Jeffery Deaver - The Devil's Teardrop

Parker glanced at the clock. Quarter to eight. Fifteen minutes until-

No, don't think about that now.

He asked his son, "You have your shield?"

"Right here."

"Me too."

He picked up the book and began to read once more.

Margaret Lukas looked over the families at the Ritz-Carlton Hotel.

She and Cage stood in the main entrance, where hundreds of people were gathering for parties and dinner. Lukas was wearing a navy-blue suit she'd designed and made herself. It was cut close to her body, made from expensive worsted wool, and it had a long, pleated skirt. She'd cut a special dart in the jacket to make certain that the Clock 10 on her hip did not ruin the stylish lines of the outfit. It would be perfect for the opera or a fancy restaurant but, as it happened, she had worn it only to weddings and funerals. She called it her married-buried suit.

Fifteen minutes until eight.

"Nothing, Margaret," came the gruff voice in her headset. C. P. Ardell's. He was downstairs at one entrance to the Ritz, the parking garage, pretending to be a slightly drunk holiday reveler. The big agent wore a considerably more mundane costume than Lukas's-stained jeans and a black leather bikers jacket. On his head was a Redskins hat, which he wore not because of the cold but because he had no hair to obscure the earphone wire of his radio. There were an additional sixty-five plainclothes agents in and around the hotel, armed with more weaponry than you'd find at an El Paso gun show.

All looking for a man for whom they had virtually no description.

Probably white, probably average build.

Probably wearing a gold crucifix.

In the lobby Lukas and Cage scanned the guests, the bellhops, the clerks. Nobody came close to matching their fragile description of the Digger. She realized they were standing with their arms crossed, looking just like well-dressed federal agents on stakeout.

"Say something amusing," she whispered.

"What?" Cage asked.

"We're sticking out. Pretend we're talking."

"Okay," Cage said, smiling broadly. "So whatta you think of Kincaid?"

The question threw her. "Kincaid? What do you mean?"

"I'm making conversation." A shrug. "Whatta you think of him?"

"I don't know."

"Sure you do," Cage persisted.

"He's perp smart, not street smart."

This time Cage's shrug was one of concession. "That's good. I like that." He said nothing more for a moment.

"What're you getting at?" she asked.

"Nothing. I'm not getting at anything. We're pretending to talk is all."

Good, she thought.

Focus…

They studied a dozen other possible suspects. She dismissed them for reasons she knew instinctively but couldn't explain.

Street smart…

A moment later Cage said, "He's a good man. Kincaid."

"I know. He's been very helpful."

Cage laughed in the surprised way of his-the way that meant: I'm on to you. He repeated, "Helpful."

More silence.

Cage said, "He lost his parents just after college. Then there was that custody battle a few years ago. Wife was psycho."

"That's hard," she said and made a foray into the crowd. She brushed up against a guest with a suspicious bulge under his arm. She recognized a cell phone immediately and returned to Cage. Found herself asking impulsively, "What happened? With his folks?"

"Car accident. One of those crazy things. His mother'd just been diagnosed with cancer and it looked like they caught it in time. But they got nailed by a truck on Ninety-five on the way to Johns Hopkins for chemo. Dad was a professor. Met him a couple times. Nice guy."

"Was he?" she muttered, distracted again.

"History."

"What?"

"That's what Kincaid's dad taught. History."

More silence.

Lukas finally said, "I just need some phony conversation, Cage, not matchmaking."

He responded, "Am I doing that? Would I do that? I'm only saying you don't meet a lot of people like Kincaid."

"Uh-huh. We've got to stay focused here, Cage."

"I'm focused. You're focused. He doesn't know why you're pissed at him."

"Very simple. He wasn't being part of the team. I told him that. We settled it. End of story."

"He's decent," Cage offered. "A stand-up guy. And he's smart-his mind's a weird thing. You should see him with those puzzles of his."

"Yeah. I'm sure he's great."

Focus.

But she wasn't focusing. She was thinking about Kincaid.

So he had his own capital I Incidents-deaths and divorce. A hard wife and a struggle to raise the children by himself. That explained some of what she'd seen before.

Kincaid…

And thinking about him, the document examiner, she thought again about the postcard.

Joeys postcard.

On the trip from which they'd never returned, Tom and Joey had been visiting her in-laws in Ohio. It was just before Thanksgiving. Her six-year-old son had mailed her a postcard from the airport before they boarded the doomed plane. Probably not a half hour before the 737 had crashed into the icy field.

But the boy hadn't known you needed a stamp to mail postcards. He must have slipped it into the mailbox before his father knew what he was doing.

It arrived a week after the funeral. Postage due. She'd paid for it and for the next three hours carefully peeled off the Postal Service sticker that had covered up part of her son's writing.

Were having fun mommy. Granma and I made cookys

I miss you. I love you mommy…

A card from the ghost of her son.

It was in her purse right now, the gaudy picture of a sunset in the Midwest. Her wedding ring was stored in her jewelry box but this card she kept with her all the time and would until she died.

Six months after the crash Lukas had taken a copy of the card to a graphoanalyst and had her son's handwriting analyzed.

The woman had said, "Whoever wrote this is creative and charming. He'll grow up to be a handsome man. And brilliant, with no patience for deception. He also has a great capacity for love. You're a very lucky woman to have a son like this."

For ten dollars more the graphoanalyst had tape-recorded her comments. Lukas listened to the tape every few weeks. She'd sit by herself in her dark living room, put a candle on, have a drink-or two-and listen to what her son would have been like.

Then Parker Kincaid shows up at FBI headquarters and announces with that know-all voice of his that graphoanalysis is nonsense.

People read tarot cards too and talk to their dear departed. It's bogus.

It's not! she now raged to herself. She believed what the graphoanalyst had told her.

She had to. Otherwise she'd go insane.

It's as if you lose a part of your mind when you have children. They steal it and you never get it back… Sometimes I'm amazed that parents can function at all.

Dr. Evans's observation. She hadn't let on at the time but she knew it was completely true.

And here was Cage trying to set her up. So, she and Kincaid were similar. They were smart (and, yes, arrogant). They were both missing parts of their lives. They both had their protective walls-his to keep the danger out, hers to keep herself from retreating inside, where the worst danger lay. Yet the same instincts that made her a good cop told her-for no reason that she could articulate-that there was no future between them. She had returned to a "normal" life as much as she ever could. She had her dog, Jean Luc. She had some friends. She had her CDs. Her runners' club. Her sewing. But Margaret Lukas was emotionally "plateaued," to use the Bureau term for an agent no longer destined for advancement.

No, she knew she'd never see Parker Kincaid after tonight. And that was perfectly all right-