Chris Jordan - Torn

Really, it’s more than I can stand to think about, because if I think about that I’ll start obsessing on where Noah is this very instant, what they’ve done to him, are doing to him. And that way lies insanity. So I fire up my iMac-Jed preferred that operating system for some reason-and resume my search for Irene Delancey, the teacher Noah had such a crush on.

I shouldn’t blame her for quitting, but I do. No doubt some of it was guilt on her part. She was the only teacher in the school to lose one of her students, and it couldn’t have been easy, dealing with the boy’s bereft mother. Not that I ever blamed her for what happened. She said he was there when she gathered up the kids and led them out through the smoke and that somehow he vanished between the seats and the exit door, and I believed her. It was panicked and crazy in there, losing track of a child in the blinding smoke would have been so easy. But in those first few days after the blast, when I saw quite a bit of her and the other children, she seemed to have withdrawn, tightened up somehow. She avoided looking me in the eye, as if one look would pass on the madness of grief. As if she didn’t dare make contact, couldn’t bear to deal with the raw emotions, or with me.

And then she was gone. Resigned: trauma and stress. No forwarding address left with the school district. No word left with her fellow teachers, or any of the parents, including me. She and her husband just packed up and split. Through various search engines I’d been able to find a few references to Michael Delancey, a day trader who worked from his home office. Until their move to Humble he’d been employed by a Wall Street firm, belonged to a couple of professional organizations, and since Irene wasn’t popping up anywhere new, I’d been concentrating on the husband. My assumption being that he’d keep in contact with his investment banker cronies. So far no joy there-most of my inquiries were ignored, a few were downright rude because the recipient assumed I was a phisher, trolling for salable numbers, bank accounts and so on. One flaming response had accused me of being some “puffy geek in his pajamas, pretending to be a bereaved parent so he can steal someone else’s hard-earned money” and threatened to report me to the FBI. I responded by begging him to report me, hoping the FBI would take an interest. That’s before I found Randall Shane mentioned on a missing-kid Web site-a mom raving about how he’d done the impossible-and located his phone number in the White Pages. Before things finally began looking up.

I don’t blame Irene Delancey for what happened, truly I don’t, but I do have a few questions. Some of the kids in Noah’s class seem to think he’d slipped beneath the seats and wasn’t with the group when she led them out through the smoke. If so, why didn’t she mention that to me or the various detectives investigating the crime scene? Was she ashamed, guilty, what? Or did she witness something that frightened her even more than a crazed, gun-waving lunatic? Something going down that made her want to run away and forget she’d ever been here?

That kind of question. But first I had to find her. She didn’t strike me as the type who would be comfortable or even capable of changing her identity-not like Jedediah, for instance-so some trace of her had to be out there somewhere. New vehicular registration, new phone number, new credit application, something. Trouble is, it’s only been six weeks and some of this stuff takes months to get on a database, so for now Irene Delancey is a phantom, there but not there.

Still, it gives me something to do, a project I can handle on my own. A point of focus that insulates me from the anxiety of waiting on Randall Shane. Who says he’ll be back in a day, two at the most.

I really and truly believe him, I do, I do. If Noah can be found, he’ll find him. Cling to that. Own it.

When the phone trills, cell not the landline, I’m sure it’s Shane.

“Yes?”

“Haley Corbin?” asks an unfamiliar voice.

“Yes, who is this?”

“Um, I’m, ah, not sure I should give you my name,” says a young male, practically stammering. “But it’s about your kid. What I saw.”

He has all of my attention.

Shane waits on the curb, eyeballing the traffic on Route 29 in Fairfax City, Virginia. On the lookout for a Diamond cab conveying his late lunch date from the district. Late and getting later every minute that passes. Probably gridlock in the capitol, road construction, maybe even a presidential motorcade. If he had a lick of sense he’d have skipped the nostalgia trip and arranged to meet closer to where she worked. Some trendy latte café or maybe the Willard, she always liked the Willard.

“Hey, handsome, looking for a good time?”

Shane jerks around, finds her standing behind him, grinning.

“Cabbie made a wrong turn,” she says. “So I walked a block or two.”

“Maggie! My God, what happened!”

Maggie Drew, ten years his senior, lifts her fragile, damaged hands and executes a pirouette, showing off her slender legs. “Amazing, huh? Look, Ma, no canes. No limp. No pain.”

Shane stares and stammers. He’s never seen her so healthy, so mobile. “It’s…it’s a miracle,” he says, believing it.

She giggles. “Oh yeah. I crawled the last mile at Lourdes.”

“No,” he says, fighting to contain his astonishment.

“Okay, ya got me. It wasn’t Lourdes. It’s a miracle of modern medicine.”

“What happened?”

“Buy me lunch, I’ll tell you all about it.”

She links arms, a bit awkward because of the difference in height, and he walks her to the diner. She remarks that it has been years, and it has. Too long. Back when he’d been active with the Bureau, he and Maggie Drew had been a pair. She, limping around on two canes, determinedly cheerful; Shane, a devotee of her brilliant mind, her caustic sense of humor, her insights into human behavior. Maggie a civvie, Shane an SA without portfolio, drifting from one posting to another, a bit of a lone wolf. Maggie joked about being his work spouse, but jokes aside, there was some truth to it, their mutual affection and comfort level, how they looked out for each other.

Now, and he finds this hard to believe, a decade has passed and Maggie Drew has to be in her fifties, except she has somehow gotten a youthful glow that makes her look younger than she did in the bad old days when her body was racked with rheumatoid arthritis.

They take a booth, Maggie looking around, remembering. “Hasn’t changed a bit,” she says. “The first time you took me here? We were working the Branch Davidians, just before it all went south, which had me a bit distracted, so that’s my excuse for a brain malfunction. I thought you were taking me to some romantic little restaurant away from the big city, maybe you had a motel in mind.”

Shane blushes.

“You haven’t changed, either,” she says. “Still blushing like a stoplight at the merest hint of flirtation. Don’t worry, I was planning to let you down easy. Compete with that gorgeous wife of yours? Never entered my little brain. And I got over it quick when I saw this joint. Don’t get me wrong, I love the old 29, but romantic it ain’t.”

29 Diner, a landmark of sorts, dates from the late 1940s and clings to the past with attitude. Or, with attitude and a righteous royal cheeseburger and a ten-buck T-bone. Back in the day, when the job got to him he’d trek out here, have a milk shake. It calmed him down-his own personal Prozac. And he shared it with Maggie.

“So how’d you do it?” he asks, staring at her healthy self. “Join a rejuvenation cult?”

Her smile is impish, secretive. “We need more of those, but no. I did it the old-fashioned way. I found me a new doc, he’s a bit of a stud, actually, and he put me on a new drug. A TNF blocker. Tried ’em before, but this is a new version and this time it worked. I skin-pop the stuff every two weeks and so far the RA is in deep remission. It doesn’t hurt to sit, it doesn’t hurt to walk, it doesn’t hurt to be alive. Can’t do anything about the joint damage to my hands, but other than that, I’m good to go.”