David Drake - Balefires

Frank set down his cup and saucer on the old walnut table. He ran his left hand through the mane of iron-gray hair he cultivated, almost all that was left of the splendid man he had looked in his youth. "I suppose you're right," he finally admitted."My… aspirations aren't what they were, I suppose. And Mab, I'm very much afraid the girl isn't ready yet. She still doesn't think of herself as one of us."

"Missy has had a year in this house, Frank."

"She had twelve in the alley and the orphanage, learning that witches are hags that live in dark corners, learning to laugh when one is pushed into the oven. Her first reaction… well, Missy isn't a subtle child."

Mab, matronly in a print of pastel roses, ducked disapproval. "Nor is she stupid. The time Missy spent here was more than enough for her to realize what she is, and what we are. It's our duty as her elders to keep her from wasting herself."

Frank bit absently on the setting of his ring."She can't be forced-no, I don't mean physical force, of course not. But we can't make her believe what she doesn't want to believe; what she's been conditioned not to believe. It won't help even to prove to her that she has the Power. That would only mean to her that she herself is evil, and she'd hate you for it. At best she'd not join us; at worst, with her Power…"

Mab smiled."Now Frank, it's the girl's strength that worries you. But it's time and past time that I stepped down. I was never a very good Maid-now I know what you want to say, I was very well trained. You taught me everything that could be taught; you were wonderfully patient. But I never had the Power; that can't be learned."

"Yet she can't even read Latin," said Frank, sadly shaking his head.

"No," agreed Mab in a firm tone, "and perhaps she never will. Our Missy isn't a scholar. But she has an understanding of things that you and I can hardly imagine."

She reached over to the table and rang a sharp ping from the bell.

"Madam?"

The girl in the doorway wore a maid's uniform with a cap and apron. Dark hair and large eyes accented her triangular face.

"Madam?" she repeated.

"Missy, Mr. Birney and I-"

"Oh, Mab," cut in Frank, lifting his corpulence from the overstuffed chair, "perhaps I'll leave you and Missy to discuss matters by yourselves."

"Frank, you'll wait, won't you?"

"In the hallway." Frank nodded to the two women and closed the hall door behind him.

"Well, Missy," Mab continued, "I-but do sit down, Dearest; this isn't business."

She waved to the seat Frank had vacated, but the girl took a slat-back chair farther from her mistress.

"You've been with me some time now, and you have gotten to know myself and the group of friends that meet here. We'd like you to join us tonight."

The girl fluttered her hands."Ma'am, that wouldn't be right, not me. I'm not your sort."

"But you are our sort," Mab insisted calmly. "The mirror in your room, for instance-"

Panic flashed across Missy's face and Mab quickly added, "Oh, don't worry, Dearest, that's why we put it there. It was an old glass and rather difficult to find, but we knew it was meant for you."

"I'll not do wrong things," the girl insisted sullenly.

There was a light squalling outside the kitchen door, a scratch of claws and a dark-tipped Siamese cat slipped into the parlor. It curled silently under the girl's chair but kept its eyes on Mab.

"We wouldn't have you do wrong, "Mab continued with a toss of her gray hair, "but everything proves that it's right for you to join us. Even the way animals treat you-it isn't only Kaimah, is it, Dearest?"

The girl said nothing, only squirmed a little on her seat.

"They aren't like that with me," Mab said, "but I don't really have the Power. But you do, Missy. To an amazing degree."

"No, Ma'am," Missy whispered. "I haven't nothing. I shan't have it."

Mab appeared not to have heard."Frank was disappointed when you ignored the books we left about, but I understand. Perhaps you'll want them after you've been with us awhile."

"Ma'am, Ma'am," breathed the girl, twisting her apron between narrow hands, "I don't want to be with you, I want to go…"

"Because we're witches?" Mab questioned gently. "There's nothing wrong in being a witch, Darling."

"I don't want to be a witch," cried Missy, slipping from her chair and moving behind it as if the wooden back were a shield. The cat retreated between her legs, not hissing, but stiff-legged and its backbone edged with a high comb of fur.

"But Dearest," pressed Mab inexorably, "you're already a witch-"

"Oh, no!"

"-the most powerful witch I have ever met."

"NO!" the girl screamed, and a gabbling cry burst from the older woman as the first blast of searing heat struck her. Mab half rose from her chair, cocooned in white flame that melted flesh and shrank her very bones in its hissing roar.

"Mab! Mab!" Frank shouted, bursting into the room.

There was no answer. The room was empty save for a shrunken mummy fallen back on the scorched upholstery of the chair. That, and the thick layer of soot that covered everything.

The open door to the kitchen quivered in the draft.

Denkirch

This is where I started. Everybody has to start somewhere, but I've got to admit that a lot of writers have done so more auspiciously.

In 1961 I borrowed a few issues of Weird Tales from my high school teacher. One had a box ad for Skull-Face and Others by Robert E. Howard, who'd written the Conan stories. I'd read Conan the Conqueror as half of an Ace Double and loved it. Even though the ad was over ten years old, I took a chance and wrote the publisher, Arkham House, to see if the book was still available.

Mr. August Derleth wrote back, saying Skull-Face was out of print but enclosed a catalog of available titles. I began buying Arkham House books, getting an introduction to pulp fantasy and horror as Mr. Derleth selected it. (Incidentally, a few years later he sold me a copy of Skull-Face, which wasn't quite as out of print to a good customer as it had been to a stranger.)

In the Summer of 1965 my fiancee Jo (since 1967 my wife Jo) and I drove from Dubuque to Sauk City to see Arkham House. We met Mr. Derleth and his children, saw Arkham House, Publishers (which he was running out of his house), and bought books.

One of those books had just come in; The Inhabitant of the Lake: a collection of horror stories by a young Briton, J. Ramsey Campbell. There was a flap photo of the author. Young was right-Ramsey looked no more than fifteen and in fact was only eighteen. He'd sold Mr. Derleth his first story two years earlier for an Arkham House anthology.

I was nineteen. The teacher who'd loaned me the Weird Tales, Mr. Eugene Olson, had sold fiction himself; indeed, the year after I graduated, he became a full-time writer under what's now his legal name, Brad Steiger. Because of Mr. Olson I knew it was possible to write professionally, and I'd told myself for a number of years that when I got old enough I was going to sell a story.

"Old enough" was obviously sixteen. I was well past that already.

I went home (with the pile of books I'd bought) and sent Mr. Derleth a letter asking whether he might be willing to buy a story if I wrote one good enough to publish. He grudgingly said yes.

I wrote what I thought was a story and sent it to him. It was 1,600 words long and titled "Post Mortem." (I was a Latin major and thought a Latin pun was a great idea for a title. Really.) Mr. Derleth sent the story back with the note that it was a good outline, now I should expand it into a story; and by the way, the title was terrible. I went busily to work and emerged with a piece about 4,000 words long and titled (as I best I can remember) "The Stars Are Hell."

Mr. Derleth sent it back again, saying that I was close. I just needed to take out the purple passages. I didn't know what a purple passage was, but I did my best. Since I was modeling the writing style on that of Mr. Derleth's own worst copies of bad H.P. Lovecraft prose, there was a lot of florid writing in the story. I sent it off again.