John Locke - The Love You Crave

Gwen looks at Callie for approval.

Callie says, “Why did you meet Carmine Porrello today?”

“I wanted to ask him something.”

“Go on.”

Gwen looks at me again. “I wanted him to kill someone.”

“Who?” Callie says.

Gwen nods at me and says, “Donovan.”

Callie studies my face.

“You knew,” she says.

“I did. What I don’t know is why.”

We look at Gwen. Callie says, “Why?”

Gwen sighs. “It’s hard to explain.”

“Try,” I say.

She frowns at me. Then says, “I couldn’t choose between you.”

“What do you mean?” Callie says.

“I like you both. I mean, I like you better, Callie. You’re beautiful, you’re stable, you treat me great…”

“But?” Callie says.

“But today when I fucked Donovan, I felt terrible. Not at the time, of course, but…”

“Back up.” Callie says. “You fucked Creed today?”

She looks at me.

“It’s partly my fault,” I say.

“Partly?”

“Mostly.”

“So anyway,” Gwen says, “afterward, I felt terrible. I really like Donovan, but I decided today I love you.”

“Before or after you fucked him?”

“After.”

Callie looks at me. “I would’ve expected better from you.”

I shrug. “You had to be there.”

To Gwen, Callie says, “You love me?”

“I do.”

“How could I ever expect to trust you?”

“If Donovan dies, the problem goes away.”

Callie looks at me and says, “Why is it all your girlfriends want to kill you?”

I shrug. “Some don’t.”

“So far as you know.” She looks at Gwen. “We’re not killing Creed. Pack your things.”

I say, “Callie? She knows everything.”

Gwen says, “Wait. I would never tell!”

“The detectives aren’t done with this,” I say. “They might try to work on her.”

“What about my t-shirt business?” Gwen says.

“It might raise some eyebrows at the next board meeting if she turns up dead,” I say.

“They haven’t approved the reorganization yet though, right?” Callie says.

“True.”

Gwen starts backing up. “Can’t we just forget what happened today?”

“Which part?” Callie says.

“All of it. I want a do-over. No more Donovan. Just you, Callie. For ever and always.”

Callie says, “You sound sincere. But can I trust you?”

“Yes. I swear.”

“If you ever cheat on me again, I’ll kill you. Do you understand?”

“Yes.”

“Okay,” Callie says. “Come.” She holds her arms out. Gwen’s face breaks into a broad grin as she moves across the room toward Callie. I see what’s about to happen, and jump between them.

Callie arches an eyebrow, which is never a good sign. Word of advice: you ever see Callie Carpenter arch an eyebrow at you, run!

“What the hell’s the matter with you?” Gwen says.

“Sorry, I slipped.”

“Bullshit!”

Gwen tries to get around me to hug Callie. I mirror her movements, keeping my body between them.

“Do you mind?” she says.

“Sorry. I seem to be all tangled up.”

I catch Callie’s eye. She says, “Creed. Relax.”

I move away, and Gwen embraces her. Callie watches me over Gwen’s shoulder, completely oblivious to Gwen’s affection. I’d come between them just now for a reason. Callie was about to give Gwen a “loving sister,” a move I created years ago to be used on my ex-wife, Janet. It works like this: if Janet shoots me and claims self-defense, Callie will meet her a few days after the funeral, and put her arms out as if to give Janet a sisterly hug. Janet will move toward Callie to return the hug, but at the last second, Callie will sidestep her, spin around, come up behind her, and break her neck.

Callie says, “I don’t tolerate infidelity. Could it be I didn’t make that clear enough to you when killing Eva in your bedroom?”

“She’ll be faithful,” I say.

“I will!” Gwen says. “I swear!”

“She was willing to have me killed to remove the temptation,” I remind Callie.

“That idea might still have legs,” Callie says, backing out of Gwen’s embrace.

“I’m stepping out. You have my word.”

“I don’t want you involved with Ropic Industries.”

“Good. Because Tony and I haven’t been getting along.”

“Tony?”

“Tony Spumoni. I think he’s planning to file assault charges against me.”

Gwen sticks her bottom lip out. “What about my t-shirt company?”

“I’ll have them buy you out.”

“How much?”

“The company’s worth eight million, but they’re short on cash and this would be a fire sale.”

“How much?”

“Eight hundred thousand.”

“Ten percent? That’s a terrible deal!”

“It’s enough for a t-shirt company.”

“Take it,” Callie says.

Without batting an eye, Gwen says, “Okay.”

I notice she’s looking at Callie with bedroom eyes.

“Are we good here?” I say to Callie.

“You and me?”

“Yeah.”

“For now.”

Maybe Taylor.

Maybe’s first encounter with this stupid vaginal muscle spasm thing occurred eighteen months ago. She kept it to herself for a long time, hoping it would go away, but it just got worse. One night, while feeling particularly low, she tearfully explained her problems to Daddy, the man she now calls Ralph. Over time, he talked her into seeing an OBGYN, which is how she obtained the diagnosis. She then met with a specialist, but that didn’t work out, so Daddy did an exhaustive search that ended with his paying Dr. Scott a ridiculous amount of money to get Maybe on his patient list.

Over the past few months of therapy, Dr. Scott explored the possible psychological reasons for Maybe’s condition, including the fear of painful sex, and the belief that sex is wrong, or dirty. He even suggested a traumatic incident may have triggered her condition. Maybe cooperated in general, but never told Dr. Scott about Taylor, the young man whose name she added to her alias.

Taylor, a wealthy, good-looking kid, had attended J-State. Had a popular girlfriend, Nancy, and dated Maybe on the sly. Taylor’s dad was a famous TV personality in Atlanta, his mom a local celebrity. Since his best friend was Nancy’s brother, his relationship with Maybe remained a secret.

Taylor and Maybe were on their third date at his parent’s lake house in south Georgia. It was November, and the temperature well past chilly. The plan had been to spend a couple of quiet hours there, as they’d done twice before, only this time Maybe promised to go “all the way.”

When they arrived that night, the key was missing from its hiding place.

“It’s okay,” she said. “We can do it in the car.”

“I want our first time to be special, in a proper bed,” he said. “Wait here.”

With that, he went behind the house and broke a small windowpane in the door that led to the den, reached his hand in, and unlocked it. Instead of waiting out front, Maybe followed him inside. Within seconds their clothes were in a heap on the floor, and Taylor, nude except for his socks, chased a naked Maybe down the hall toward the kitchen. Moments later they were on the kitchen floor (so much for a proper bed) and both were benefiting from his extensive sexual experience. After a few minutes he asked Maybe to get on top, and she obliged.

Then all hell broke loose.

Something inside her-a sort of muscle spasm occurred, causing her vagina to clamp down on Taylor’s penis. He yelped in pain.

“What are you doing?” he yelled.

“ Nothing! It hurts me, too!” she yelled back.

As his erection quickly died, his level of pain increased. Now he was yelling, begging her to call 911.