Rene Gutteridge - Listen

No response.

Damien took the other shoulder and tried to turn him over. It took three tries, but he finally rolled him. A cell phone dropped to the carpet. It had been in his hand. Damien picked it up. On the screen it said 911. Damien grabbed the phone and put it to his ear. “Officer down! Please send help!”

“Sir, we have help on the way. He called us but went unconscious. What is his condition now?”

“It’s Frank Merret.” The name sounded like he was saying it in slow motion. Blood seeped out of Frank’s chest. “He’s been shot!” Damien threw off his jacket. He put a gloved hand over the wound.

“Is he breathing?”

He put an ear to Frank’s mouth. “I don’t know! I can’t tell! He’s still unconscious!”

“We’re on the way. Stay on the line with me.”

Suddenly Frank moaned and opened his eyes. His pupils looked very big, and his eyes rolled back in his head over and over.

“Frank, Frank! It’s me. I’m here. Hang in there, buddy, please. Okay? Help is on the way.”

Frank’s dim eyes focused on Damien. He opened his mouth, and Damien heard a gurgling sound.

“Don’t talk. Just… just stay calm.” Damien shook so badly he could barely hold his hand in place on the wound or the phone up to his ear. “He’s been shot,” he said again into the phone.

Distantly, the first sirens approached. The 911 operator’s voice faded in and out. Something about putting pressure on the wound.

Frank stared up at him, his skin pale, almost gray. He whispered something. Damien couldn’t hear, so he bent down, putting his ear to Frank’s mouth.

“I can’t move… can’t feel any…” More gurgling.

“Okay, buddy. You’re not in pain?”

“No,” he whispered. Then he mumbled something again. Damien put his ear back to Frank’s lips. “She’s worth fighting for…”

Damien looked at him again. In the midst of frail, glossy eyes, life sparkled and flickered like a struggling flame.

“Angela? Okay, yes. Hang in there. You’ve got way more hang-ups to overcome.”

“Don’t give up… She’s worth it… Fight for her… She has worth…” Frank’s eyes rolled back in his head again, and his body convulsed.

“Not me, Frank!” Damien shouted, tapping his face. “Not me, you! You have to fight. Don’t give up!” Damien pressed the cell phone to his ear. “Where are they? I’m losing him! I’m losing him!”

He knew where they were. He could hear the haunting wail of the sirens just outside the door and the abrupt end to them as they parked. Voices outside.

“Hurry!” Damien shouted. He grabbed Frank by the shoulders. “Frank! Don’t do this, man! Don’t leave me! Hang in there! Who did this to you?”

Frank’s eyes closed. “Take care of-”

Footsteps behind him, then heavy hands, standing him up and backing him away. EMTs and firefighters swarmed around Frank to the point that Damien could only see his fingers twitching against the carpet.

Damien moved, trying to see what was happening. “He’s been shot! He can’t move his legs or his arms!”

A small gap gave Damien a glimpse of Frank. Two EMTs were sliding an orange board underneath him. Another was squeezing a bag off the mask they’d put over his mouth. Within seconds, Frank was on the stretcher and they pulled it to waist height. An EMT crawled on top of Frank, pressing his palms against his chest.

The stretcher was whisked out. Damien hurried after it, watching them load Frank into the ambulance. Three police cars circled the street. Damien rushed toward the back doors of the ambulance, intending to climb in, but the doors were slammed shut and the ambulance rolled forward, its sirens blaring against the brick walls of the complex.

Damien stood there, staring at his bloody right hand. The phone was still in his other hand. He tried to dial Kay’s number, but the phone fell and the battery popped out and onto the sidewalk next to his foot.

Nearby Captain Grayson got out of a dark sedan, frantically motioning for Damien to get in the car.

“Damien, what did you see?”

“Nothing. I got there; Frank was on the floor.”

“Nobody else?”

“No one but me.”

“And you received the text from Frank this morning.”

“Yes. It was very jumbled, but we read it as Help me. Angela’s house.”

“So you went right over?”

“Yes. I didn’t think anything was really wrong. I didn’t know where Angela’s apartment was exactly. I saw the truck, then saw the apartment door open. I knocked and saw him.”

“I need to tell you something.”

“What?”

“We’ve been internally investigating Frank for about four days now.”

“Why?”

“The Web site.”

“What about it?”

“We came across some information that led us to suspect that Frank might be involved.”

“That’s ridiculous.”

“I know this is hard to hear.”

“It’s not hard to hear. It’s ridiculous.”

“Did you know that Frank has a sister?”

“Frank doesn’t have any family. His parents died years ago, and he has no siblings.”

“He does have a sibling. Her name is Meredith. She’s in an adult home a few miles from here in Camden, where they grew up.”

“I don’t understand what you’re saying.”

“We’re just now putting the pieces together, having just learned it ourselves. But apparently she tried to commit suicide when she was twenty. Frank walked into the garage and found her and cut her down. She was alive, but her brain lacked oxygen for too long, and she’s been in a vegetative state all these years.”

“I don’t understand what this has to do with anything.”

“Meredith attempted suicide after she overheard a conversation. Two friends went into a room at her house, said some horrible stuff about her, not knowing there was a baby monitor in the room. She heard all of it. Three days later she hung herself.”

“How do you know this?”

“His ex-wife told us.”

Damien pushed the conversation from the night before out of his head and walked without breaking pace down the softly lit hallway, took a right, and found himself in a small, black room carpeted from floor to ceiling. Against the back wall was the casket, gaping open like a mouth.

He wished he could stop playing the conversation in his head, but it was relentless, like a fly darting around his face that he couldn’t ever quite shoo away. He focused on the elevator music in the background. For once it was actually welcomed.

Frank looked peaceful. Damien stepped closer, within a few inches of the casket. At first he studied the plump, fragrant flowers set on the floor on either side of the casket. But then slowly, he made himself look.

Frank in a suit made him smile. Damien had made the decision, mostly because Frank was always uncomfortable in his uniform. Called it “ill-fitting.” But he was equally uncomfortable in a suit. Said they never looked right on him. But Kay had convinced him that if Frank had to choose, he’d choose the suit. He had only one in his closet, so that made it easy.

His badge stuck out of his pocket. And beside him was his cell phone. Damien smiled again, but this time the smile couldn’t stop the tears, and he found himself laughing and crying all at once.

That guy loved his iPhone.

A few other medals were put into the casket too. Frank didn’t have much hair to fix, but what he did have was slicked down like he would never wear it. Also, his cheeks were kind of pink, and Frank never had a hint of pink on any part of him.

Still, he looked like he was resting, as if he’d fallen asleep during a Sunday afternoon football game. His hands were folded over his belly as if he’d just eaten a big bowl of chili.