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“Call it,” Ratha said again. “Call … her.”

“Too frightened. Don’t want it.” Thistle’s voice was starting to become high and panicky.

“What happens when the Dreambiter comes?” Ratha asked gently.

“Hurts. Has to hurt.”

“What if it didn’t hurt?”

“Has to hurt. Is what Dreambiter is for. Has to hurt. If not me, then …”

“Then what, Thistle?”

“Then … others.”

“Who?”

“Mishanti. Thakur. Fessran.” Thistle paused. “You,” she whispered in a tight voice.

“If the Dreambiter is inside, how can it come out and hurt others?” Ratha asked.

“Takes my claws, my teeth. My … cleverness too. Could kill,” Thistle added.

The cold flatness of her voice made Ratha shiver. The implied threat was not empty. Ratha remembered her struggle with a maddened Thistle-chaser on the wave-washed rocks. Her daughter had come frighteningly close to killing her.

Thistle moaned, and the green swirling in her eyes expanded.“It … coming.” Her limbs started to jerk and twitch as if she were trying to run away.

“Call to the Dreambiter,” Ratha urged, following an impulse she didn’t understand.

“Coming anyway; why call?”

“Call it to you. Call … her.”

“Might come out… try to hurt.”

Ratha suppressed a shiver.“Call her anyway.”

Thistle closed her eyes, lifted her muzzle, spoke in a quaver.“Dreambiter, come. Tired of waiting, tired of fearing.”

“Good. More,” Ratha coaxed.

“Come to me, fire-eyes. No more hiding. Biting… not the worst part.”

“What is the worst part, Thistle?”

“Knowing who you are, Dreambiter.”

The answer startled Ratha. For an instant she thought her daughter was deliberately provoking her, then she realized that she had somehow become the apparition’s voice. Again she rebelled, angered and grieved that Thistle could not get beyond that image. But this time she refused to give in to the anger.

Knowing who you are. Wandering alone in the caverns, fire blazing in my eyes. Oh, how I wanted to love you when you were young, Thistle, but I thought you would never speak, would never know me, would never be able to love in the way the Named do.

“Call me, Thistle,” she whispered, her throat dry.

“Call hurting part? Part that would bite and burn?”

“Call me,” Ratha said. “And tame me.”

“Can’t.”

“Yes, you can. Tell me you are not afraid. Tell me you are stronger than I am.”

Thistle had been starting to crumple again, curling inward. Now she shoved both forepaws ahead of her, as if propping herself up.

“Am stronger than you, Dreambiter.”

“You won’t let me out. You won’t let me hurt.”

“No. Come, Dreambiter.”

“I am coming,” Ratha said softly, watching Thistle. She could almost imagine herself in the shape and form of the dream image, pacing through the caverns toward a distant shape.

I want… so much. That is why it hurts.

Come to me, terrifying one, beloved one. I hear Thistle call. Come even if you rend me. You are a part of me even as I am of you. One flesh, one lineage… one pain.

The Dreambiter hurts, too.

“I need you,” Thistle said.

“I am coming. But I do not know what I will do when I reach you.”

In a dreamy but intense voice, Thistle spoke, her face rapt.“See you now. Your coat… black, eyes orange. You… more powerful than ever but now you are beautiful. You leap….”

Thistle broke off with a gasp and a violent jerk. Ratha feared she was going into one of her fits, but she seemed to recover herself and went on.

“Leaped right at me as if … going to attack. Landed on me, but did not weigh me down. Instead… soaking into me … like drop of water falling on my coat.”

Thistle shook her head. She had lost the entranced look and had come outside herself. And she stared at Ratha in perplexity.

“What happened?” Ratha asked.

“Not know, exactly. Except that it … wasn’t bad. Was afraid, then … everything changed.”

“You didn’t go into a fit this time. Does that mean that the Dreambiter is … gone?” Ratha asked hopefully.

“No, not gone,” Thistle said, looking thoughtful. “But somehow… changed.” Her jaws gaped in a sudden yawn.

“Well, I think we’ve gotten somewhere,” said Thakur. “I’m not sure exactly where, but perhaps things will sort themselves out.” He got up, stretched until his tail quivered.

“So sleepy,” Thistle mumbled. “Don’t know why.”

Ratha nudged Thistle so that her drooping head lay against Ratha’s belly. The rest of her curled up in the circle of Ratha’s limbs, and soon her sides began rising and falling in a long, regular rhythm.

“I was going to ask you if you wanted to take a walk, clan leader,” Thakur said, “but I guess you won’t be able to.”

“No,” said Ratha, gazing down at the sleeping Thistle and thinking of what she had looked like as a nursling. “I won’t be able to go. But I don’t mind. Even if she snores a little. Isn’t that funny?”

“Dreambiters can be comfortable to sleep on,” said Thakur, and walked off, swinging his tail.

Ratha was surprised when Thakur told her later the same day that Thistle’s struggles with the Dreambiter were far from ended. Yes, they had made a beginning, and a good one, but nightmares that had been building for a lifetime would not be banished by a single healing encounter.

She began to see the truth of his warning that evening as she watched Thistle make her strange inward journeys, her eyes lit by firelight, seeking a trancelike state that would let her“ speak” to the hunters and hear their guiding song.

Sometimes the inward path was clear; more often the Dreambiter lurked and Thistle had to fight her way past. The only evidence of the struggle was the language of Thistle’s body and the words she spoke. At times her speech was more eloquent than Ratha thought her capable of. At other times the words were so broken and tumbled that even Thakur, with all his patience and insight, could make little of them.

Yet something had changed. No longer was Thistle a helpless victim, fleeing from the apparition every time it struck. Now the contest was more even, and an attempted trance did not have to end in a fit.

Even so, Ratha did not expect to hear Thistle say that she was ready to try again to speak to the hunters. It was the following evening, and the Named crouched around the fire that Bira tended.

“It has only been two days,” Ratha said, startled herself at how short the time had been. To try to talk to the hunters before the Dreambiter had been completely mastered seemed to be inviting disaster. “I know I am the impatient one,” she admitted. “But maybe it would be better to give yourself a few more days, Thistle. ”

“Won’t help,” Thistle said bluntly. “Have gone as far as possible alone or with you and Thakur. Need the hunters. Before they and the face-tailed animals go away. ”

“Go away?” Ratha asked, puzzled.

“Sense a stirring. Hunters and prey. Moving. Long ways.”

“How do you know?”

“Feel it. In the song.”

“I think she’s right, Ratha,” said Thakur, who was lying on the other side of her. He looked to Khushi. “You’ve been keeping watch on the face-tail herd. Didn’t you tell me that the beasts might be preparing to migrate?”

“Yes. They seem restless,” the scout replied.

“Hunters will follow,” Thistle added.

“You are sure that it is not just the hunters who plan to go?” Ratha said, thinking that if the other group would disappear and leave the face-tail herd, the Named could take an animal without interference.