Claire Adrian - Incest, A Way Of Life

We find that Harriet lacks diversification and skill, exhibits poor judgment, and accepts substitute gratifications over sublimation with further ensuing frustrations, her interpersonal relationship is poor. She has various etiological colorings which present us with a picture of disorganization: lack of continuity and consistency in personal contact-all very common when we find parental discord and broken homes. Inconsistent parental attitudes, poor sibling relationships, inconsistent interfamily relations, and immoral and/or emotionally ill parents also contribute to this lack of continuity and consistency in personal contact.

Due to infantile personality structure, Harriet has poor symbolic expression, is unable to expend excess tension through interpersonal relationships and self-expression, and remains on the level of organic response, either muscular, visceral, or vascular. With Harriet, we are dealing with a psychosomatic partial response, not with the distorted total response of an organ system, as is the case in conversion hysteria.

Harriet's years of secretly watching her mother and various men engage in sexual relations led to the development of her voyeurism, in which she went about the neighborhood peeping into windows in order to witness sexual acts between various men and women.

The origin of voyeurism still lies in the psychiatric realm of theory and speculation. Essentially, however, voyeurism can be said to be the result of arrested development, and the voyeur always begins his tragic journey within the early years of childhood, just as Harriet began hers.

There is no evidence that the subject is suffering from either Electra complex or penis wish. However, there is some slight evidence-based on the subject's preference for watching herself make love-that Harriet's psyche is tinged with narcissism-a psychosexual condition in which one (usually a female) is stimulated by one's body, both by sight and touch, and self-enjoyment of it by masturbatory end means.

This anomaly has, moreover, been given a special name by the experts who have paid special attention to it; thus Magnus Hirschfeld calls it automonsexualism, while others refer to it as autoerasty.

Hirschfeld writes: "Narcissism [taken from the name of a legendary Greek hero who fell in love with his own reflection] consists essentially and primarily in the fact that the individual in question-a child, an adolescent, more often than not a teenage girl-experiences a special attraction of a sexual nature for his own being, and especially for his own body, for his own image and also for his own intellect."

But we must not confuse "simple" masturbation with narcissism. There is a fairly distinct difference between them. Narcissism may be interwoven with masturbation, but masturbation, per se, does not necessarily imply narcissism! The teenage boy or girl addicted to masturbation has resource to this "self-abuse" procedure only because it is a last resort, because he or she does not have a partner. It is different with the active narcissist who does not in any way feel the need of sharing emotions.

The masturbator finds in himself the instrument of his satisfaction, while the narcissist sees in his own body the object of his desires.

The masturbator loves only his pleasure, masturbating to the fantasy of others, while the narcissist is in love with himself and will masturbate to an image of himself.

Besides, narcissists are not always masturbators; the most innocent forms of play, superficial caresses, or merely the contemplation of their own bodies in the mirror, may be quite sufficient for them.

Harriet also falls into another pattern: that of the aggressive teenage seductress, even though she was seduced by her uncle before she could put any kind of plan in operation. In short, Harriet P-is a typical product of the incestuous teenage syndromes.

Viewed in this light, Harriet P- is not unusual, there being thousands of girls who share an identical psychosexual illness-the desire for incest.

"That first fuck that Uncle Elmo gave me-wow! I just lay there and kept popping off, having one come after another.

"Then, after unc and me had finished our screw, maw calmly announced that she wanted to go down on him, her suggestion being just jim-dandy with him. Uncle Elmo loved mouth jobs-and he asked me, 'Honey-bunch, I don't suppose you ever had a peter in your mouth, huh?'

"I giggled-I got to admit I was rather embarrassed over him asking me like that, right in front of my very own mother! I shook my head arid giggled again-'Nope, I ain't never done that,' I said, thinking: But I know you're going to show me how, ain't you, Uncle Elmo? You had better!

"'Now, El, honey, you ain't gonna have my baby a-suck yore cock,' maw said lazily. 'It ain't proper her a-doin' that-ain't proper a'tall.

"Uncle Elmo, he ignored maw, and he said to me, 'Wal, wal, so you ain't never had a cock in that sweet mouth of yourn. I think it's about time I teached you. Why.here, you is, almost fourteen years old, and you ain't even got the facts of life.' He turned to maw. 'Eva darlin', you show her how to suck a man-sized prick.'

"Uncle Elmo spread his skinny legs, and he leaned back on the bed, putting his hands under his head. 'An' don't turn your head sideways while you do it and show Harriet how. I like to see my peter slidin' in and out of your mouth!'

"Right off, I expected maw to flip her head over him wanting me to toddle his flute, especially since he wanted her to show me how. But maw, she just said it wasn't fitting and proper, and Elmo, he told her to go to hell and hurry up and show me, and maw said all right in that lazy voice of hers. Then maw got with it and became as excited as me, and we both got down between unc's legs, making ready to go down on him.

"Maw said, 'Now you watch how I do it, Harriet honey.' She took Elmo's hard cock in her hand. 'You watch how I blow him; then you can have a go at it.'

"She plopped the-head of his peter into her mouth, like it was a big ripe plum, and began sucking on it, now and then running her wet mouth up and down over it, moving as far down as she could, until almost all of his cock had disappeared. I watched, really fascinated. Why, the head must have banged against maw's tonsils. She sure was some cocksucker, and I figured she must have had a lot of experience. I know she did, because I guess I had seen her blow dozens of men-I mean back in my Saturday-night-watching days, before unc came to live with us.

"Maw, she kept sucking on Uncle Elmo's cock; then, after a few minutes, she pulled it from her mouth and licked her lips-like she enjoyed the taste. Uncle Elmo, he just layed there and sighed.

"Maw said to me, 'All right, you try it. The way you do it-use yore tongue and lips all you want, but don't bite with your teeth. Men, they don't like that none-and do ya see this here place?' She indicated a piece of skin shaped like a tiny tight cord that seemed to anchor the head to the main part of the prick. 'Right here,' maw said. 'You lick that spot real good. That makes men shoot their come in a hurry when you lick that there spot.'

"'You want me to suck it now?' I asked, very excited at the prospect of taking Uncle Elmo's prick in my mouth.

"'Uh-huh. You-all go ahead and try it,' maw said.

"I took Uncle Elmo's prick and put the head into my mouth. I liked the taste, though it was sort of slick and wet. I began running my tongue all over the wet head, and then unc said I wasn't doing it right!

" ‘Hellfire, girl!' Uncle Elmo said. 'Ya got to suck it, not jes lick it-an' try to get more of my cock in yore mouth. Don't you-all act like you's afraid of it. Hell, it ain't gonna bite you none! That's what you're supposed to do!'

" ‘You mean you want me to bite it. Uncle Elmo?' I asked.

".'Oh shit!' Uncle Elmo said. 'Eva, you show her how!'