Клэр Белл - The Named - The Complete Series

Thakur found the lame female waiting where he had left her. Though she cast a hungry look down the trail, he was relieved to see that she did not go after his hidden treeling. The seamare dung was as pungent as ever, lying in a heap at his feet. He hoped she might have forgotten, but she hadn’t. He rolled.

He had assumed that the seamares ate sea grass or other plant fodder, like the herdbeasts he knew. The smell of the manure told him that the creatures had a much more varied diet, possibly including flesh or fish. Herdbeast dung was not repellent to him, but that of meat eaters other than his own kind carried a disgusting tang. He had to force himself to cover his coat with the seamare smell, wondering how he was ever going to clean up before he recovered Aree. And if he met any of the Named while wearing such a wretched odor… well, he decided not to think about that.

The female took one sniff and then led him to a group of seamares. He kept as close to her as he dared and tried to put his feet down silently. The seamares lay looking like logs washed ashore, but as he approached, ears twitched and heads lifted. The small eyes seemed to grow colder, and the tusks Thakur had glimpsed from a distance seemed larger. He told himself that one who challenged three-horns should have no fear of these clumsy wave-wallowers. But he was grateful for the odor that hung about him and disguised his smell.

The change in odor seemed to put the lame female more at ease, and he remembered how his scent-mark had triggered her first fit.

Thakur followed his companion as she limped close to one seamare, who lay at the edge of the herd with a half-grown youngster. With his odd friend standing nearby, he could walk close to the pair and examine them.

Ratha’s description of these animals as “duck-footed dapplebacks” wasn’t that far off, he decided. Their stout, black toes had scaled skin and a fold of webbing between them. Their bodies looked much the same as those of dapplebacks’, although broader and chunkier. The seamares’ coats were dense and velvety.

Thakur was startled to see the mother seamare take a large clam from a heap she had gathered, crack the shell, and deliberately lay it aside. With a glance at Thakur, the lame female set about prying the meat out of the mollusk with her good forepaw and her teeth. He thought she would eat it all, but halfway through she lifted her head and stared at him, then brought him a fragment of shell with meat still attached.

He did his best to rasp off the rubbery clam flesh and gulp it down, though it made a wad in his throat that threatened to choke him. He felt he could tolerate it, though he was grateful she didn’t offer him any more. She watched him while he ate, and he in turn tried to read those odd opaque eyes.

As he trailed her among the seamares for the rest of the day, he became more and more convinced that the dullness she showed was only on the surface. Beneath lay a sharp and perceptive intelligence, though one that worked in a very different way than his own.

The question of her apparent muteness rose again in his mind. It wasn’t that she could not make sounds, for he heard her use a wide variety of vocalizations. And her tongue could form words; he had heard her speak as clearly as one of the Named.

And when he spoke, as he did once in a while to himself, her reaction was more than just irritation or annoyance. Even as she turned her back on his words, he caught a look of longing in her eyes and a movement of her jaws that halted abruptly, as if she had caught herself trying to imitate him. Thakur noticed this but did nothing about it. He was unsure what he could do and was too taken up with studying the seamares to devote much thought to it.

After he had been on the beach for several days and had satisfied much of his curiosity about the wave-wallowers themselves, he turned his attention to the one who guarded them.

He spoke, as if muttering to himself, but this time he watched his strange friend, not letting her see his scrutiny. A fleeting look of something akin to despair passed through her eyes.

“You want to speak,” said Thakur, talking to her directly. “Why don’t you try?”

He said his name, trying to get her to repeat it, but she only ducked her head and would not meet his gaze.

“When you fell on your side that day I came, you spoke. Don’t you remember? Or were you just making sounds that had no meaning for you?”

She crouched, looking away, but he could tell by the way her ears swiveled that she was listening. Her tail tip trembled and began to wag in confusion.

“You are Named. I know you are.” The fierce conviction in his voice frightened Newt. Her ears twitched back, and the green in her eyes became turbulent, cutting off any sight he might have glimpsed of their depths. He softened his tone, knowing it was useless to force her.

She stared up at him from her crouch, and a pleading look came into her eyes. Again her mouth opened, her tongue writhed, but no sound emerged. Her eyes grew shuttered as she closed her mouth, but there was a spark of pain in them sharp enough to penetrate the dullness of her gaze. Thakur wondered if his efforts were adding to her inner torment.

He could only fall silent once again, wondering if he would ever reach her.

To lessen the disturbance that arose in his new friend whenever he spoke in the tongue of his people, Thakur tried to use only the instinctive cat-noises and body language of his kind. In gesture he had to be careful too, for the Named had overlaid their natural movements and signals with ones that had added meaning. If he strayed over the boundary, he confused his new companion. Clan language in all its forms had obviously been denied to her, yet he could see she hungered for some means of expression. She was not so much mute as she was trapped, caught between a desperate desire to have language and something that frightened her away from it.

His intuition urged him to speak to her and coax her to respond, as if she were one whose speech had been halted by sickness or the forgetfulness of age. When he saw the panic that started up in her eyes whenever he spoke, he knew it wouldn’t work; she was too frightened.

And so for her sake, he too became mute, suppressing his impulses to talk whenever he was with her. It was a strange and difficult thing for him to do. The unsaid words seemed to lie in his breast with a leaden weight, pulling him down. After a day or so of self-enforced silence, his mind rebelled, harassing him with arguments against his choice. When his jaw remained shut, it punished him with a strange weariness that left him feeling dull and draggy. The sound of the wind was muffled and distant, as if his ears were stuffed with fur. He fought to keep himself from falling into a trancelike state.

His only respite was when he retreated from the beach to find Aree in whatever tree he had perched her and take her on his back to forage. Her chirrs and chattering removed the barrier his will had set up, and he talked to her in a gush of words like a dammed stream suddenly freed to flow again. But once she had been installed for the day in her refuge, Thakur resumed his silence.

Just when he felt he wouldhave to say something aloud, the muffled, distanced feeling retreated and he found himself hearing, seeing, and smelling the world about him with a new sharpness and clarity. The pressure to speak his thoughts was no longer so overwhelming. He felt more“ outside” himself than he had ever done, more a part of the world and aware of it.

He began to sense that the gift of language was not entirely a gift, that it took something in return as payment. Words and thoughts controlled the way he saw things, coloring his actions and feelings at the price of raw clarity and the intensity of the moment. Was this the way those whom the clan called the Un-Named saw and felt? And the lame female? Did those eyes that looked so dull at times actually look out upon the world with a perception perhaps narrowed, but much keener than his own?