue as it passed, the taste of sorcery. She flipped the retreating end of the carriage the bird. Hadn’t she had enough of fucking black magic for one day?