Thomas Sniegoski: A Hundred Words for Hate

“That would be wonderful!” She stopped petting Miles and held him firmly. “Now, you be sure to close that door quick,” she ordered Remy. “My little friend here is dying to get outside, but I’m afraid the world is just a little too tough for Miles.”

“ Out ,” Miles meowed, trying to jump from Fernita’s lap.

Remy hurried out the door.

“You take care,” he called to her, closing the door gently behind him before the cat could escape into the cold, cruel world.

The Seraphim was confused.

The angelic nature could sense his master’s distress, and waited for the inevitable release.

And waited . . . and waited some more . . .

He longed to be free; to spread his golden wings . . . to wield the fires of Heaven once more.

To reduce his enemies to smoldering ash.

But the loosing did not come.

So the Seraphim waited, and waited some more.

Forever patient.

Remy breathed in sharply through his nose, and exhaled through his mouth. He was standing in front of the mirror in his bedroom, gazing at his reflection and feeling the pressure.

He would rather have been doing just about anything other than what he was about to do this night. Briefly he wondered what the Black Choir was up to, and how hard it would be to attract their attention.

The Seraphim churning inside him would surely appreciate that.

He was wearing a tie, and wasn’t sure if he liked the look.

“What do you think?” he asked, shifting his gaze slightly to look at the reflection of the black Labrador retriever sitting sphinxlike on the bed behind him. “Tie or no tie?”

“ Tie!” Marlowe barked.

“What do you know?” Remy asked.

“ Know lot ,” Marlowe responded indignantly.

“You think?” Remy reached up to tighten the knot on the blueand-red silk tie. “Worn a lot of ties, have you?”

Marlowe remained silent, watching his master.

Remy laughed as he turned from the mirror to face the dog on the bed.

“Honestly, do I look all right?”

The dog just stared, droplets of drool leaking from his loosely hanging jowls and staining the bedspread.

“Your silence speaks volumes.” Remy moved to the bed to ruffle the black dog’s velvety soft ears and kiss the top of his hard, blocky head. “I’ve got to get going,” he said, feeling a lead ball form heavily in the pit of his stomach.

He turned to leave the bedroom, and heard the familiar thud as the dog leapt to the floor to follow.

“ Out?” Marlowe asked, looking up from Remy’s side.

“I am, but you’re not,” Remy told the animal as they started down the stairs.

He’d been dreading this night since he’d planned it a little more than a week ago. Every day since he’d tortured himself with the question of why he had done it, swearing he would cancel.

But he never did, and now it was too late.

“ Why? ” Marlowe asked, having already forgotten what they’d discussed earlier in the day.

“Because I have to go someplace where they don’t allow dogs,” Remy explained, going to the hallway closet for his heavy jacket. “I know it’s hard to believe that there are actually places in this city that won’t welcome your smiling face, but it’s true.”

The dog plopped heavily onto the living room carpet just inside the doorway.

“ Work?” he asked, tilting his triangular head quizzically.

“I wish it was,” Remy answered with a sigh, slipping into the leather coat. “But no.”

He’d debated for weeks and then made the call in a moment of weakness. He’d finished watching Streisand and Redford in The Way We Were , and blamed the film for lowering his resistance.

Remy went to the kitchen, took a Red Delicious apple from the bowl on the counter, and cut it into pieces.

“This should hold you until I get back,” he told the black dog, as he returned to the living room and dropped the pile of chopped apple on the rug in front of him. “I shouldn’t be too late.”

The dog didn’t seem to notice him anymore, scarfing down the apple as if he hadn’t been fed in days.

Remy said good-bye again, and left the house.

The Seraphim nature stirred within as it sensed his anxiety.

If only the current situation could be resolved by unleashing the heavenly might of his angelic essence, it would be one of the few times he wouldn’t regret the loss of control.

But this wasn’t the time for an angel’s rage, for beating wings and flaming swords.

It was freezing outside—typical January weather for Boston, but Remy paid the harsh temperatures no mind. He had other things to think about as he walked to his car and drove the few blocks to Boylston Street.

Everybody had told him he was doing the right thing . . . well, everybody meaning Steven Mulvehill, homicide cop and Remy’s closest human friend.

Madeline had been Remy’s anchor in this human world, and so much more, but it was nearly a year since her death now, and he’d had no one in his life since. Mulvehill argued that this was causing his friend to disconnect from the humanity Remy had worked so hard to create.

Remy’s true nature surged with the thought. He was, after all, a creature of Heaven . . . a warrior angel . . . a Seraphim . . . but Remiel—as he had once been called—had grown tired of the fighting, and the war, and the death, and he had left the Kingdom of God, heading to the world of man to find an easier life.

A happier life.

A human life.

And after a few thousand years, give or take, Remiel had found just that as he made the Earth his home. He’d chosen the name Remy Chandler, and started his work as a private investigator, and suddenly it had all fallen into place.

That was when a beautiful woman had applied for a job as his office secretary, and suddenly he wasn’t pretending to be human anymore.

He was human.

The love of her—of Madeline—had transformed him into so much more than what he had been.

He wished more than anything that their love could have gone on forever, but the Lord God had seen fit to make His most favored creations mortal; a very sad flaw in the Creator’s design, Remy believed.

So Madeline was gone now, taken by cancer and age, and he was left alone to grieve for his beautiful wife, and his slowly faltering humanity.

It had been so much easier being a thing of Heaven, serving the Almighty with nary a question. And the business of being human? That was truly a chore, but despite the confusion and pain, it was something Remy was desperate to hold on to.

That was what brought him out here on this cold January night. It was all about his need to connect again. To find that special thing . . . that special someone to tie him to the world of man, and keep his eyes from straying to the heavens.

The power inside him would return to its master in an instant, but Remiel . . . Remy had seen far too much as a soldier of God and preferred the grimy city streets of Earth to the golden spires of Heaven.

Remy handed off his keys to the valet in front of Mistral and headed toward the restaurant. As he reached for the brass handle on the door, he felt as if the world were dropping away from beneath his feet, and he tried to recall whether he had felt this anxious when stepping through the passage to the Hell prison of Tartarus.

He didn’t think so.

He took a deep breath and stepped into the lobby, unzipping his leather jacket as he scanned the dining room.

“Hi, may I help you?” asked an attractive woman with long blond hair and a radiant smile.

Remy returned the smile. “I have a reservation for Chandler,” he said, not seeing his date.

The woman studied the open book on the podium. “Yes, sir, seven fifteen, for two,” she said, looking up at him. “The other member of your party hasn’t checked in yet. If you’d like to wait in the bar, and I’ll call you as soon as . . .”