Claire Adrian - Incest, A Way Of Life

We have spoken of the castration complex (and/or penis envy). Are we saying that all women who fellate their husbands are motivated by penis envy, that, by fellatio, they are psychically attempting to "castrate" their husbands? No, we are not. Generally speaking, women fellate their lovers-husbands or otherwise-for the same reason that men cunnilingue women: basically because they want to give intense sexual stimulation and/or pleasure to their partners, enjoy the act, or for other reasons, such as to prevent pregnancy, etc. However, when a woman prefers fellatio over and above other acts, it is to be strongly suspected that she is being motivated by the castration complex.

Another fact to be considered is that while millions of women fellate men, very few actually consume the semen after the male ejaculates, and those who do, preferring to do so, are known as spermaphagists. These women equate the seminal discharge with the strength represented by male virility. The male has a penis; they do not. The semen represents male strength, power, domination. They desire to consume this power, either to "drain" it away from the male and/or to "share" the strength he possesses.

Psychiatrists are in agreement that the majority of female spermaphagists are motivated by penis envy.

Again, there is a parallel in complete cunnilingus. Many oral-oriented males, unfamiliar with the fact that the female does not ejaculate, have described to me the acme of feeling experienced by the "warm come" of the female "shooting" into their mouths.

Such association that a man makes should be obvious. While the lubricating Bartholin secretion of the aroused female could never be described as erupting in a flow or "shooting," the power of suggestion and familiarity with his own orgasmic function recreates the infantile pleasure so strongly that the oral erotic male.cunnilinguist may imagine that it is really happening. By the same token, there are some female homosexuals, i.e. lesbians, who describe in glowing terms the "warm flow" coming from a female love partner.

It is symptomatic of Gwendolyn T-'s condition that she enjoys consuming male semen, all of which indicates her domination by the subconscious desire to castrate: the penis envy wish. She does not have a penis; thereby, by consuming semen, she acquires one.

We recall her words: "I also worried because I didn't have a thing like Ronnie and dad and the men I saw at the parties." Later: "It was then that I made the startling discovery that I liked the taste of come, which reminded me of warm, thick soup, even though the seasoning was a bit too tangy." And still later: '"I'd gotten into the habit of drinking my brother's come directly from a rubber after he finished fucking me."

All this is a clear indication-this spermaphagy-of penis envy.

Gwendolyn's hostility toward her parents ("… sometimes I think I hated mom and dad. They never really loved me.") also plays a role, although it is not the dominating factor in her libido. By seducing her brother, Gwen was really striking out at her parents, "getting even" as it were doing that which was expressly forbidden. And what is a greater taboo than incest?

As was pointed out in the introduction to this work, girls often use sex as the medium for expressing their hostilities, and if they are pushed along the road of resentment by the impulse of penis envy, they'll either submerge themselves in fellatio or promiscuous intercourse-usually both-or, very readily, they'll seduce their own brothers and other boys, adult males, and even their own fathers!

Gwendolyn T- is an excellent example.

"There, standing in the doorway, were mom and dad! They just stood, staring at me and Ronnie, their mouths wide open, the sight oЈ me fucking my brother in the ass sobering them up somewhat. About that time, Ron noticed them and he made a noise that reminded me of a chicken that's chased by a man with a brand new ax! I must admit I was making funny gurgling sounds. I still don't remember pulling out of my brother's hind end and yanking the dildoe from his asshole… As for the rectal stimulator in my own behind, I think it must have slipped out. It had to, because the next time I recall seeing it, it was lying on the rug, purring and vibrating like wow!

"Mom's voice broke the strange silence. 'Oh God, Harvey!'-that's my dad's name-'She's using one of my best dildoes-and my new rectal unit!'

"Mom walked across the room and slapped me across the face. ‘Oh, you dirty little son of a bitch,' mom yelled. 'Using my brand new rectal unit and one of my best dildoes. Take off that cock this instant! Harvey! You had better have a talk with your daughter! You hear me!'

"Dad would have had to be dead not to hear her. He looked at me, as I removed the dildoe, and his eyes, narrowed. I began feeling good all over, noticing how his eyes were eating up my nakedness.

" ‘DID YOU HEAR ME, HARVEY!' mom yelled again.

"'Uh-huh, Esther'-that's my mom's name. ‘I'll talk to her.'

"By this time, my poor frightened brother had fled to his room, and now mom, having snatched the dildoe from me, grabbed the rectal unit from the rug, clicked it off, and turned to leave the bedroom. She turned at the door and peered strangely at me. 'Gwennie,' she snapped, 'are you-humming?'

"Nodding, I pulled the vibrator from my cunt and clicked it off. Mom grabbed it from my hand and, shaking her head in disgust, stormed from the bedroom. I stood staring after her, not thinking about covering my nakedness. Then my eyes caught my father's. Clearing his throat, he closed the door, blinked at me, and said, ‘Gwennie, it's a… it's not exactly considered proper for a girl to have sex with her brother,' He sat lazily down on a wing chair, belched, and continued. 'It's-uh-it's considered immoral.'

"I could see the huge bulge at the crotch of his trousers as I ran over and boosted myself on his lap. I enjoyed even more his shocked expression. Alniost automatically he put his arm around my waist, and I could see that he was becoming both excited and embarrassed at the same time. 'I don't think what Ron and I were doing was any worse than what you and mom do at parties,' I said matter-of-factly. 'I mean fucking and sucking and all that! Ron and I just wanted to have some fun, too… ‘

"Dad's eyes widened in surprise. 'Well, yes, but-uh-ah-'

"Twisting my naked butt on his lap, I asked, 'Don't I make your cock double-hard, daddy? So hard that you'd like to-do something with it?'

"Dad gave me a hard squeeze with his arm that was around my waist, and with his other hand, he began nibbling his palm over my pussy mound. 'What would you suggest?' he asked in a husky voice, his breath quickening. 'Hmmmmmm. You are growing up. You've got nice-breasts and legs and-you'd better get off my lap, Gwennie!' He laughed oddly. 'You're making something hurt…'

"'Like maybe your prick?' I asked coyly, getting off his lap. Somehow I knew I was going to get him to fuck me. I knew, too, somehow, that mom wouldn't mind too much, if at all. At least I figured she wouldn't-not after what I had seen him and her doing at various parties. Why, mom and dad didn't think a thing of fucking and sucking other men and women in front of each other! And I said, 'Why, don't you show me how big it is, daddy? I'd love to see it. I'll bet you've got a pretty cock… ‘

"Smiling, he unzipped his pants, pulled out his cock, and held it straight and firm for me to gaze at. 'Is that you want to do, just look at it?' he asked in a voice choked with desire.

"I didn't say a word. I merely went to the bed, lay down on my back, opened my thighs and held out my arms. Bluntly I told him, 'Shove it in me, daddy. Give the a real hard fucking!' I was positive that he couldn't have backed down, even if he had wanted to. He was too hot. Watching him remove his clothes, I wondered if he had a cunt-rub. Probably not, because mom and other women he was used to fucking all took pills. I didn't mind taking the chance of getting knocked up, deciding that getting diddled by my father was worth it.