Gregg Hurwitz - The Crime Writer

My cell phone vibrated pleasingly in my pocket, and I dug it out.

Preston asked, "What are you doing?"

"Lying around listlessly. Bemoaning an unjust universe."

"I'm in the neighborhood. Drop by?"

"No?"

"See you in ten."

Forty-five minutes later, the doorbell rang. I yelled, "You have a key!"

Preston came in, glanced around the family room. "The drawn curtains. The dirty dishes. The ragged clothing. How about we rewrite this scene?"

Preston is a better friend than he seems. He'd come to see me in jail second, after Chic, browbeating the rookie guard into extending visitor hours. Though he wasn't a smoker, he'd lit up behind the Plexiglas, I'd assumed, out of regard for the ambience. Trying to repress a cough, he'd shot smoke past the crest of his bangs and remarked, "They don't really make a Hallmark card for this one, do they?"

In his interior forties, Preston has intense blue eyes and a square jaw that flexes out at the corners when he's working to a point, which is often. He'd been my editor for all five of my books, and I'd yet to find him wanting for an opinion on any matter trivial or life-threatening. Infuriatingly resolute, unusually hands-on, overly involved, he seems to live through the books he publishes. He loves make-believe, but the set of his features showed a heightened thrill at now being in the real-life-of-it-all.

His head-tilted appraisal of me continued. "How do you feel getting out?" He seemed to have shape-shifted already into the streetwise confederate with a hard-boiled mouth.

"Off balance." I shrugged. "My horoscope says it's because Jupiter's in my twelfth house."

"That is bad," he mused. "Once, growing up, we had a possum in our outhouse." Preston grew up in an academic family in Charlottesville, and now and then he lets a yokelism slip into his conversation. Owning apartments in Manhattan and West Hollywood on an editor's salary doesn't square with outhouse and possum references, but if you took away Preston's affectations, there'd be no one left to argue with.

He looked around, folding his arms, helpless against the mess of my house. "I suppose you seem to be holding together, given the circumstances," he conceded.

"My suffering has ennobled me."

He pursed his lips and regarded me as if perhaps that weren't true.

I said, "Thanks for getting my mail. Not to mention cosigning the mortgage refinance."

Preston waved me off no time for niceties then nodded at the Band-Aid on my foot. "What happened there?"

"I cut myself with a boning knife."

"Naturally. Why?"

"Because I'm a nutcase."

"Why don't you give me the backstory?"

He feigned patience as I filled him in on the bizarre events of last night. When I was done, he said, "Let me make a cup of tea." He disappeared into the kitchen, then called out, "Do you have a lime?"

"Try the fridge."

He returned a few minutes later with a glass of ice and the bottle of Havana Club he'd smuggled back from an ostensible research trip to Cuba and given, also ostensibly, to me as an oh-look-it's-contraband souvenir. He kept it hidden in my kitchen so other guests wouldn't access it. Sitting on the long arm of my sectional's L, he sipped his rum. I noted, with some irritation, he hadn't offered to bring me anything.

"Aren't you supposed to be in New York?" I asked.

"I extended my office leave." A sly grin. "I'm editing out here for the next few months so I can be supportive." He tapped his manicured nails together. "Look, Drew, I'm not gonna lie to you. I don't know if you did it or not. But I do know one thing: If I were you, and if I had a modicum of doubt as to my guilt, I wouldn't be sitting around."

"You'd do what?"

"Investigate."

"Get me forensics, a blood panel, and sat footage of the canyon."

"Don't be a smart-ass. You can't afford it. You may be free, but the public views you as a murderer. You're tarred with that brush, and, unlike O.J., you can't just retire to a golf course and live off your bloated retirement accounts. If you accept the verdict as delivered, fine. Start not drinking again. But if you don't accept that verdict, you have to get away from that tumor, dig down into what happened, and exonerate yourself." He crunched ice thoughtfully. "The story you should be working on is the one that's working on you."

He took another swig, cubes clinking musically against the glass. Unable to manage his own life at all, he was happy to micromanage mine. Would he micromanage me right into a padded room? I settled back in my chair, studied the smooth white ceiling.

He continued, "Harriman effectively painted you as the killer. But this insanity nonsense might not be the real version of events. And if not, you have to find your story. The real story." His eyes gleamed. He was Excited By The Possibilities. "Maybe you didn't do it. Maybe someone did break into your house. Maybe there is a furtive Gaslight plot to mess with your head. We don't read the books about the nine hundred ninety-nine times something goes as expected. We read those about the one time it goes wrong. Or strangely. Or extraordinarily. And there are enough oddities here that this" he pointed at me "could be the case." He stared at me, but before I could respond, he was going again. "This is your life. What have you done to explore this since you've been home?"

"I looked around the house, checked my e-mail and PalmPilot to see if I could piece anything together, talked to "

"Oh, well, I'm riveted. Did you do lots of tortured sulking, too? Play the saxophone in the dark?"

My face was burning. "I tried to keep sulking to a minimum, but yes, I may have sulked some. Moderate darkness. But no moody wind instruments."

"What did you do today?"

"Opened the mail. And I ate yams."

"You ate yams?"

"At Chic's house."

He threw up his hands as if that said it all. "Do you want to make progress or do you want to be angry?"

I thought for a moment. "I want to be angry."

"What would Dirk Chincleft do?"

Preston has various unflattering nicknames for Derek Chainer. That's the good thing about editors. Wit.

"Dirk Chincleft is a homicide detective," I said. "He has official leverage. I don't have leverage."

"Come on! You're stuck in the first act, and you're not driving your narrative. You know better. You impact the plot. Or the plot impacts you."

"This isn't a fucking story."

He leaned forward, jabbing a finger at the floor. "Everything's a fucking story. And you're letting this one languish. What you need is something to kick down the front door, come barreling into the plot, crashing into the story. Make you react. Make you act. But in the likely event that that isn't gonna happen, you need to uncover what happened. If you're not afraid to." His gaze zeroed in on me; he'd sensed perhaps that he'd flicked a vulnerability. "A writer's job, perhaps more than any other, is not to be afraid of possibilities."

"But I am." I hadn't realized it until I heard it out loud, even from my own mouth. I was afraid of what I'd discover, and that fear had stalled me out.

We'd veered into The Writer's Feelings, uncomfortable territory for Preston. He broke eye contact, gathering the strap of his bag, his intensity suddenly dissipated. He stood and dusted his pants. "I hate to sound L.A.-loathsome, but I've got bikram yoga."

"Yoga with the Muppets?"

"Hot room. Hundred and five degrees." Master of the last word, Preston paused at the threshold to the living room. For once his expression was sincere. "Dirk Chincleft wouldn't take it lying down."

The front door closed neatly behind him, and the dead bolt set with a smug click.

I'd never imagined that freedom would feel so constraining. If I'd been convicted, I'd have had the benefit of lurid prison tales, stoic last words as they strapped me into the chair. Preston was right about one thing: I was at a narrative dead end. I contemplated my options. None seemed appealing, so I stomped upstairs, echoes of Preston's oppressing me more with each step. Where do you go when the case is closed and the courts, the cops, the press, the public, and maybe even you believe you're the killer? In real life? Fucking nowhere, that's where.