Jack Benjamin - The Paths Of Incest

There were others-lots of others, but I was finished with the older homosexuals. I was only 35, but I couldn't bear to be with a man over 22 or 23. When Rick went to college, in the South, I thought I'd go crazy, for a while. Then I became a "sugar daddy." I laid it right on the line to a couple of teenage homosexuals-live with me, I pay all the bills and provide money for whatever they wanted.

That was how I ended up in a wheelchair, for life. This kid-he was 16, and a real wild lover-was living with me. One night, we were just sitting there, watching TV, when the shot came through the window. Of course, I never knew what happened. The bullet hit me low in the neck, almost severing my spinal cord. I was in the hospital for eighteen weeks. I won't ever walk again. It was the kid's brother. He'd come out of the Army and had spotted what his brother had become right away. He'd tried to talk him into coming home, but Larry wouldn't leave me. I guess, in a way, we loved each other-almost like Rick and I had. The brother is still in prison. He killed Larry with his second shot.

Rick tried, when he came home, but I don't have any sensation in my cock-nor any of the lower part of my body. We write, now and then, but we're not close. He's in New York, and although he doesn't say much about it, I know he's in with a real gay crowd. I even saw an article he wrote in one of the homosexual publications: "Drum." You know where they get that title? Some famous philosopher, I forget who it was, said: "Perhaps he who seems out of step, is marching to the sound of a different drum." Isn't that the most descriptive phrase you've ever heard to cover homosexuals like me? March to a different drum!

To try to conjecture what might have happened to this man, and to his son, had he taken an early detour from homosexuality, is just that: conjecture.

An important aspect of this case is this: Can homosexuality be inherited? The majority of the experts say "NO!" Lest the layman be too quick to pass judgment in this unusual case, let us in fairness point to some pertinent factors. This lad, Rick, was not raised in a homosexual atmosphere. As far as he knew, as an impressionable child, his father was normal; so was his mother. It is fruitless to conjecture that the child may have been aware of the unusual and very strained relationship between his parents, or that he was even vaguely aware of his father's extramarital homosexual wanderings. It is equally silly to presuppose that the boy knew of his mother's extra-marital sex activities, and was thus influenced into homosexuality by a mother-hatred.

It is fallacious, on the other hand, to ignore the neglected, empty life at home, during his early years. Unfortunately, we do not have access to his testimony. We cannot know what brought this sensitive (remember-"I love it, I love it") youth to a decision that would lead him to the affections of males, rather than seek out the company of females. It is evident that, at age 10, or at best, 11, Rick was ready-even eager, for homosexual satisfaction-even with his own father!

The utter lack of guilt on the part of the father and the son is significant. In a healthy, unfettered climate, such associations do arise. They are accepted by the community as natural, and thus we see many native tribes and communities which condone incest, in any form, simply because they do not think it unnatural. They have no religious or moral taboos against it.

That this has been a plague to the Christian world, is obvious to anyone who chooses to read the Apostle Paul's letter to the sinners at Corinth. Read I Corinthians in its entirety, and it is evident that there were much more than normal sex relations going on!

In the later questioning of Doug, it was determined that he had had no religious upbringing; nor had he imparted any to his son. We leave this to the reader to use as he chooses.

Again, unfortunately, we have no way of tracing down the ultimate life of Rick, the victim of an incestuous, homosexual father. This is one for the experts-if there is such an animal. They will choose their side and argue long and loud that they are right. We close this case history with one simple statement, made by Doug.

"I knew a long time ago that I was a homosexual. Homosexual means: you enjoy sex with only members of your own sex. So-my son's cock is sweeter to me than any other male's. I read a book, by Joseph Rosenfeld. One of the chapters had this sub head: 'Homosexuality is no advantage, but it is nothing to be ashamed of, no vice, no degradation; it cannot be classified as an illness; we consider it as a variation of the sexual function.' But-that wasn't Rosenfeld speaking; it was an expert-Sigmund Freud. So-who's to say just what is right and wrong in sex? God? Find it for me in the Bible, little as I know of that book. Find a law that says a man shouldn't love his own son beyond the pale of the things society recognizes!"

Science and medicine are nearly helpless against the hard core homosexual or lesbian, merely because we are not able to understand what we consider, at best, "perverted sex or love."

With the recent lessening of the stringency of the laws against homosexuality, police in the states affected say that nothing has really changed EXCEPT-and it is a big exception-homosexual crimes against juveniles, in those states with lenient attitudes, have shown a remarkable decline! We do not have time nor space to go into the various methods of police activities. Suffice it to say, without fear of successful contradiction, that sex appetites and desires are uncontrollable! We have many states whose books say that a man may have intercourse with his wife only in one position: with her supine, the male on top. Look closely into your own conscience. Chances are, in 99 out of every 100 cases, you too, are a sex deviate-perhaps even a sex criminal!

It becomes easy, in a study such as this, to generalize, but in the case of lesbianism, it is irrefutably correct to state that few, in this vast land of ours, realize the prevalence of female homosexuality. This writer had a personal friend who is now serving a 20-to-life sentence in a state prison for the crime of killing the lesbian lover of his wife! I bring this up only to point to the fact that, in 99 out of every 100 cases of "crimes of passion," as the news media still call them, involving extramarital sex, are merely dismissed by most juries as "justifiable homicide." IF-that is, the offender in the marital bed happens to be a male! Due to the very pattern of living in America, female homosexuality, which we call lesbianism, is easy to hide and extremely difficult to detect. This is because of the women's clubs, the incidence of "pals," kissing, embracing, etc. If two men meet and kiss, everyone instantly surmises (and usually rightly in America) that they are homosexuals. If two women meet, even casually, kiss, embrace, even feel buttocks or breasts-little is made of it, except to tab them as "good friends."

For these reasons, lesbianism is widely unrecognized, unless-as so many of the more militant lesbians today are going-a girl chooses to go openly the way her sexual nature dictates, and joins one of the many lesbian societies. It is interesting to note that there are three major male homosexual societies, but at least fifteen lesbian organizations.

Another factor is this: Lesbianism is much easier to practice than homosexuality, in our society. Two neighbors can, for example, visit in each other's homes for hours, and no breath of scandal touches them. Sisters, (of whom we are talking in this chapter) may spend days together, and nothing is thought of it.

One such incident of lesbianism is Jill's story:

I was 16 when my sister, Jo, married. I was a virgin. I swear to God that I had not had any lesbian leanings nor had ever had any male or female sex-outside of a few feels here and there, from boys, in the movies and at parties. Sex-wise, I was a dumbbell.