Stephen Lawhead - Tuck

Here, at the edge of the great wood that formed the boundary of the March, the land fell away to the south in gentle, sloping runs of low, grassy hills and wooded valleys-the land of her home. As she gazed out upon it now, Merian was lifted up and swept away on wave after wave of guilt: it was so close! And all this time it had been awaiting her return-her family had been awaiting her return.

Stepping from the forest, she started down the broad face of a long hill towards the small, winding track she knew would lead her home-the same track Bran had used so often in the past when he came calling, usually in the dead of night. The thought sent another pang through her. Why, oh why, had she never tried to get home sooner?

It was no good telling herself that she had been taken prisoner and held against her will. That had been true for only the first few moments of her captivity. Events had proven Bran right: Baron Neufmarche was a sly, deceitful enemy, and no friend of hers or her family's. He had shown neither qualm nor hesitation in sending men to kill them following their escape. Once she understood that, she had stopped trying to get away. In fact, she had been more than content to remain at Bran's side in his struggle to save Elfael. And after that first season, the greenwood had become her home, and truth be told, she had rarely spared a passing thought for Eiwas or her family since.

The reason was, she decided, because in her heart of hearts she knew there was nothing waiting for her at Caer Rhodl except marriage-most likely to an insufferable Ffreinc nobleman of her father's choosing in order to advance her family's fortunes and keep the cantref safe. As true as that may have been, it was still only part of the tale. Partly, too, her lack of interest in returning home was due to the fact that in the months following her abduction she had become a trusted member of King Raven's council. In Cel Craidd she was honoured and her presence esteemed by all, and not merely some chattel to be packed off to the first Norman with a title that her father deemed advantageous to befriend. Merian did not mean to condemn her father, but in the precarious world her family inhabited that was the way things were.

In short, with Bran she had a place-a place where she was needed, valued, and loved, a place she did not have without him. And that, more than anything else, had prevented her from leaving.

Now Bran needed her more than ever, if he only knew it. Stubborn as an old plough horse, Bran had refused to even consider asking her father for aid. They needed warriors; Lord Cadwgan had them. The solution was simple, and Merian was not so childish as to allow anything so inconsequential as stubbornness or pride or a misplaced sense of honour to stand in the way of obtaining the aid her people so desperately needed.

Oh, there was a question: when, exactly, had she begun thinking of them as her people?

Merian continued along the well-trod trail, her mind ranging far and wide as her mount carried her unerringly home. Once she passed a farmer and his wife working in a turnip field; they exchanged greetings, but she did not turn aside to talk to them. In fact, she stopped only once for a short rest in a little shady nook beside the road; she watered the horse, then drank some herself, and splashed some water on her face before moving on again. The sun quartered the sky, eventually beginning its long descent.

The sun was well down and the first stars were alight in the east when Merian came in sight of Caer Rhodl. The old fortress with its timber walls stood tall and upright on the hill, the little wooden church quiet in the valley below. The place breathed an air of peace and contentment. In fact, nothing about the settlement had changed that she could see. Everything was still just the same as she remembered it.

This thought gave her heart a lift as she hurried on, reaching the long ramp leading to the gate, which stood open as if awaiting her arrival. A few more quick steps brought her through the gate and into the yard, where Merian paused to look around.

Across the way, two grooms were leading horses to the stables; the horses were lathered, lately ridden-and at some distance and speed. Odd, she had not seen them on the road.

And then she saw Garran, her brother. Merian had only the briefest glimpse of him as he disappeared through the entrance to the hall, but she thought he was in the company of a young woman. With a shout, she called his name and started across the yard. Three men and several women stood talking near the kitchen; they turned at Merian's cry and saw a dark-haired young woman in a long dark gown flitting across the yard.

"Here! You!" shouted one of the men, moving forward. "Stop!"

When Merian gave no sign that she had heard him, he cried out again, and moved to catch her before she reached the hall.

"Here, now!" he called, stepping into her path. "Where might you be going, young miss?"

So intent was she that it was not until the man took hold of her arm that she noticed him. "What?" she said. Feeling the man's hand tighten around her arm, she tried to pull away. "Let me go!" Looking towards the door to the hall, she cried, "Garran! Garran, it's me!"

"Be still," said the man, pulling her back. "You just stop that now. We're going to have a talk."

"Let me go!" She turned to face her captor, and recognized him as one of her father's men. "Luc?"

"Here, now," he said, his eyes narrowing in suspicion. "How do you know my name?"

"Luc, it's Merian," she said. "Merian-do you not know me?"

A figure appeared in the doorway behind Luc. "What's this?"

Merian's gaze shifted to the hall entrance. "Garran!"

"I warned you," said her father's man, pulling her away. "Come along. You're going to-"

"Release me!" Merian wriggled in his grasp.

"Merian?"

She turned to find herself looking into the face of her very astonished brother.

"Saints and angels, Merian," he gasped, "is it really you?"

"Oh, Garran-thank God, you're here. I-I…" she began, and suddenly could not speak for the lump in her throat.

"Lady Merian," said Luc, "forgive me. On my word I didn't recognize you." He turned and called to the others who stood looking on. "El! Rhys! It's Lady Merian come home!"

The others surged forward, clamouring all at once. Garran silenced them with a wave of his hand. "Look at you," he said, lifting her face with a thumb and finger. "Where have you been all this time?"

"Father and Mother-are they here? Of course they are," she said, finding her voice again. She started towards the hall. "I'm longing to see them. Come, Garran, you can present me to the king." When her brother did not move, she turned to him again. The solemn look on his face stopped her. "Why? What is it?"

"Father is dead, Merian."

She heard what he said, but did not credit the words. "Where?" she asked. "Come along, I'm certain they-"

"Merian, no," said Garran firmly. "Listen to me. Father is dead."

"He was sick for a very long time, my lady," offered Luc. "My lord Cadwgan died last spring."

"Father… dead?" Her stomach tightened into a knot, and her breath came in a gasp as the full weight of this new reality broke upon her. "It can't be…"

Garran nodded. "I'm the king now."

"And mother?" she asked, fearing the answer.

"She is well," replied Garran. "Although, when she sees you…"

Some of the others who had gathered around spoke up. "Where have you been?" they asked. "We were told you had been killed. We thought you dead long ago."

"I was taken captive," Merian explained. "I was not harmed."

"Who did this to you?" demanded Luc. "Tell us and we will avenge you, my lady. This outrage cannot be allowed to stand-"

"Peace, Luc," Garran interrupted. "That is enough.We will discuss this later. Now I want to take my sister inside and let her get washed. You and Rhys spread the news. Tell everyone that Lady Merian has come home."