Andy McNab - Recoil

I stopped against a tree. I rested both hands on the trunk and leaned forward to balance her and control my breathing. This was taking for ever. I listened and looked between the tree-trunks and bush for any irregularities of shape, shine, shadow, spacing, silhouette or movement.

Sweat dropped from my forehead and chin on to the leaf litter, like water from a melting icicle.

Birds twittered in the trees and the cicadas went for it hammer and tongs. I'd never seen one of the fuckers in all the times I'd spent in jungles, but they always let you know they were out there, ready and in sufficient numbers to take over the world.

She slid off, hobbling on to her good left leg, either to give me or herself a rest. She levered herself down slowly with her back against the tree-trunk, her right leg out in support as the left did all the work. Finally she sank into the mud.

Too tired to do anything else, I kept my position, looking and listening as I pulled out my prismatic and checked our direction. Everything hurt; everything was heavy. Anything with wings, the size of a pinhead or bigger, landed on me to bite. I glanced down at Silky and saw they weren't saving it all for me: she had lumps on her face and neck the size of witch's boils.

My head swam and my throat was so dry it felt like I'd been swallowing the gravel Crucial should have been getting down his neck to sort out that squeaky voice. I knew I was dehydrating, and that I had to take on fluid urgently. These symptoms were Nature's final warning. The next step was collapse.

I tapped her shoulder and offered a hand to pull her up. A small flock of birds rattled out of the canopy somewhere in the distance, but not close enough to worry about. I was trying to work out my time and distance. We'd been on the move for about an hour before we'd got the contacts, and we'd been going slowly an hour and a half since. We must be at least halfway to the mine, maybe even a bit more.

I thought about the contact. Well, more about the boy whose face I had destroyed. I knew now that if we got back to the mine, there was a pretty strong chance I might have to do it again.

Silky looked at me. 'You OK?'

'Yeah.' I got ready to take her weight. 'Come on.'

She climbed on as best she could, but she was fucked, and she wasn't the only one. I adjusted her on my back as best I could, as if she was a bergen and I was twenty-nine Ks into a thirty-K fast tab. I got my hands round her thighs and jumped up that last little bit to get the balance right. Her legs rubbed against the sores on my back and I almost shouted with pain. But there was fuck-all to be done about it; I had to crack on. I leaned forward, took the weight in my hands again, and shook my head of sweat. I checked my next bound and made distance.

I didn't know what I was supposed to think or feel about her running away from me. When I heard the next burst of gunfire ahead of us, I realized it didn't much matter.

I couldn't work out exactly where the shots had come from; the trees bounced the noise about. Could have been dead ahead, or down to the right.

I stood stock still, mouth open, and tried to listen. She was breathing noisily into my ear. 'Ssssh… Hold it…'

There was more intermittent fire, then a couple of single shots, but again I was none the wiser.

I adjusted Silky once more and staggered on. There was nothing else I could do. It was ineffective fire: the rounds weren't hitting us or the ground around us, and if I stopped every time I heard a shot we wouldn't get anywhere.

I'd lost all sense of time and distance; my head spun and my lips were coated with white, foamy saliva.

A scream pierced the jungle no more than ten metres in front of us.

There were shots, long bursts, rounds hitting the floor all over the place and thudding into the trees. It didn't matter if the rounds were aimed or the guys were just taking a cabby. They'd still make big holes in us.

I dropped like liquid and Silky collapsed on top of me. Her chin crashed down on the back of my head.

I moved to the right, downhill, fast, dragging her along the ground as she whimpered with pain.

The firing had stopped, but the screams and shouts hadn't. They definitely came from ahead of us, on the high ground. I took advantage of the noise and kept her moving. The further away we got the better.

I shuffled along, half squatting, gripping her arm, virtually dragging her, trailing her leg in the mud. My eyes were zeroed in on the noise rather than where I was heading, so at first I didn't see what I'd stumbled over.

The thousands of flies I'd disturbed swarmed into the air with the force and anger of a tornado.

Then I saw one pair of feet, but two bodies.

Silky saw them too and opened her mouth in a silent scream.

They'd been freshly dropped; the blood still glistened. The chunks of scalp had probably been ripped from their heads after death, but I knew there was a strong chance their arms and legs had been hacked off while they were still alive.

The flies swarmed back on to the raw flesh. I looked at the torsos and saw at least one mag tucked into a pair of jeans. And if there were mags, there might still be weapons.

I climbed over the limbs, grabbed the mag, and handed it to Silky. 'Have a look,' I said quietly. 'Get any others. Careful of the blood.'

I pissed off the flies again as I searched under the torsos. They sounded like a chainsaw in a wind tunnel.

There was an AK wedged under the second guy. I grabbed hold, but it wouldn't budge. The flies landed again and it looked like the bodies themselves were moving. Silky retched. She'd probably seen a few dead bodies in her time, but none after a gollock had done its worst.

The AK came clear and I fell back into the leaf litter. The magazine had taken a round through it, so I hit the release catch and let it drop. The safety lever was already down, so I pulled back the working parts and checked the chamber. There was a round in. I let the working parts slide forward, and flicked the safety back up.

I started to crawl, and beckoned Silky to follow. She needed no second bidding. I heard her vomit, but it sounded like nothing was coming up.

She'd get over it. I took a mag from her and pushed down on the rounds to make sure it was full. I rocked it back into the weapon, and gave it a little shake to make sure it was firmly in place.

We had to keep moving towards the mine, and try to box round whatever was just ahead.

We moved down into the low ground for another twenty metres, Silky sliding more than hopping. I stopped, checked the sun, and headed north again.

We'd gone no more than a hundred metres when I heard voices.

They were muffled, and I couldn't make anything out. I dropped to my hands and knees and started to crawl, my body pumping with adrenalin. Silky did her best to keep up.

There was more mumbling on the high ground to our left.

Silky was three metres or so behind me, so I listened as I waited for her to come level.

There was no movement up there, no running around. Just voices.

I signalled to her to keep still.

I didn't wait for an answer, or even a nod. I wanted to get closer to the voices and try to find a way out of this shit. Right hand on the pistol grip, index finger over the trigger guard, left hand on the stock, I started a very slow leopard crawl on my elbows and knees.

I stopped, looked, listened. Why weren't they moving out to see if they had dropped us? If they were static, in positions, maybe they were Sam's guys. The dead ones certainly hadn't been. The one I'd taken the weapon from had been wearing an Eminem T-shirt and jeans.

I moved a couple more metres uphill and the mud and leaf litter built up on my chest like a bow wave. Now I could hear everything I needed to. I turned round and crawled back down to Silky.