Robin Wasserman - Torn

I’d seen images of it on the network, of course, but after a while one dead zone looked pretty much like another. They all featured the frozen parade of abandoned cars choking their escape routes, some doors flung open by long-ago passengers who’d desperately decided to get out by foot, others locking in bloated bodies of the unfortunates who stayed in their cars, trusting the traffic laws, trusting the highway flow, trusting the radio reports of a quiet, orderly evacuation, trusting right up until the moment the toxic cloud or tidal wave or flesh-eating supergerm gave them a final escape.

Not this city.

It was just empty. The bombs had flattened half its buildings and much of its population. The lingering radiation had taken care of the rest. I’d only been in one city before—unless you counted the underwater ruins—and that had been teeming with life. Even the emptiest streets had festered with rats, roaches, gutter rivers of piss. But here nothing moved. There were no bodies in sight, and I wondered if some unfortunate corp crew had moved them out, one by one—how such a thing could be possible when the deaths numbered in millions—or if they had lain fallow all these years, gradually returning to the earth. I wondered how the city would smell, if I could smell.

I couldn’t have handled bodies. I’d seen them in the ocean, of course, but that was different. The pale, preserved corpses that floated through the underwater city were dreamlike wraiths—nightmarish, but unreal. Bodies lining the streets, decomposing, swarming with maggots or flies or whatever hardy scavengers could survive nuclear war… that was a reality even I wouldn’t have been able to deny.

Jude was waiting for us, just beyond the mouth of the tunnel. He lounged on a bench at the center of a small concrete plaza, proud ruler of a broken skyline and a city of ghosts.

We stopped the car.

Opened the doors.

Greeted our long-lost friend.

Jude stood. “Riley.” He gave his best friend a once-over, taking in the new body, the new skin, the face that was molded as closely as possible to a face from old photographs. I realized this was a Riley he hadn’t seen in almost two years, and wondered if, finally, something had managed to throw Jude off balance. But he stepped forward with a cool half smile. “Didn’t think I’d ever see that face again.”

“Knew I’d see yours,” Riley said, and grabbed Jude, pulling him into a tight embrace. Not one of those guy half hugs, with a loose grip and a slap on the back. This was the real thing, the two of them clinging to each other. Jude’s hands were balled into fists. His eyes stayed on me.

He let go first.

“Welcome.” Jude spread his arms as if inviting us into his home.

I waited for Riley to ask all the questions I was sure he’d been saving up, about where Jude had been, what he wanted, what he needed, what had happened, what would come next… but that wasn’t Riley’s style.

“You keeping it together?” he asked.

“Always.”

And, apparently, with that he was satisfied. My turn.

“What are we doing here, Jude?” I asked.

He laughed. “Still asking the wrong questions, I see. Good to know some things haven’t changed.”

“So this is it? The top-secret home base? Where are you hiding the groupies?”

“No groupies,” Jude said. “Not this time. This time we play it safe. This city has been uninhabitable for decades. They didn’t just bomb the place; they infested it with radiation. Viral rad, the gift that keeps on giving. No org’s coming within fifty miles, not without protective gear and a significant risk of fatal exposure. It’s all ours.”

“Ours, as in you’re asking us to move in?” I said. “ Here? Generous as always, Jude. But there’s no way in hell.”

“And you’re the boss, right?”

If he’d been hoping to bruise Riley’s masculinity, he was disappointed. Riley just looped an arm around me and grinned. “What else is new?”

So Jude took a different tack. “We don’t have to talk about the future now. There’s still plenty of ground to cover in the past.”

This was it, then. Jude was going to blast us for betraying him. He’d lured us to this heap of ruins so he could toss us into some abandoned bomb shelter, lock us up, throw away the key, move on with what passed for his life. And Riley and I, never aging, never dying, would spend the rest of eternity locked up together—how many days and years of apologizing would it take for him to forgive me, out of sheer boredom if nothing else?

But it was Jude who apologized, to Riley. “I didn’t expect you to get caught in the explosion.”

Riley shook his head. “Not your fault. I’m the one who wired most of the explosives. My fault I did it wrong.”

I watched Jude’s face carefully, but of course he was no helpless org, hostage to unconscious emotional responses. No eyebrow lifting, no eyes widening, no dropped jaw. Whatever emotion he did reveal would be intentional, theatrics. For now he stayed blank. “Wrong?” he echoed.

“I’m just glad no one got hurt,” Riley said.

“You got hurt,” Jude said.

“I mean orgs.”

Now Jude did lift an eyebrow. “Wasn’t that the point?”

Riley looked uncomfortable. “You wouldn’t have done it.”

Jude nodded, slowly. “Because you would have stopped me. That was the plan, right?”

“There was no plan,” I said quickly.

“I would have stopped you,” Riley admitted.

“Lucky that it didn’t come to that,” Jude said, watching me. “That would be awkward, wouldn’t it. If you’d set the secops on me. You’d probably be standing here wondering exactly how much I hated you. Whether I’d spent the last six months plotting my revenge, or some such melodramatic scenario.”

Riley gripped Jude’s arm. “You know I always have your back. Like you’ve got mine.”

“Always,” Jude said, and disengaged himself, gently but firmly. “Must be strange, not remembering.”

“Yeah.”

It was something else I’d never asked him. I’d waited for him to bring it up in his own time; he hadn’t.

“Feels like another person, you know?” Riley lifted a hand in front of his face, turned it slowly like he was searching for cracks in the synthetic flesh. “Guess it kind of was.”

“Nice model.” Jude gave Riley another slow once-over. “Expensive.”

“Worth it,” I said, curling an arm around Riley’s waist. He didn’t shrug me off, but he looked like he wanted to.

“Too expensive,” Riley said.

We never talked about the fact that his new body had been bought with my father’s money. Not since he’d first found out, and freaked. It doesn’t mean he owns you, I’d told him.

But now he owns you, doesn’t he? Riley had said. Was that worth it?

After that, we put it on the ever-expanding list of Subjects Not to Be Discussed.

“So the last thing you remember… ,” Jude prompted.

“That night before we went to the temple,” Riley said. “We went over the plan one last time, then I uploaded, and then—it’s blank. But Lia filled me in on everything else.”

Jude’s smile had turned predatory. “I bet she did.”

“Something you want to say, Jude?” It popped out, though I knew better. That happened around him.

“Nothing I haven’t already said. Welcome.” He rubbed his hands together, disposing of the unseemly business. “Let me show you around.”

He guided us through the dark wonderland of gutted buildings and shattered glass; it made Riley’s city look like a paradise. Leave it to Jude to seek refuge in the midst of death and decay, a broken landscape that proved, with every step, exactly how much damage the orgs were willing to do to each other. So many orgs these days liked to claim that organic life was sacred in the eyes of God. But it didn’t seem to stop them from killing whomever they liked, whenever they got the urge.