Mariah Stewart - Cry Mercy

She tried to smile, but was having a hard time pulling it off.

“You have to stay around at least long enough to help me put together a memorial service for Belinda, but I'm hoping you'll stay longer than that.”

Before she could reply, the door flew open and Chloe blew in.

“Oh, yay! You're awake. Trula said it's time for dinner and we're all going to eat together in the big dining room.” She turned to Nick. “Robert's dining room has a fireplace. And a secret panel. Father Kevin showed me. Wanna see?”

“I do. I always wanted to see what was behind a secret panel.” Nick squeezed Emme's hands and stood. “We'll wait for you downstairs, Em.”

Emme nodded and watched Chloe drag Nick from the room. The gods must be having a fine laugh at my expense , she thought. All my life, I've been searching for what I've found here. Friends, a sense of belonging-and Nick… well, he's the man I always hoped I'd find . The thought of leaving was almost too painful to bear.

She exhaled and swung her legs over the side of the bed and slipped her feet into her sandals. She needed a few minutes to splash some water on her face and compose herself, and then it would be time to face the music.

She was unprepared for what waited for her downstairs.

Robert had opened several bottles of champagne, and when Emme came into the kitchen, he was proposing a toast to Belinda's memory.

“Ah, you're just in time,” he told her. “We're remembering Belinda. Well, Nick is remembering her, and sharing some of her with the rest of us.”

Trula handed her a flute.

“She was a pretty happy kid,” Nick said. “It's good to think about that right now, to look back on the good times.”

“That's important.” Trula patted him on the arm. “You need to think about the good times. It doesn't make the loss less painful-only time can take away some of the sting-but the good memories will keep her alive for you.”

“I'll drink to that.” Kevin drained his glass. Robert offered a refill, but he declined. “I have a meeting in about an hour at the church,” he said.

“Since when do you have meetings on Saturday nights?” Robert asked.

“Since something came up that I would like to discuss with a member of my parish.” Kevin put his glass on the counter and turned to Trula. “What can I take in to the dining room for you?”

“Everything's already there. We just all need to-”

“Wait a minute,” Emme said. “I feel like the nine-hundred-pound elephant in the room, and all you can think about is eating.”

She looked from one face to the other.

“Do you really think I can sit down to dinner with you all, then turn in my cell phone and leave?”

“You're not leaving, Emme.” Robert put his glass down. “We understand that you did what you did because you felt you had no choice.” He glanced across the room at Chloe. “We all agreed that given those circumstances, each of us probably would have done the same thing.”

Emme turned to Mallory. “Is that how you feel?”

With some apparent reluctance, Mallory nodded. “I don't like it, but Robert's right. I don't know that I wouldn't have done the same thing. And you are exactly what you said you were. A good investigator. I don't know that I've worked with better.”

“I don't know what to say,” Emme told them. “I was so sure that-”

“Not another word,” Trula said. “Dinner's getting cold. If you want to discuss this any more, you're going to have to do it over pot roast.”

“Trula has spoken.” Robert grabbed a bottle of wine from the counter and began to usher everyone toward the door.

“I'm afraid I can't stick around for the celebratory dinner, Emme.” Susanna swung her bag over her shoulder. “I'm afraid I have another commitment. But I'm delighted that you're on board with us. I think you're a real asset.”

“Thank you, Suse,” Emme said, and hugged her before she left.

“I'll see you all on Monday,” Susanna called to the others before leaving by the back door.

“Where does she go when she takes off like that?” Emme heard Mallory whisper to Trula, who shook her head and whispered back, “Beats the devil out of me.”

She'd already missed the entire day, but Susanna had planned ahead. When she wasn't waiting for Emme to return, she was in meetings talking about Emme or listening to someone else talk about Emme. She was relieved when the vote was taken and everyone-even Mallory-agreed that Emme deserved a place on the staff. The time between meetings was spent on her computer, studying topographic maps and eliminating roads she'd already traveled. There were some she'd driven early on that she thought perhaps she hadn't investigated far enough the first time. Before she crossed them off for good, she needed to be certain. One road in particular had stayed in her memory. It had wound around and around a mountain on a narrow path, but had been navigable. Something she'd noticed on one of the maps she'd downloaded, however, seemed to indicate hairpin turns, the two lanes very tight. She'd drive much of the night to get to her destination, but she didn't really mind. She knew that someday she would find the place where Beth Magellan's car had been hidden all these many months-if not this weekend, then possibly another.

Susanna had asked herself a hundred times how much longer she'd make these trips, how many more weekends she'd spend driving alone on side roads, peering down ravines and checking guard rails for scrapes of brown paint that would match the color of the Jeep that Beth had been driving that day. She hated to admit how obsessed she'd become, but that was the truth of it. There would be no peace for Robert until the Jeep was found, so finding the car was the key for both of them.

In some ways, the trips were a comfort to her. She was doing something for the man she loved, and with luck, someday he'd understand just how much of herself had gone into these journeys. She wasn't unaware of the risk involved, of course. She knew it was possible that she'd discover what had happened to his wife and he'd still see her as his best friend, nothing more. But she clung to the hope that once the truth was known, once he knew for certain that Beth had left this life, when he looked for love again, maybe someday he'd look to her.

Susanna was smart enough to know that the odds might not be in her favor, but they were the only odds she had. She would look until she found, and then the next act would begin. She didn't know how the play would end, but she would see it through.

Needle in a haystack time.

Susanna took the exit from the turnpike Beth Magellan was believed to have taken the morning she disappeared. There'd been an accident eastbound between two exits that had resulted in the first one being closed and all the traffic diverted. Beth may have been one of the first cars to encounter the detour after the road was blocked off, and may have been directed off the turnpike before all of the detour signs had been put in place. That would have left Beth to figure out on her own how to find her way back to the turnpike with some twenty miles between where she got off and where she should have gotten back on.

Over the past two years, Susanna had considered most of the possibilities and traveled most of the roads that would have been the most logical choices, as had the state police and the private investigators Robert had hired. But Susanna figured she had one advantage over all of them: She'd known Beth fairly well for several years, knew how the woman thought.

The scenario that played out in Suse's mind had Beth finding herself in a line of traffic that was not moving. She'd have been in a hurry to get home. Maybe Ian was fussing in the backseat, maybe she was frustrated at not having her phone with her. She was always talking to someone when she was driving. It was the one thing Robert consistently criticized her for.