Клэр Белл - The Named - The Complete Series

Thakur answered,“No. Mine can’t. Nor Khushi’s. Judging from the way the hunters spoke, they don’t listen with their ears. I think they hear it inside their heads. Thistle, you have said things to me that sound as though you can also hear things inside your head.”

Thistle felt awkward, though grateful that he had not spoken directly of the Dreambiter. She was not sure how much Khushi or Bira knew about the strange fits that fell on her.

“Yes,” she said slowly. “Sometimes I do. Sometimes frightening things, sometimes good things. Not hearing them as much now as I used to. Talking… takes them away. When I change the way I think, sometimes they come back.”

“Can you still do that? Change the way you think?”

“Not easy. Speaking with you and others — that is easier thing now.”

“Would you be able to go back into your old ways if I asked?”

I risk the Dreambiter, Thistle thought, but quickly forced the fear aside.

“Yes,” she said, looking straight at him. The look he gave her in return made her feel brave and proud, despite her fear.

Bira asked Thakur a question.“Are you thinking that Thistle can hear the same ‘song’ as the hunters can? That seems to be expecting a lot.”

“Maybe it is,” Thakur admitted.

Something made Thistle look at her mother, who was grimacing.

“I must be getting stupid,” Ratha growled. “I don’t understand any of this. Like trying to pick up water in your paw — it’s all running through.”

“None of us really understand it,” said Thakur. “We’re just feeling our way with our whiskers.”

And I am, too,thought Thistle,even if I can hear things inside my head.

Ratha got up and stretched.“I may not understand it, but I trust you, Thakur. When do you want to make the attempt?”

“This afternoon. The hunters made a kill this morning. I found it best to approach them after they’ve eaten and are lazing around.”

“All right. I’ll hide and watch. I want to see what happens. Both of you be careful,” she added as Thistle tried to evade her mother’s meaningful glance.

Will try to do what you want. Hard to do things, though. Especially when they are for you.

The Dreambiter was prowling. Thistle felt it as she followed Thakur. The herding teacher was taking her to the new clan-cats he had found — the ones he hoped would be enough like the Named to perhaps form an allied clan. Her mother hoped so, too, perhaps even more than Thakur. Thistle could almost feel the intensity of Ratha’s longing and the bleakness of a possible disappointment. Her mother didn’t want the Named to be all alone in their world.

The load of hopes was heavy — a hard burden to lay on the back of one who could barely carry her own hopes and griefs, Thistle thought.

Thakur had not asked her to put away her“ I-ness,” her own sense of identity, but it had fled anyway, swept out by the white mist that now seemed to surround her, containing the small clear area that she walked in and the hard beating of her heart.

He seemed to know what state she was in, and guided her carefully. Down the knoll and into the marshy valley, then up toward the head of the valley, where the wind brought the smell of face-tails and the ones who hunted them.

But Thakur had to tell her all this because the mist was so thick that she could not see very far beyond herself. She could not look over the vast expanse of waving grass and the clear sky she knew was above.

She wondered if she had gone deep enough into the mist. But she knew she could go no deeper, for the Dreambiter was prowling, and if she went in farther, she would meet the terror and fall helplessly on her side.

Should I tell Thakur that the Dreambiter stalks?

No. She could not bear to disappoint him. Or Ratha either.

So she walked inside her own circle in the swirl of white until Thakur’s voice told her to stop — they were there.

“Thistle,” she heard him say, as if from a distance, “are you ready?”

Her tongue felt strange in her mouth and she had to twist the words from it.“Can’t see them, Thakur.”

“Over there,” he said softly, and his voice was closer, lifting the haze before her eyes. She felt him nudge her muzzle, pointing her head in the right direction. She fought for command of her tongue and voice, for it was that which made the mist thin. With the struggle, the white opacity fadedslightly and she saw many cat forms, sitting, lying, or pacing across the open ground.

Thakur’s voice was in her ear again. “We will act as though you are one of theirs, lost. I am returning you.” He paused. “I may have to back off, since they may remember me. But don’t be afraid. I won’t leave you. And Bira and Ratha and Khushi are nearby.”

Nearby. With the Red Tongue to sear and punish these strangers should they not understand and try to hurt. Their hopes are on… me… to make the others understand.

Thakur moved forward. She followed. She did as he said and rolled where he told her to. Immersed in the smell of face-tail as well as the swirl of her own confusion, she walked with him to meet the hunters.

In the caverns the Dreambiter prowled.

The cat shapes rose up like shadows in the haze that hung around Thistle. Only the glare of the strangers’ eyes gave color to their forms. These were the hunters, the ones whose trail she was to try to follow.

White on gray; the flash of teeth, the red-pink of a tongue. Thakur alongside, his body against her, trying to control his trembling because the other clan knew him from before and he was frightened. She heard the gruffness of their voices, the resolute yet quavering sound of his in reply, giving the tale he had made up.

“Yours … lost… found and brought back,” she heard him say, but he sounded very distant, as if someone had thrown him across the sky.

“That one,” came a voice, deep with growling suspicion. Thistle tried to quiet the alarm that went through her. They were speaking about Thakur, not to him. Another voice, its tones harsh, joined the first. “That one with ears that don’t work. True-of-voice does not know him.”

“A lost one is found,” she heard Thakur try again. “In the marshes. Take her back.”

The eyes, in all their colors, were turning to Thistle.“A lost one? There are no lost ones if the song is heard.”

The eyes were waiting. Thistle felt lost, for there was no song in her head. Nothing but the hollow whisper of a wind through caverns where the Dreambiter stood, no longer prowling, but waiting.

The words were wrapped on her tongue, struggling to come loose. The song is heard, she wanted to say, but the lie could not get free.

And then, deep inside, she heard the echo of something she had never heard before. Not a Named song, not like the sound clan members made, but a thread of something mystical, lyrical. It was without words, yet it had an eloquence that she knew would overwhelm her if she heard its full power.

This was what they called“ the song.”

She went breathless with the distant beauty of it and longed to rush headlong into the deepest caverns where the source lay. She suddenly wanted, more than anything in the world, to hear the full voice, to bathe herself in it and let it soothe her spirit as the ocean did her body.

A touch on her nose brought her out of herself. It was a male, but not Thakur. The Other One’s whiskers brushed hers; his breath went into her mouth; his eyes shone, waiting.

“It is heard,” he said, his voice rich, deep, rolling like the swells of the sea.

“The song,” she said, knowing that what he meant was that distant, compelling whisper, so faint she feared she might lose it. “So soft, so hard to hear …”