Sam Paul - Why I Committed Suicide
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- Название:Why I Committed Suicide
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- Год:2004
- Город:Lincoln, NE
- ISBN:0-595-32695-1
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Tuddy’s in here for the typical “selling a controlled substance” rap that most of the brothers are in here for. One day I expect someone is going to finally take some sort of action against these blatantly racially biased arrest policies, but until that happens were going to keep building jails for guys like Tuddy since he’s only one of the many easy-target, low-level dealers who are just trying to make a living doing the best paying job in their neighborhood. It boggled my mind at first when he explained to me about the cash potential there is for him to sell drugs. I’ve calculated that when Tuddy’s actively out in the street he’s making at least five times as much money as any highly paid doctor or lawyer and he’s only 19! When you work maybe half the day and do whatever you want while working, the incentives for selling drugs far outweigh the potential consequences of possibly doing some prison time. Day one high school economics teaches the basics of supply and demand, plus anyone watching enough History Channel should know that people always take risks for exorbitant lumps of cold hard cash. Since we’ve infused the poorer areas with drugs and continue to buy them there, America continually perpetuates its own problem. Truly the scariest thing that could happen to a major drug dealer would be complete legalization, the slim profit margin and taxes would make most of the dealers go away within five years as the economy adjusted to acceptance of these new policies. I’m starting to truly suspect that a lot of lobbying by people that want to continue to perpetuate the drug war originally comes from people heavily involved in drug trafficking. People that prefer to keep their industry illegal. They are so high up the food chain that they will never be in any form of legal trouble, at least not without millions of dollars and lives being lost to bring one corporate head of the mythical hydra to so called “justice”.
We all should think of the drug war in terms of office supplies. There isn’t much profit in supplying them since anyone with a little starting capital can open a store and sell them. However, say that all the office supplies were made illegal tomorrow, most companies would still need them and as people’s stockpiles dwindled, the cost of the legalities involved with purchase would drive up prices, and as prices and profits rose, so would competition. Without a legal form of protection against indiscretions by rival office suppliers, there would soon be a network of underground suppliers and purchasers and eventually harsh violence over supplies and profits would likely occur. Now someone reading this might be thinking, “yeah but office supplies are not dangerous to use and people don’t need drugs the way they need office supplies so its not a fair illustration of the economics.” This is where it can get tricky, because I truly believe that Americans NEED drugs. The same way we need television. It’s all an opiate for the masses in one form or another, fueling counterculture and creativity but most of all it provides an escape for the average drone worker bee to relax or alter their perception of reality. So many people crammed into such small city areas is an unnatural way to live, most cities are reliant on outside sources for everything from agriculture to water to entertainment, and so the need for extreme psychotherapy and contentment in some form is absolutely necessary. Ponder that the next time you are in a bar drinking a beer and smoking a cigarette.
Back to Tuddy though, I think his real name might be Sean. The kid is young and most likely a high school dropout but he’s as smart as a whip. Completely immature and no formal sentence structuring is evident in any of his letters to and from home, but he can rap his dick off as easily as if he’s ordering drive-thru. He keeps going to court for his narcotics bit and they keep offering him probation and he keeps turning it down every time. They send him out to court and he comes back with the papers that would have let him walk out of this hellhole right the same day and he’s rejected the offer every freakin’ time. Everyone in here keeps telling him that he’s off his gourd staying inside when he could be out drinking a 40 oz or fucking some hot pussy by tonight. Tuddy wants nothing less than prison time and he keeps telling his court appointed lawyer that and then he comes back totally pissed that they even bothered to call him out for court. I’ll go into the unpleasant experience of the hassle of going to court some other time. Going to court is a hassle for everyone involved. Putting on hand cuffs at 4 a.m., multiple searches, no smoking, people losing the rest of their lives…Every time I look at him I just keep thinking to myself, dumb motherfucker dumb motherfucker DUMB MOTHERFUCKER.
What’s even crazier is that this isn’t an isolated incident. A lot of these young kids are trying to get time down in prison rather than get out on probation. I thought maybe it was because their lifestyle wouldn’t allow them to stay out free on probation and maybe they just want to do a little bit of prison time, get it all over with and be completely free. I could maybe respect that, but that’s not what is going on. It took me a while but I was asking him questions while we were slamming bones one day and he started telling me about some of his family. It seems his father and his uncles and some of his brothers are all doing jail time or have done time for something or other, almost all of it has something to do with drugs. The way he was brought up and the culture of his whole family has helped him come to terms with literally living under a state of constant oppression. It’s normal to get arrested for things that he and his family don’t consider a crime. When Teddy’s in jail there is already a complete support system in place that provides money and people that can look after his family while he’s inside. When he’s out of jail or prison, a large portion of the money he makes is going back into the family to help out others whose kinfolk are locked away. They have evolved their family dynamic around being screwed by the government and support each other through the ups and downs. Guys who are not related refer to each other as “kinfolk.” Someone from the same gang or set or street or junior high school is one of your “kinfolk”.
The first time you get sent away, going to prison is a right of passage. You know that scene in Goodfella’s where Ray Liotta’s character gets pinched for the first time and all the mob guys are waiting for him when he gets out, congratulating him for taking it like a man and not bending over for the fuzz? This is almost a perversion of that concept and the whole family accepts it as part of their life. It’s the same with some of the Mexicans too, although they’ll try like hell to stay out of prison as long as they can, when they finally do go down South, a son or a brother will step into that person’s shoes and keep the family financially able to survive. That’s why so called drug organizations will never be infiltrated; there are far too many families to go through to even get close to the top of the heap.
The older black guys tell me that the young kids are going crazy down in prison, that there is no order and that the lifers even stay away from this new breed of kid. Texas has lowered the adult conviction age whenever they see fit, so these 14, 15 and 16 year old kids are getting life sentences and really long stretches of time thanks to biased mandatory sentencing laws. When you are 16 and you get sent to prison for 10 or 20 years you can’t imagine even living long enough to get out. They are getting down to these prisons and “acting the fool” as they say. Making their own version of home, killing each other, raping each other and going nuts the way only really young people with nothing to lose can do. It’s this generations’ Vietnam and it’s really fucking serious. I’m in the middle of another civil war based on other people’s insanity and moral convictions that those of us in the trenches have no way of ever justifying. Most people can’t grasp the dynamics of anything outside these walls anymore. Soon we’re going to be talking about 40 year old men that have been locked down since before their dick first got hard, guys who have only had sex by raping another person of the same sex, and they are going to get out of jail with nothing in their brains except some fucked up psychological trauma to add to their original economic disparity.
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