Stephen King - Dreamcatcher

(whose little girl, whose little girl, pretty Becky Shue)

caught in it. The rest were voices he knew, or voices his friends knew. One was a voice Jonesy had told him about, a voice he’d heard after his accident and associated with all his pain: Please stop, I can’t stand it, give me a shot, where’s Marcy.

He heard Beaver’s voice: Go look in the chamber pot.

Jonesy, answering: Why don’t we just knock on the bathroom door and ask him how he is?

A stranger’s voice saying that if he could just do a number two he’d be okay…

… only he was no stranger, he was Rick, pretty Becky’s friend Rick. Rick what? McCarthy? McKinley? McKeen? Henry wasn’t sure, but he leaned toward McCarthy, like Kevin McCarthy in that old horror movie about the pods from space that made themselves look like people. One of Jonesy’s raves. Get a few drinks in him and mention that movie and Jonesy would respond

with the key line at once: “ They’re here! They’re here!”

The woman, looking up at the sky and screaming They’re back, they’re back .

Dear Christ, there’d been nothing like this since they were kids and this was worse, like picking up a power-line filled with voices instead of electricity.

All those patients over the years, complaining of voices in their heads. And Henry, the big psychiatrist (Young Mr God, one state hospital patient called him back in the early days), had nodded as if he knew what they were talking about. Had in fact believed he did know what they were talking about. But maybe only now did he really know.

Voices. Listening to them so hard he missed the whup-whup-whup of the helicopter passing overhead, a dark rushing shark-shape barely obscured by the bottoms of the clouds. Then the voices began to fade as radio signals from faraway places do when daylight comes and the atmosphere once more begins to thicken. At last there was only the voice of his own thoughts, insisting that something terrible had happened or was about to happen at Hole in the Wall; that something equally terrible was about to happen or had happened back there at the Scout or the loggers” shelter.

Five more miles. Five more miles.

In an effort to turn his mind away from his friend behind and his friends ahead, or what might be happening all around him, he let his mind go to where he knew Pete’s mind had already gone: to 1978, and Tracker Brothers, and to Duddits. How Duddits Cavell could have anything to do with this fuckarow Henry didn’t understand, but they had all been thinking about him, and Henry didn’t even need that old mental connection to know it. Pete had mentioned Duds while they were dragging the woman to the loggers” shelter on that piece of tarp, Beaver had been talking about Duddits Just the other day when Henry and the Beav had been in the woods together-the day Henry had tagged his deer, that had been, The Beav reminiscing about how the four of them had taken Duddits Christmas shopping in Bangor one year. just after Jonesy had gotten his license that was; Jonesy would have driven anyone anywhere that winter. The Beav laughing about how Duddits had worried Santa Claus wasn’t real, and all four of them-big high-school galoots by then, thinking they had the world by the tail-working to reconvince Duddits that Santa was a true thing, the real deal. Which of course they’d done. And Jonesy had called Henry from Brookline Just last month, drunk (drunkenness was much rarer for Jonesy, especially since his accident, than it was for Pete, and it was the only maudlin call Henry had ever gotten from the man), saying that he’d never done anything in his life that was as good, as plain and simple baldass fine , as what they had done for poor old Duddits Cavell back in 1978. That was our finest hour , Jonesy had said on the phone, and with a nasty jolt, Henry realized he had told Pete exactly the same thing. Duddits, man. Fucking Duds.

Five more miles… or maybe four. Five more miles… or maybe four.

They had been going to see a picture of a girl’s pussy, the picture supposedly tacked up on the bulletin board of some deserted office. Henry couldn’t remember the girl’s name, not after all these years, only that she’d been that prick Grenadeau’s girlfriend and the 1978 Homecoming Queen at Derry High. Those things had made the prospect of seeing her pussy especially interesting. And then, just as they got to the driveway, they had seen a discarded red-and-white Derry Tigers shirt. And a little way down the driveway there had been something else.

I hate that fuckin show, they never change their clothes , Pete had said, and Henry opened his mouth to reply, only before he could…

“The kiddo screamed,” Henry said. He slipped in the snow, tottered for a moment, then ran on again, remembering that October day under that white sky. He ran on remembering Duddits. How Duddits had screamed and changed all their lives. For the better, they had always assumed, but now Henry wondered.

Right now he wondered very much.

When they get to the driveway-not much of a driveway, weeds are growing even in the gravelly wheelruts now-Beaver is in the lead. Beaver is, indeed, almost foaming at the jaws. Henry guesses that Pete is nearly as wrought-up, but Pete is holding it in better, even though he’s a year younger. Beaver is… what’s the word? Agog. Henry almost laughs at the aptness of it, and then the Beav stops so suddenly Pete almost runs into him.

“Hey!” Beaver says. “Fuck me Freddy! Some kid’s shirt!”

It is indeed. Red and white, and not old and dirty, as if it had been there a thousand years. In fact, it looks almost new.

“Shirt, schmirt, who gives a shit?” Jonesy wants to know.

“Let’s just-”

“Hold your horses,” the Beav says. “This is a good shirt.” Except when he picks it up, they see that it isn’t. New, yes a brand-new Derry Tigers shirt, with 19 on the back. Pete doesn’t give a shit for football, but the rest of them recognize it as Richie Grenadeau’s number. Good, no-not anymore. It’s ripped deeply at the back collar, as if the person wearing it had tried to run away, then been grabbed and hauled back.

“Guess I was wrong,” the Beav says sadly, and drops it again. “Come on.”

But before they get very far, they come across something else-this time it’s yellow instead of red, that bright yellow plastic only a kid could love. Henry trots ahead of the others and picks it up. It’s a lunchbox with Scooby-Doo and his friends on it, all of them running from what appears to be a haunted house. Like the shirt it looks new, not anything that’s been lying out here for any length of time, and all at once Henry is starting to have a bad feeling about this, starting to wish they hadn’t detoured into this deserted driveway by this deserted building at all… or at least had saved it for another day. Which, even at fourteen, he realizes is stupid. When it comes to pussy, he thinks, you either go or you don 9 t, there’s no such thing as saving it for another day.

“I hate that fuckin show, Pete says, looking over Henry’s shoulder at the lunchbox. “They never change their clothes, did you ever notice that? Wear the same fuckin thing, show in and show out.”

Jonesy takes the Scooby-Doo lunchbox from Henry and turns it to look at something he’s seen pasted on the end. The wild look has gone out of Jonesy’s eyes, he’s frowning slightly, and Henry has an idea Jonesy is also wishing they’d just gone on and played some two-on-two.

The sticker on the side reads: I BELONG TO DOUGLAS CAVELL, 19 MAPLE LANE, DERRY, MAINE. IF THE BOY I BELONG TO IS LOST, CALL 949-1864. THANKS!

Henry opens his mouth to say the lunchbox and the shirt must belong to a kid who goes to The Retard Academy-he’s sure of it just looking at the sticker, which is almost like the tag their fucking dog wears-but before he can, there is a scream from the far side of the building, over where the big kids play baseball in the summer. It’s full of hurt, that scream, but what starts Henry running before he can even think about it is the surprise in it, the awful surprise of someone who has been hurt or scared (or both) for the very first time.