Robert Ferrigno - Prayers for the assassin

Sarah was still sleeping, one arm cocked under her head. He could see the pulse beating in her throat and wondered if she was dreaming about her mother.

At times, walking through a crowd, Rakkim would hear a woman laugh, and it was his mother’s laugh. He would find himself wondering if she wasn’t really in New York when the bomb went off. Wondering if maybe she was outside the city that day. He imagined her adrift after the attack, the communications grid crashed, lost on the opposite side of the country. Better to be lost than to be dead. She could still laugh if she was lost.

Sarah stirred. He wanted to curl into bed beside her. Instead he went over to the box of journals and started reading.

Angelina answered her phone on the first ring. A throwaway phone, bought an hour ago. Untraceable. Hopefully. Her heart fluttered in her chest like a white dove. “Y-yes?”

“What’s wrong? Is Sarah all right?”

Angelina forced herself to catch her breath. Katherine had responded to her posting quickly-she must have been monitoring the message site they used to make contact. Or she had set up some automatic alert. Angelina never asked. The less she knew…Sometimes weeks would pass before Katherine responded. Months. Years.

“Angelina?” There was the familiar echo in Katherine’s voice, the signal routed back and forth to disguise its point of origin. “Has something happened to Sarah?”

“No, there’s no word yet.”

“Don’t scare me like that.”

It would have been easier if Katherine had given Sarah the means to contact her directly, but Katherine limited such access to Angelina alone. Compartmentalization of information. No exceptions. There were moments, and she always felt guilty afterward, when Angelina thought that if only James Dougan had been as disciplined and cautious as his wife, he would not have been assassinated.

“There was a new imam at dawn prayers this morning…Imam Masiq. One of the disciples of Mullah Ibn Azziz, sent round to the major mosques to deliver their foul sermon. Barely old enough to grow a beard and he lectures us as though we were children.” Angelina ground her teeth. “You should have seen Imam Jenk’s face.” She drew her chador around her as the wind kicked up. “This new imam told us that we have been too tolerant of the Catholics, said they are a viper in our midst and we must be on guard against their apostasy. We were all looking around…I was, at any rate. Most of the faithful were too stunned. Or too fearful.”

“The Black Robes trot out the Catholics whenever the need arises,” said Katherine. “Oxley did the same thing when it suited him. It will pass. We have greater concerns-”

“A monastery outside of Portland was burned to the ground two days ago. A dozen monks were trapped inside while the fire department stood around and watched.”

“Portland has always been a backwater-”

“Yesterday, three churches in Seattle were vandalized. Stained-glass windows broken, altars overturned. This was Seattle, not some fundamentalist backwater.”

Angelina sat on a bench across from a large building site. A skeleton of steel, six stories high and rising. Jackhammers blasted the air. Trucks and concrete mixers rumbled past. Workmen shouted to each other. The noise from the site insured that Angelina and Katherine’s conversation would not be monitored. A tall man on the second floor took off his hard hat, wiped his forehead. Showed off his beautiful red hair. He went back to work with a vengeance, beating on a beam with a large hammer, the muscles of his arms clearly defined as he pounded away. Dust floated in the air, gray and white specks settling on her black chador, but she made no move to brush herself clean.

“Does Redbeard suspect why Sarah left?” asked Katherine.

“I don’t know.”

“What do you think? You’ve been sharing his home for twenty-five years, woman.”

“Redbeard doesn’t reveal himself to me or anyone else,” said Angelina, annoyed at Katherine’s tone. After all these years Katherine still thought of herself as the lady of the house. A place for everyone, and everyone in her place.

“Forgive me, Angelina. I…I get frustrated being so far away. Having to ask you to be my eyes and ears. It’s unfair of me. I’m sorry.”

Angelina let her wait a few seconds before responding. “All I know is that Redbeard is preoccupied. Last night he scraped his spoon on an empty bowl five times before realizing that there was no more soup. He is worried about Sarah, of course, but it’s more than that. He is not well, Katherine. I don’t know what’s wrong with him.”

“What’s wrong with him is what’s wrong with all of us. We’re getting old.”

Angelina clicked her prayer beads. “I still think you should have gone to Redbeard with your suspicions, not Sarah.”

“They are more than suspicions.”

“All the more reason for you to have gone to Redbeard. Sarah is just a girl.”

“You raised her, Angelina. You will always see her as a girl. I didn’t get that privilege.” No hint of reproach was in Katherine’s voice. “Sarah is the daughter of James Dougan. She may be young, but she will do what is required.”

“Redbeard has resources. If you had gone to him, he would have already found out the truth. That’s all I’m saying.”

“Redbeard would have buried the truth and told himself he was only doing his duty. He still believes in the dream of a pure Muslim state.”

“So do I.”

There was a long silence. “You didn’t have to help me, Angelina.”

Angelina worked her prayer beads faster and faster. Click-click-click-click. “How could I not?”

Katherine sighed, and it was so clear that Angelina looked around, expecting to see Katherine standing beside her.

“Be careful, Katherine. Ibn Azziz, he is not of God. The monastery in Portland…it will not be the last to be fed to the flames. We are in for dangerous times.”

“The times have always been dangerous.”

“Not like this.”

“Well, then…we’ll have to pray for each other,” said Katherine, flirty as a debutante. “With two strong and passionate women like us bending his ear, God is going to have to pay attention.”

Dry leaves whipped across the sidewalk, pirouetting in the eddy. In memory, Angelina could still see Katherine moving gracefully through the parties thrown for the new head of State Security and his lovely wife. The republic was still new, fresh with hope, promising peace and tolerance. Katherine had danced with the president, charming him with her lithe femininity, her openness and wit. Much of the political class had been outraged at her lack of deference, suspicious of her conversion, but the president had been smitten by her. Smitten by her husband as well. James Dougan was handsome and forthright, a defender of the nation, ruthless when he needed to be, charitable even when the cameras weren’t on him. They were the golden couple. The hope of a Muslim future.

It had been a glorious time. Angelina had been hired to help care for the new baby. Sarah had been a sickly child, not a rarity in those early days, not even for the powerful. The baby had blossomed under Angelina’s care, grown fat, with a squall to match. Redbeard had been a constant guest at the villa, the gruff but doting uncle, a fierce, driven man. Angelina had to fight to keep her eyes off him. At times she felt his eyes on her too, but his eyes never lingered on her when Katherine was in the room. Who could blame him? Bright days filled with promise. Ended suddenly. James Dougan murdered. Redbeard wounded. Katherine fleeing after a hasty call to Angelina. Katherine barely controlling her hysteria and grief, begging Angelina to stay with Sarah. Begging her to tell her how much she loved her. Katherine immune from Angelina’s pleadings. Insisting that she had to go. She had a responsibility to her husband. Greater than your responsibility to your child? Angelina had demanded. Yes. The pain in Katherine’s voice…Angelina had never heard anything like it. Yes, greater even than that.