Wiley Cash - This Dark Road to Mercy

The bat came off my shoulder and swung toward the bottle, but at the last second my face turned away, and the front of the bat clipped the tee and knocked the bottle off into the grass. The old man slammed his beer on top of the hood and stormed across the yard.

When he reached me he bent down eye level. “Why’d you turn your head?” he asked. “You’re supposed to keep your eyes”-he left the cigarette burning in the corner of his mouth and plopped his huge hand down on my head and turned it toward the tee-“in line with your shoulders.” He swung my shoulders around so they squared with where home plate would’ve been.

“Okay.”

“Okay, what?”

“My head won’t turn.”

“Bullshit, it won’t,” he said. He took the cigarette out of his mouth and blew smoke in my face.

“What if that glass gets in my eyes?”

He put a finger under my chin and turned my face so that he looked right at me. “Then close them,” he said. “That bottle’s there whether you can see it or not.”

Another six-pack had been busted off the tee before the screen door on the porch slammed shut behind me. My mother sat on the sofa in the living room, folding laundry and watching soap operas with the sound turned all the way down. “What was all that noise out there?” she asked. She looked up and saw me and dropped whatever she’d been folding. “What in the world did you do?” She jumped up off the sofa and took my hand and pulled me down the hallway toward the bathroom.

She sat me up on the counter and used peroxide and cotton balls to clean the blood while my eyes stared at her in the mirror before they closed to picture those bottles exploding. Even with my eyes closed my body could sense every move her hands made, every time she’d stop and reach for the peroxide, each part of my face or my arms those wet cotton balls were about to touch. When my eyes opened again, the streaks of blood were gone and the counter was covered in pink cotton.

My mother looked at me in the mirror like she was studying my face to make sure she’d gotten all the blood off. She sighed. “I swear,” she said. “Sometimes I think your daddy does meanness just for meanness’s sake.”

But what she’d said wasn’t true-not all of it anyway. My father was trying to teach me something valuable about baseball, maybe even something valuable about life itself, and that is this: anything you want to do well you’d better be able to do with your eyes closed.

The old man’s lesson has stayed in my mind, and it was still there as my eyes opened slowly into the darkness of another Saturday night at Tomcat’s; I scanned the near-empty room from the last seat at the far end of the bar: two middle-aged men with wedding rings on sitting at one table, watching as a tanning-bed blonde-too old to be moving how she was moving on the dance floor-made eye contact and tried to squeeze them for another drink; three local boys from either Belmont or Stanley knocking back Budweisers and screaming at the television where the highlights of the Carolina Panthers’ final preseason game played on the TVs over the bar; Guns N’ Roses’ “Sweet Child o’ Mine” blasting from the speakers in the ceiling. It was a pretty regular Saturday night.

Different story in the Boss’s office.

He’d come in a few minutes before eleven with his two cousins, Rick and Eddie, and gone straight back to the office and slammed the door, but not before Eddie stopped by the bar and picked up a couple of Bud Lights and a Dewar’s on the rocks.

For the next couple of hours the Boss could be heard from his office during the breaks between songs, even though his door was closed, even though the bar hummed with people’s voices and the sound from the TVs. Somebody’d been banging something against the inside of the office door; earlier it sounded like a file cabinet had been overturned. Every now and then a “shit” or a “bastard” came from that end of the hallway. He’d never acted like this during my two-month stint at the door.

A shaft of light from the office shot down the hallway before disappearing. Rick walked toward the bar; even in the near dark of the club his forehead looked to be sweating and his face seemed pale. He picked up a cocktail napkin from the bar and took off his glasses and wiped his face. My nose caught a whiff; what had looked like sweat was actually whiskey.

He caught me staring at him. “How in the hell can you see with those sunglasses on?” he asked. He balled up the cocktail napkin and tossed it on the bar.

“What’s up with all the noise back there?”

“That’s the sound of the shit hitting the fan,” he said.

“Something happen?”

“Yeah,” he said. “You could say that. You could definitely say that.” He picked up another napkin and wiped his face. “Why are you asking?”

“It gets boring out here.”

“Lucky you,” he said. He sighed, and then he took his glasses off and rubbed his eyes. He put them back on and looked up at the television. “Somebody stole something from the Boss,” he finally said. “Something they definitely shouldn’t have stolen.”

“What was it?”

The television reflected in Rick’s glasses: a preview of McGwire’s Sunday game against the Braves. Rick stood frozen, staring up at the screen. “You played baseball, didn’t you, Pruitt?”

“Yes.”

“Does the name Wade Chesterfield ring a bell?”

“Maybe.” The skin tickled around my nostrils. A wipe at my nose left a faint smear of blood across the back of my hand.

“If you know where to find Chesterfield, then you should tell the Boss.” Rick nodded toward the office. “The Boss might want you to ‘talk’ to him.” He used his fingers to make quotation marks in the air. “Know what I mean?” He stepped back and looked at me. “Seriously,” he said, nodding toward the office again. “Go talk to him.”

Rick opened the door and walked into the parking lot. The floodlights showed rain dotting the windshields on the cars parked out front. On the other side of the bar the Boss’s office sat at the end of the hallway it shared with the restrooms. The strip of light beneath the door vibrated like something was being thrown against it.

No one answered after the first knock. After the second knock the Boss’s voice boomed from inside. “What?!” he screamed.

“It’s Pruitt.”

“Now ain’t the time,” he said. “Ask Ducky at the bar to take care of it. He’s not doing anything.”

“This ain’t about the club. It’s about Wade Chesterfield.” A second later the lock popped on the door and fluorescent light spilled into the hallway.

“Well, come on in,” the Boss’s voice said.

The office light was near blinding after the darkness of the club. To the right of the door, a file cabinet leaned at an angle against the wall, the drawers hanging open, files scattered on the floor below. The desk near the back wall had been cleared, and papers and broken picture frames covered the floor on either side of it. The Boss sat at his desk like nothing had happened, his boots-fancy embroidered cowboy boots the color of stained red cherry-were up on his desk and crossed at the ankles. His black hair and goatee were so dark it was obvious he dyed both. His cousin Eddie sat in a folding chair, leaning up against the wall, his arms across his chest, a fresh hole the size of the Boss’s fist in the paneling behind his head. Eddie lifted a hand and pushed his cowlick down on his forehead. Then he combed his fingers through his thin mustache.

“What’s up, Pruitt?” the Boss asked.

“Heard you’re looking for Wade Chesterfield.”

“You know where he is?” He pointed to Eddie. “Because my asshole cousin has been looking for him since yesterday, and guess what?” He turned up his palms and shrugged his shoulders. “Nothing,” he said. “So, what can you do?”