Sara Foster - Beneath the Shadows

She stored the number. ‘Thanks.’

‘See you on Sunday then.’ He began to turn away.

‘I haven’t told you that I’m at Hawthorn Cottage… in Roseby…’ she said quickly.

‘So I heard,’ he answered, gesturing to the shop. ‘I know where Hawthorn Cottage is. I’ll see you then.’

He set off down the lane, the dog trotting behind him. Grace watched them walk away until they reached a battered black Land Rover. The dog jumped in next to its owner, and moments later the vehicle roared by, the rise and fall of the road soon taking it out of sight.

The return trip to Roseby took about fifteen minutes. Grace drove cautiously along the empty road, the deserted moors spreading out on either side. Approaching the village from this direction, the journey was a stark contrast to the country lanes they had driven through yesterday. Then, at least there had been trees, and patches of grass, and the occasional farmhouse, but here on the moor top it was flat, brown and barren.

She glanced behind her as she neared the crest of the hill that would take them down into the village. Millie had fallen asleep in her seat, her head lolling awkwardly against her chest. Taking the opportunity of a moment to herself, Grace pulled up at the side of the road and switched off the engine. She looked out across the wild expanse and tried to breathe it in, allow her mind to stop, flex itself, unfurl, rather than chase itself in ever-decreasing circles full of unbidden thoughts.

And yet, she found herself back twelve months, sitting in the cottage answering endless questions about Adam, probing questions designed to find some explanation of his mental health or his circumstances that might have led him to make an abrupt departure from his life. She told them everything; she had nothing to hide. He was happy to have moved here. He was starting work as a supply teacher the following week. He knew the area, yes, from visits to his grandparents and an extended stay here in his teens after his mother died, but he hadn’t lived here for almost fifteen years.

But had he ever wandered off before? they persisted. Did he have any history of mental illness? Depression?

She had tried to explain Adam to them. That he often sang loudly and out-of-tune in the shower. That he was fanatical about cricket. That he could quote his favourite Tarantino movies verbatim. That he was always the one offering support to troubled friends, never the one in crisis himself. But whatever she said, the questions kept on coming. And when they found out he had no family left alive to speak of, their doubts had intensified.

The night Adam had gone, Grace had been surrounded by strangers: police, mostly, along with a few locals wanting to help out. Her parents were on their way from France but wouldn’t arrive until the next day. Annabel was getting hold of a car and would be there as soon as she could, but had a five-hour road trip from London ahead of her. There had been a sudden flare of hope that they could find Adam via his mobile signal, until she told them that she had already tried the number, and had found the phone ringing in the pocket of Millie’s pram.

When her interrogation had finally ended, Grace had briefly gone out into the pitch-black night and stood with Millie held tight in her arms, surrounded by strobing torchlights, listening to Adam’s name echoing away through different voices, praying that one of them would hear a response. But each call was carried off on the bitter wind to be met with silence. Later she had watched as the search parties returned, shoulders slack, heads bowed. Nothing had explained why Millie had been left alone on the doorstep with no sign of her daddy. Not then, and not since.

Grace’s mother and father had arrived twenty-four hours later, pulling their daughter into their arms and letting her sob her helplessness out on them. Grace had seen the horror and confusion on their faces as they watched the police coming in and out of the cottage. But with her family there, Grace had at least felt anchored to the world again. Her parents had stayed by her side throughout the ensuing fortnight as she faced the media, asking for information, then waited for answers that never came. They had helped her search for Adam’s passport when the police requested it. To Grace’s alarm, none of them could find it, but the police had put out an alert, and there was no record of it being used.

As Christmas grew closer, with no news, Grace’s parents had grown more eager to leave every day. They had insisted upon taking Grace and Millie too; under no circumstances would they leave them by themselves in such a remote part of the world, the antithesis of their beloved, bright and sunny South of France. At the time, Grace had been too upset to do anything but acquiesce, and she was thankful for their steady, guiding hands over the last twelve months. But if she was ever going to get on with her life, she had to take those first wobbly steps back out on her own. So here she was.

Grace jumped as a car flew past them, shattering the silence. Her reverie was broken. The moors lay in front of her, bleak and brown under a heavy grey sky. Stop letting your memories run riot, she chided herself. Just keep busy, get things done. She needed distraction, and was glad that Annabel was coming up this weekend, under the pretext of helping out, even though she knew Annabel was likely to prove useless on that score.

She started the engine again. Halfway down the steep hill that led into the village, they passed an imposing two-storey stone house, perched at a point where it could survey the dwellings below, like a patrician parent hovering over its children. After that there was a patch of bare grass, beyond which the remains of a dilapidated row of terraced cottages could be seen in the distance. At the lowest dip in the road stood the whitewashed pub, after which they crossed a small bridge, making their way up the next incline towards Hawthorn Cottage.

She stopped the car outside her gate, observing the Land Rover parked up ahead of them. Then she spotted someone standing at her front door. As she watched, the woman moved to the front window, cupped her hands around her eyes and peered through.

Grace got slowly out of the car, wondering why she should be the one feeling uncomfortable at catching someone else snooping around her home. This woman looked totally out of place in an area where the dress-code was mostly denim, flannel checks and tweed. She wore baggy fisherman’s trousers and a shapeless stripy jumper, teamed with a beanie in rainbow colours.

As Grace closed the car door, the woman turned, and with absolutely no embarrassment said, ‘Oh, hello! I thought this place looked occupied.’ She noted Grace’s confusion and laughed. ‘Sorry, let me introduce myself. I’m Claire, Meredith’s daughter.’ She pointed back the way Grace had just come, towards the big house sitting on the hillside. ‘Mum saw the car here, and I’ve been sent round to check it out, make sure you’re not a squatter. You must be Grace.’

Grace returned the friendly smile. ‘Yes, I am,’ she replied. ‘Pleased to meet you. I didn’t know Meredith had a daughter. I’m looking forward to seeing her again – to say thank you. She’s done a terrific job of minding the place.’

The woman came forward and held out a hand. As she got closer, Grace saw that Claire’s eyebrow was pierced through with a small hoop, and her nose sported a ruby gem. One ear had two rings through it, whereas the other one had five, becoming gradually smaller as they ascended her ear.

‘Nice to meet you too,’ Claire said. ‘And Meredith hasn’t got one daughter, there are four of us, for her sins. And she can’t get rid of us either – as one moves out, another one moves back in for some reason or other. I’m the latest refugee. Mind you, Mum loves it. She wouldn’t know what to do with herself in that big old house if one or other of us wasn’t in need of a hand.’ Her eyes flickered towards the car. ‘Is that your daughter in there?’