Jon Grimwood - The fallen blade

"I'm sorry," Tycho said, looking away. "About Leopold. I would like to have known him properly."

"We can talk about him later. Right now…" Her voice broke. "I can't bear to think about… I thought you were going to die too."

"So did I."

"Really?" She sounded thoughtful.

No, not really. The thought never occurred to him. From the moment he appeared on the deck of Osman's ship he'd known he was the strongest and fastest and most deadly creature aboard. Until now, he hadn't really thought about how intoxicating that was. How it would be to let that go.

"Yes," he lied. "Really."

Lady Giulietta rested her head against his shoulder.

Somehow his hand came up to stroke her hair and he felt her melt into him, then pull away. "Leo's asleep. Desdaio also. Atilo too, I imagine."

"The wind's best higher up."

She smiled sadly. All war galleys were built to an old design. Some said the Romans invented them. Others that it was the Greeks before them. In the old days galleys had two, sometimes three rows of oars, one above the other. Tradition gave Venetian galleys a single row. Although that could change.

The cabins on this were at the stern, with a space below for the tiller, and steps up to a small deck, made from the roof of the cabins fenced in for safety. It was here a huge arbalest could be fitted, one of those vast crossbows with arrows that would pierce an enemy's sides. And it was here Tycho led Giulietta. Although she seemed uncertain why they were there when she reached the top.

"What are you thinking?" she demanded. Only to grab for a rail as the San Marco shifted on the swell beneath them. He saw her hit the rail and caught her before she could stumble. "How come you can balance?"

"Sheer skill," Tycho said.

Giulietta stepped away from him. "You haven't answered my question."

"Just did."

"No. About what you were thinking."

"A'rial," he said. "She's…" Tycho hesitated. "One of your aunt's ladies-in-waiting, I suppose." From her scowl, Giulietta thought his hesitation was about more than how to describe her. "A'rial is eleven. She looks like a starved cat."

"Some men like…"

"Well, I don't."

"So why think about her now?"

There was a question. The kind he should expect from a Millioni princess, who kept a good head behind those watchful eyes. "Because I owe her a debt," Tycho said. "One I will need to repay."

"What?" she said.

"Nothing important. Why?"

"You shivered." Giulietta leant her head against his shoulder. After a moment, when he said nothing, she wrapped her arms tight around him, and he found himself stroking her hair as she clung to him. "This means nothing," she muttered.

"You're upset," he agreed. And felt her freeze. "I mean it," he said hastily. "This means nothing and you're upset about…"

"Don't you dare say his name."

Her face was wet beneath his fingers. Her thoughts a jumble of fears, sadness and anger he tasted and then let go. So much desperation. So much emptiness. These were what had brought her up here. "You know things," he said, tugging the ribbon at the neck of her undergown. "What lies beyond Al Andalus?"

"A great sea," she whispered. "Stretching further than any ship can sail. Everyone knows that. Filled with monsters."

"And beyond that?"

His fingers caressed her throat, opened her gown and smoothed down her warm skin until he felt her nipple harden as he cupped her breast in his hand. "Some say a void," she said, her voice shaky. "That the world ends like a cliff, with the ocean spilling into nothing. If you draw too close the current sweeps you over."

Kneeling like a knight at her feet, he opened her gown further and bit softly into the underside of one breast, hearing her whimper.

"Then how do the seas refill?"

She frowned down as if he was a child.

"Rivers, of course. The way a fountain bowl refills from the water spilling into it. I'm not sure it's true about the cliff. Aunt Alexa says the world is round. You start there," she nodded towards the prow, and you finish here…" The San Marco's foaming wake stretched behind her.

Lifting her gown to her hips, Tycho kissed the darkness between her thighs, feeling her shiver and tasting wetness as salt as any ocean. They stayed that way for a long time. When Giulietta finally took her fingers from his hair, she was sobbing, tears for her dead lover rolling down her face, and Tycho had another question.

"What does Aunt Alexa say is beyond this sea?"

"The far edge of the Khan's empire."

Tycho nodded sadly. He'd thought maybe Bjornvin was there.

Tycho woke abruptly. Aware the sun was about to break over the horizon and Dr. Crow's ointment was in Atilo's cabin below. Ever since Tycho had been freed from behind the Quaja's bulkhead, he'd been tortured by ignorance of why he was a prisoner in the first place. No memories existed between Withered Arm's fire circle and being walled up in a ship, where waves sickened him and silver shackles burnt his wrists.

All he'd wanted was to know who he was.

That was all anyone wanted. Why shouldn't he know? And now he did. At least, he knew part of it, and the knowledge drove all happiness from his body. He would not rest easy until he'd told the girl asleep beside him.

Reaching over, he drew the neck of Giulietta's gown together to hide her pale breasts, and gently tied its ribbon, smoothing straggles of hair from her face. She looked strange asleep, younger and less tough. Her red hair spread in a flaming halo around her. Had Leopold looked at her like this? If so, Tycho wondered what he had seen that Tycho missed.

They were not lovers, Giulietta said. Never lovers.

At least not like that. Prince Leopold zum Bas Friedland had protected her. He had snatched her from those who first abducted her, keeping her secure without her knowing, and, when she escaped, hunted her down again and introduced himself.

They were friends, she told Tycho fiercely.

You were allowed to cry for friends, to miss them and love them and wish everything could have been different. As to who fathered Leo, she was unable to answer that. Literally unable.

Anyway, she was intact.

Lady Giulietta had to touch his finger to a scar on her abdomen before he understood what she meant. She had never, and she told him this with brutal fierceness, lain with a man. And she would not lie with him now. The only man she might have lain with was dead…

And Tycho had held her, and dried her tears, letting her settle when crying for Leopold, the lover who wasn't, finally exhausted her enough for sleep to rescue her from sadness. Now Tycho had something to tell her of his own.

The question was how much truth could she stand?

And how much truth could he stand to tell her? The full truth? That he'd been a ragged, wizened, nameless creature, never sleeping, little more than a living skeleton when he was hunted down in the Eastern deserts? That he still had no memory of how he got there, how long he'd been in the desert or who he was before?

The bleakness of Osman's description weighed on Tycho.

To the hideousness of what Tycho could make himself become had been added the monstrousness of what he'd once been. He had speed, strength and courage. All of these came at a price. And Tycho knew, because he knew himself better now, it was a price he would pay.

This too he needed to tell her.

If Osman spoke the truth, Tycho had been almost animal when trapped by Timurid mercenaries on the borders of the Mamluk empire. He'd been sold to the sultan's vizier, in a trade that saw one old enemy deal with another on behalf of Venice, a third. The sultan's mages had emptied Tycho's head of nightmares, dreams and memories. They'd emptied it of everything except a need to carry out one single task. If he hadn't drowned in Venice's lagoon-or almost drowned, whichever it was-Bjornvin's memories would never have crept back.