Daniel Suarez - Influx

A blurry projection of the memory played on the wall—colored waves lapping over colored waves. A charcoal-drawing-like silhouette of his father ushering him onward along the path. His deep distorted voice. “Watch your step. This way, Jon. I want you to see this…”

And then it was gone. The wall was blank. Something had been there, and now there was only loss. A death in his mind.

“I will destroy anything you recall that it isn’t what I ask for.”

Grady felt the grief drown him as he sobbed, desperately trying not to recall any cherished memories. Like a compulsion they came at him. “Stop!”

“Another one gone.”

“Stop, please!”

“Recall your moment of inspiration. The moment you first conceived of the gravity mirror.”

He struggled, filling his mind with junk thoughts—birds, fences, overhead projector carts at a community college—anything that came to mind was instantly vanquished. Grady sucked in air painfully as the tentacles wrapped tighter around his bruised ribs. “Aaahhh…”

“Don’t do this to yourself, Jon. There will be nothing left but what I want. Not even your will to resist.”

His mind accidentally filled with one of his few happy childhood memories. His eighth birthday party when his Uncle Andrew gave him his old computer.

And then it was gone. Something was gone. The stump of a memory, like that of an amputated limb. He knew something critical to his self had been there.

But he finally came to a realization. A resolution.

Grady started recalling the cruelest parts of his captivity in this room. The projection filled the wall. The sound of his scratchy, distorted screams filled the air. It remained there unforgotten. Still playing.

“Erase that, fucker…”

“You are clever, Jon. But then, that’s why you’re here.”

Grady recalled a horrible moment when the pain centers of his brain had been stimulated to produce the effect of burning alive.

The wall filled with distorted images of torment. And yet these memories were not erased.

“Do you recall how you mastered your resistance to pain, Jon?”

He did.

And then he didn’t.

And then hell itself began all over again as he began to burn alive in his mind. The room echoed with his screams as the image on the wall disappeared.

“I can’t recall my parents’ names. I can’t remember their faces. What have you done to my parents?”

“Those memories don’t exist anymore, Jon.”

Grady was restrained to the examination table, his arms and legs securely wrapped by the leathery gray tentacles. His body was covered by welts, and he’d bit off the very tip of his tongue sometime back… when? Under the imaginary fire? Earlier than that?

He had no memory of those events either. Looking down at his body and the prominent ribs and numerous scars he didn’t recognize it as his own. “I can’t remember my last name.”

“You were doing so well. Don’t get confused. Stay awake and imagine gravitational waves for me.”

“I’m going to die here.”

“No. We’re making excellent progress. You shouldn’t have done that.”

“I had to.”

“I won’t let you hurt yourself again.”

Grady shut his mind, worn as the hinge was. “You hurt me.”

“I’m following my purpose. Just as you follow yours.”

He prepared himself for what was to follow. “I will never let you control me.”

“But I already do.”

Grady stared at the six tentacles reaching to the ceiling above him. They grew in thickness toward the ceiling. He’d sometimes wondered how they functioned. There didn’t seem to be any moving parts. They were organic but then not organic—and impervious to anything he could do to them.

The last thing he remembered was tearing out his own umbilicus port, bloodying his soft, nail-less fingertips in the process of disemboweling himself. He didn’t want to be fed. Blood had gone everywhere, and the tentacles wrapped him in a crushing cocoon in an instant—a whoosh of air as they slapped down around him.

The blood was all cleaned up now. It was as if it had never happened.

“Any damage you inflict on yourself, I will fix.”

Grady stared up at the Cthulhu-like horrors reaching out of the ceiling, their curling limbs pinning him down like roots growing down and around him. And for the first time he noticed something different. From the dark crease between two tentacle bases a smaller tentacle suddenly appeared. No, it looked more like a gray snake spiraling down the length of one trunk. He’d never seen anything like that before.

What fresh horror was this?

He tried to recoil, but he was clamped in place.

“What’s wrong, Jon?”

Grady frowned at the ceiling. “You know what’s wrong. Don’t do it. Don’t do it.”

“You’re imagining things again, Jon. You need to relax while I heal you.”

Images of his thoughts were suddenly projected on the wall, but they were the usual indistinct charcoal etchings of the scanner—large tentacles spreading to the ceiling, but distorted. Drained of color.

“Relax your thoughts.”

Instead, Grady’s fearful eyes followed the progress of the gray snake as it slithered down the tentacle toward his face, curling down and around. Ever closer. It was a snake with no head—the same at the front as at the tail, tapering to two points—but oddly with a single blue human eye protruding one-third of the way down its length, where it attained its full width. The eye stared at him as it descended.

“Please don’t!”

The tentacles clamped him in place like iron. “You’re hallucinating.”

“No!”

The snake was almost upon him now, and he could see it consisted of the same featureless gray material as the tentacles themselves—except for that single unblinking eye on its upper side and two antenna-like feelers. It halted close to his face—staring at him as he recoiled in horror. The eye changed in color, its iris adjusting in pattern, and soon it was a greenish eye, the pupil dilating.

There was no doubt in his mind that it was going to harm him.

Grady continued to struggle against his bonds. “No! Don’t!”

“I won’t induce sleep just to reduce your pain. Pain is a teacher.”

The leading edge of the snake touched Grady’s face with its feelers. He tried to turn away as it watched him, but the feelers reached out to him softly. He felt their prickly electric touch, not painful but a slight shock.

He leveled his gaze again to look warily at the snake, and for the first time noticed how unlike the tentacles it was in many ways. There was a jerry-rigged quality to it. He could see where metal parts had been spliced into the fibrous gray snake material around its eye. He watched in mute fear as the leading point of the snake came unwound into hundreds of separate tendrils—as though the snake itself was a coil of microscopic string. The rest of its body remained wrapped around one tentacle as the feelers stroked the surface. Then they appeared to separate further, smaller and smaller, until they began to meld together into the tentacle itself—as though splicing themselves into the tentacle trunk.

“I’m glad you’ve calmed yourself.”

Was the AI not aware of the presence of the snake? Was this some trick? Grady’s eyes remained riveted on the snake as it slowly insinuated itself into the fiber of the tentacle like a parasite. Before it was completely absorbed, the human eye protruded farther and farther from its body until it became apparent that it was attached to a short metal or ceramic rod—the eye secured with metal posts like a gemstone. As the snake continued to merge into the larger tentacle, the strands securing the eye continued to recede, until finally it fell free from the snake, landing on Grady’s belly.