C. Cherryh - Chernevog
Здесь есть возможность читать онлайн «C. Cherryh - Chernevog» весь текст электронной книги совершенно бесплатно (целиком полную версию без сокращений). В некоторых случаях можно слушать аудио, скачать через торрент в формате fb2 и присутствует краткое содержание. Город: New York, Год выпуска: 1991, ISBN: 1991, Издательство: Del Rey, Жанр: Фэнтези, на английском языке. Описание произведения, (предисловие) а так же отзывы посетителей доступны на портале библиотеки ЛибКат.
- Название:Chernevog
- Автор:
- Издательство:Del Rey
- Жанр:
- Год:1991
- Город:New York
- ISBN:0-345-37351-0
- Рейтинг книги:4 / 5. Голосов: 1
-
Избранное:Добавить в избранное
- Отзывы:
-
Ваша оценка:
- 80
- 1
- 2
- 3
- 4
- 5
Chernevog: краткое содержание, описание и аннотация
Предлагаем к чтению аннотацию, описание, краткое содержание или предисловие (зависит от того, что написал сам автор книги «Chernevog»). Если вы не нашли необходимую информацию о книге — напишите в комментариях, мы постараемся отыскать её.
Chernevog — читать онлайн бесплатно полную книгу (весь текст) целиком
Ниже представлен текст книги, разбитый по страницам. Система сохранения места последней прочитанной страницы, позволяет с удобством читать онлайн бесплатно книгу «Chernevog», без необходимости каждый раз заново искать на чём Вы остановились. Поставьте закладку, и сможете в любой момент перейти на страницу, на которой закончили чтение.
Интервал:
Закладка:
Sasha looked upset. Finally Sasha said, “She never said. Pyetr, she makes mistakes, I make mistakes—”
“She said she’d had a hundred years to learn bad habits. She said once—” He did not like to remember it. He knew ’Veshka would kill him for telling it to Sasha. But he thought too, now, if there was one person who ought to know… “She said she thought sometimes she ought to be dead again, she said sometimes she almost wished she was—”
Sasha’s face grew grim and worried.
Pyetr asked, because for three years he had wanted to ask someone: “Can she do that? Wish herself to die?”
“She doesn’t mean it,” Sasha said. “Or she would die. That’s not what she wants, that’s absolutely sure.”
“What, then?” His wife talked about suicide—and he had to ask an eighteen-year-old boy what she meant. “Dammit, what can I do for her?”
“Make her happy.”
“I’m not doing that very well.” The knot was back in his throat. He picked up the vodka jug, pulled the stopper.
Sasha said, “Better than anyone could.”
He thought about a drink. He decided that was a coward’s way. He looked at the fire instead, wishing Sasha would drop the whole thread of conversation, talk about something else now. He had found out all he wanted.
“It’s hard to grow up,” Sasha said. “It’s terribly hard. I killed my own parents.”
“Oh, hell—” He knew it: he did not want Sasha going off into those thoughts.
“It doesn’t matter whose fault it was. It’s just hard to grow up if your wishes work. She hates her father. But her father had to keep her from burning the house down or wishing him dead or something, and he was strong enough to stop her. Mine wasn’t. What ’Veshka wanted that made her run away—that’s why wizards can’t live with each other. That’s why bad wizards can somehow grow up in town. But Uulamets’ father just took his son into the woods and left him on a wizard’s doorstep.”
“Malenkova.” He had heard this story, too.
“Uulamets said most really powerful wizards just go crazy— and most of the rest just wish not to be able to wish—and that’s the cure, if you can really want that. But ’Veshka doesn’t really want that either, or she would. Malenkova’s dead, Draga’s dead, Uulamets is dead, Chernevog—the god only knows about Chernevog; and as far as I know ’Veshka and I are the only really strong wizards alive. It’s—”
For a long few breaths there was only the sound of the fire burning, the wind whispering in the leaves.
“—very difficult sometimes,” Sasha said. There might be a shimmer in Sasha’s eyes. Sasha’s knuckles were white, his arms locked around his knees. “Scary. But when you’ve been able to do anything you want—and you learn to use that—it’s scarier to think of being helpless. So you don’t do anything. When you do move, you try to be right.”
Pyetr did not know what to say. Finally he said, “You’re better than Uulamets.”
“I hope so,” Sasha said, and put another stick on the fire, clenching his jaw. Something happened. Pyetr felt his aches suddenly stop.
Another theft, he supposed. A man got used to these interferences.
“You think she’s scared,” he asked, “she might do what you’re doing and not stop?”
“I think she’s terribly scared of that.” A second stick. “She had terrible fights with her father. Not just shouting. Wizard fights, wishing at each other—back and forth. He stopped her. He was always strong enough to stop her—until she ran away that day. I don’t think she understands yet how scared he was of her.”
“Why? She can’t have outfought him.”
“Because a wizard’s never more powerful than when he’s a child. Only thank the god no child wants very much. He can want his mother. She has to listen. Has to.” Another of those pauses, Sasha’s eyes downcast in the firelight. “Which might not make her love him much. And if she doesn’t love him he’s going to want her to. He’s going to want her to do what he wants till, the god only knows, either the baby burns the house down or wishes something really dangerously stupid or someday a mama runs or if or his papa picks him up and takes him to a wizard who can deal with him. ’Veshka’s mother was a wizard, her father was, she got her gift from both sides. If there was ever somebody who was born like her, I don’t know, and Uulamets didn’t hear of anybody like her either.”
“What are you saying?” He honestly had no idea, except that it seemed nothing good.
“I’m saying I wonder now if Chernevog was even thinking about revenge on Uulamets. It’s possible he killed her because he was that afraid of her.”
He had no idea how to put that together, whether it was good or bad. Eveshka going up there alone—suddenly might have a completely different interpretation. “You think she can deal with him?”
“I don’t know. I don’t think ’Veshka herself knows.”
“What does that mean? Dammit—either she can or she can’t.”
“She doesn’t like to talk about it, but I think—I think she’s learned a bit about herself since she came back. I think she’s gotten a better idea why certain things happened, and maybe she knows now why she and her father came to odds—even if she does hate him. I think she’s afraid he could have been right. And then this business up north—if this has been coming on, and she felt it—she was linked to him once…”
“That’s wonderful. That’s damned wonderful. So he’s calling her up there. You think she’s got any chance whatever against him? He killed her, for the god’s sake! How much more can you lose than your life?”
Sasha gave him a strange, troubled look. Pyetr suddenly wished he had not asked that question.
Sasha said, stirring sparks from the fire, “She might beat him. The one thing she has to do is know exactly what she wants.”
“God,” Pyetr said before he thought, and having said it, shook his head and added, his honest thought: “Then we’re in trouble, aren’t we?”
The forest lay still under the stars, not a breeze stirring.
An owl swooped, talons struck; a hare squealed sharply into silence.
Sasha waked with a jerk in the huddle of blankets, caught his breath and, to shake himself free of the dream, sat up to feed another stick into the embers.
Pyetr stirred and mumbled, “Need help?”
“Go to sleep,” he said, wishing the dawn would come. The stick took light, a line of small bright flames in the coals. “It’s all right.”
Pyetr leaned on his elbow, looking at him with concern.
An owl called, somewhere near. Sasha fed a second stick in and tucked down again, not wishing to discuss it.
“The rain’s stopped,” Pyetr said.
It had. There were only the droplets the wind shook loose from the trees. Thunder walked far to the north.
Near him, Sasha could not help thinking tonight. Near Chernevog.
God, Eveshka, listen to me…
He felt vulnerable tonight. Perhaps it was the dream. He thought of the hare—the swiftness of the strike…
He had never thought overmuch about carrying weapons, he had never even thought of wanting a sword for himself: a wizard with his art was more than armed. A wizard wishing to kill…
Could.
Pyetr trusted him to do the wise thing, the right thing to save them; he was terribly afraid that he had been making wrong choices all along, and he wondered if it was so much virtue or wisdom had made him hesitate at killing Chernevog as it was his fear of uncertainties.
Or the force of Chernevog’s own wishes.
He shivered, listening to Pyetr settling back into his blankets. He thought, I haven’t Pyetr’s courage. I’m scared of consequences I can’t even think of, so scared I can’t think straight. Like a damned rabbit—of some shadow in the sky.
Читать дальшеИнтервал:
Закладка:
Похожие книги на «Chernevog»
Представляем Вашему вниманию похожие книги на «Chernevog» списком для выбора. Мы отобрали схожую по названию и смыслу литературу в надежде предоставить читателям больше вариантов отыскать новые, интересные, ещё непрочитанные произведения.
Обсуждение, отзывы о книге «Chernevog» и просто собственные мнения читателей. Оставьте ваши комментарии, напишите, что Вы думаете о произведении, его смысле или главных героях. Укажите что конкретно понравилось, а что нет, и почему Вы так считаете.